[Chapter 6]

Ayan

The first time mom showed me Lumira's biodata and picture, I had this fluttery feeling in my heart.

Her eyes are so damn innocent, which is rare to find now a days. I guess this is what attracted me in the first place. Her crescent shaped eyes captivating those hazel irises.

And when I got to know her more, I knew we are compatible. Our dynamics just balanced so well, it surprises me how good of a listener she is.

She never interrupts me, or when I say I'm tired and can't talk now. She always understands me and tells me to rest.

I'm really lucky to have found someone like her in my life. A rare diamond to marry and have a family with in this era of chaos and disloyalty.

Ever since our first meet, I always find myself seeking forward to our dates. Waiting for more moments to spend together. I just- I dunno, am I in love already?

But I've ruined it all now.

I did something so vehemently wrong.

Mom had warned me again and again about our culture, and how I shouldn't cross any boundaries before marriage and ruin our image.

She had me in a seating and gave a long lecture about how I may be half White and half Brown, but I can never demean her roots.

I didn't even mean to do anything like that but I gave in to my temptations.

Honestly, it's hard to control the inner desires when someone as gorgeous and perfect as Lumira is always around me.

My self-control keeps slipping every time I am near her.

And I did cross the boundary tonight.

What's Lumira even thinking of me?

I messed up so fucking bad!

I don't even have the audacity to face her again. I'm so freaking embarrassed.

I just want to dig a hole and die. The most embarrassing thing is, I can't forget about the incident. Her breasts are so big and round, I could see her perky nipples through the soaked shirt.

I still remember the way my stomach had coiled and I couldn't just help myself from touching them. It was so tempting. She is so tempting.

Not only her face and soul is attractive, even her body is so sexy. Not so thin or not so chubby, curves so perfect, I can die.

At night, I just bury myself under the blanket and keep cursing for the shitty thing I did till I eventually fall into a restless sleep.

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I am the worst kind of person to ever exist.

Not only did I touch Lumira without consent, now I am ignoring her texts and calls for the past couple days. When it should have been me pursuing her and asking for forgiveness.

But what can I do? I can't even face her after what happened.

"Sir, are you alright?" The voice of my assistant brings me back to the present where I'm in my office.

"Yeah." I sigh.

"I'm here to listen if you need anyone to talk to." Sara tucks a strand of hair behind her ear in what I think is a form of seduction.

"Sara, you should leave now. I want to be left alone." I say sternly.

Sara's face darkens and she leaves. I exhale longly. She's been doing it for a while now. I don't know how to handle this without saying anything hurtful to her.

But if she keeps on being like this, I'll surely lash out someday. I'm already too stressed out about my situation with Lumira.

Around 6:30, I gather my keys, phone and coat, heading out of the office. I was about to get in my car when my phone starts ringing, for the third time today.

My heart tightens seeing Lumira's name flashing across the screen.

I have ignored the other two times in the morning but something in me tells me that I should pick up now.

How long can I even ignore my bride's call?

Taking a deep breath in, I slide the green button and press the phone against my ear.

"Hello?"

"Ayan." Her voice sounds hoarse and down, spiking my worry.

"Lumira? What's wrong?" I ask, getting in my car and buckling up.

"My throat's really scratchy. Mom and dad are away on a trip. Can you please bring me some cough syrup?"

"Yeah, of course. I'll be there in half an hour." I hang up and quickly start the car.

I feel so shitty and guilty for not answering her phone earlier. She must have been feeling sick all day, suffering all alone.

As her would be husband, I should have been more caring towards her.

I buy the syrup for cough and some other meds for fever and cold then drive to her condo.

When I reach the driveway and attempt to step out, my eyes land on a figure standing at the bottom of the stairs.

Lumira?

She raises a palm and I stop unbuckling. She runs over to me and opens the door and situates herself in the passenger seat.

"What?" I am dumbfounded, opening and closing my mouth like a fish out of water.

Lumira grins sheepishly, buckling herself and winking at me.

"You weren't answering my texts or calls for two days! This was the only way I could get you to come to me."

My jaw slacks open in disbelief.

"Seriously?!" I exclaim and she winces, chuckling carefreely.

Her laughter is like a melody if not for my heart chasing a mile per second.

"I'm sorry." She bites her lip on purpose, she knows it's my weak point.

With a groan, I smack my hand against the steering wheel, abrupting a loud horn.

"I was so worried and damn guilty! How could you!" I turn to face her with brows drawn together in what's supposed to be anger but those damned innocent eyes make my resolve falter. "I felt so shitty after that day, I-I couldn't even bring myself to face you and then you call like that and I-"

My words are swallowed back in my throat when she suddenly grabs my tie and pulls me in, crashing her lips right on mine.

It takes me several seconds and my heart pounding in my ears to realize that Lumira is kissing me.

An actual kiss on the lips.

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