CHAPTER NINETEEN

Paisley Redmond P.O.V

Today at work I wanted to talk to Mr.Brown and to know the name of the firm we will be transferring for. I found Luke's point valid to know about the firm, even though Mr.Brown is an honest man, but entirely depending on him won't be very wise. Anyways, I couldn't talk to him as he was ill and couldn't make to work.

Another thing on my mind is Ryder and Noah's birthday. I really have been caught in my own mess so much that I couldn't even think about my kids. I feel if Kyle is here, I should tell him about their birthday, it's not like I can or should hide about it from him. Today when he comes to drop the boys off I decide, I would tell him.

I finished my evening cup of tea and heard the stopping of a car. Without a doubt I knew it would be the twins and Kyle, so I opened the door even before they could ring the bell.

"Well I see you could sense I was coming, huh?" Kyle asked with a smirk.

"Hey sweethearts!" I greeted my kids ignoring his stupid comment.

"Hello mommy!" "Hi mommy!" They said as we all entered the house and walked towards the living room.

After we all were seated I asked my boys "So, did you both enjoy yourselves today? What did you people do?"

"We did colouring, watched Tom and Jerry and played with ironman and hulk and with daddy." Noah replied.

"We also had more than two chocolates mommy!" Ryder said innocently. I felt proud of the fact he doesn't hide things from me. A complete mumma's boy!

"Oh man!" Kyle exclaimed face-palming.

I let out a small laugh at his action but stopped before he could take notice of it.

I saw Kyle and the boys acting a bit weird. As if Kyle was trying to tell them something.

"Mom, can we go to our room?" Ryder asked. This is surprising, they always want to be around when I and Kyle are together with them, but I usually send them away because we always end up arguing.

"Ohk....?" I said or more like question absolutely confused.

They ran to their room without waiting another second.

I got up as well and went to the kids playroom to arrange something's, hoping Kyle would get the message to leave, but he didn't as always!

"Paisley love, I want to tell you something." He replied following into the playroom.

"Not interested. Leave!" I said not even turning around.

"Well, that is not up for discussion cause I have to tell you this before we have another issue to deal with. So, please listen to what I have to say." Kyle said and I knew he won't give up until I listen to his nonsense.

"Does it include you again explaining things?" I asked.

"Not excatly, it's something you should know about." He said.

"Go ahead then!" I said with still my back facing him, while I was keeping the toys in place.

"Okay. So, I think you know that somebody new is shifting a few houses away from yours, right?" Kyle asked and I could sense something fishy.

"Of course, I do. I live here, but how do you know about it?" I turned around asking him with my eyebrows raised.

"Um.... uh... it's actually me who is shifting there." He said nerverously rubbing the back of his neck.

My eyes were wide as saucers and I am sure my jaw was touching the ground by now. What kind of an idiot is he!?

Jerk of first order!

"What is the sensible reason for you to shift here? Since you will go back to London in a couple of days. So?" I asked him keeping my temper at the bay.

"Well the sensible reason is that I want to stay close to my wife and kids at all times, if I can't stay with them in the same house till things are fine. And yes, we are shifting back to London in a couple of days. So, this place can be kept as a home here for when we all visit your family." He explained as it was the most simplest thing in this damn world.

"You are crazy! How many times do I have to tell you that I won't be coming back with you to London!? The only time I'll back there would be when we are getting divorced. Better get it in that thick head of yours, Kyle Redmond! You shifting here close to me and the kids won't change my mind about anything. You can't have me back." I said shouting at him.

"You shout all you want, curse me, hit me but nothing will change my mind about getting you back. I want you back and I will have you back. Nothing you do or say will make me doubt my choice. Right now I am being very patient and cooperative, but I won't be that for a long time! I will do any damn thing to change your mind. If I have to force you and adopt unfair means, I will, but you will be coming to London with me along with our boys very soon. It would be so quick you won't even have the time to notice it." He replied absolutely calm.

"Go on saying crap, Kyle. Everything in this world does not happen as per your wishes. You can control work but not people. You might have had a strong control over me once, but not anymore! I am my own person! I will take decisions for myself and not according to anybody else. And yeah, forcing people is what you know very well. You have mastered it! But I won't ever, I mean ever let you do that again." I said in a determined tone.

"Paisley, I won't stop, better know that. I won't until I get what I want and need!" Kyle said.

"Well, then let's say you will have to go on for the rest of your life. Because I will not give into your demands!" I glared at him.

"We shall see, my love, we shall see." He said shoving his hand inside his jeans pockets with a smug look on his face.

"Happy dreaming!" I said giving him an evil smirk.

He just smirked back and raised his eyebrows. Oh how this action of his still makes my heart flutter!

NO Paisely! You are suppose to feel that way about him. I told myself.

"Kyle?" I said as he was still standing there without getting the message to leave.

"Yeah, baby?" He said innocently smiling and I just rolled my eyes.

"I guess you forgot something." I told him sounding serious.

"Oh! What is it?" He asked utterly confused.

"Follow me and you shall know." I told him and walked till the main door.

"What is it, babe?" He asked still confused.

"You forgot to get out of my house!" I said already opening the door and pushing him out. He isn't a very light man but the fact he was unaware of it, helped me push him.

"Ahh.. don't be like that now." He groaned standing out of the house.

"This is how I am." I said almost closing the door.

"Come on plewse!" He imitated Noah and Ryder trying to push the door open.

"Let me think. NO!" I said.

"Fine!" He huffed and started walking towards his car.

"Listen Kyle?" I called out when he was about to sit inside his car.

"Are you letting me in?" He asked excitedly as a kid on christmas.

"No. I just wanted you to know it's Noah and Ryder's birthday in six days." I told him and shut the door before he could have the time to register what I said.

I heard the driving away of a car and knew he was gone.

I thought pushing him out of my house would feel good but it just didn't. My mind was immediately transported back to the time of that night he had pushed me out.

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4 Years Ago.....

It's been 1 year and a month since me and Kyle have been married.

Last month excatly on this day he made me feel so special. The best first anniversary any woman to ask for! He took an off from work and spend the entire day with me.

At excatly 12am that night he entered our room with a delicious and beautiful cake he had made himself, no wonder he had asked me to go over at Mel's in the evening. In the morning I had a lavish breakfast in bed again made by my dear husband, for lunch we had gone out to the same place he had proposed me for the wedding, and then for dinner it was again cooked by him. There in total were eight dishes out of which five were of my choice and rest his, then for desert we had all kinds of chocolate deserts.

After dinner he made me feel like the luckiest woman by loving me the whole night.

Our day wasn't anything extravagant, but just perfect for us!

Anyways. After our anniversary Kyle has been very distant from me, I asked him ample number of times what was bothering him but he always brushed me off. To be honest, Kyle's avoiding me, and I don't know why! It's eating me alive to not know about it. But tonight I have prepared dinner for us to talk over and discuss things, let's hope it works.

As if on cue, I heard the sound of the engine going off and knew it was Kyle. Without wasting another passing second I ran towards the door excited to see my husband.

"Hey baby!" I open the door and greeted him with a peck on the lips.

"Hi." He replied shortly and went inside without sparing me a glance. It's nothing new, this has been happening for the past month.

He kept his laptop bag on the coffee table and went up to our room, while I just followed him.

"How was your day, babe?" I asked as he was taking off his suit jacket and tie.

"Fine." He replied briefly again not looking at me.

"Well, you shower and I'll set the table." I said behind him as he entered the bathroom.

"Hm." He replied and closed the door.

Tears welled in my eyes and I sighed. It's been a month and I feel like I am unwanted by him, it hurts! I just wish everything between us will be fine by the end of tonight.

After half an hour Kyle came downstairs with his hair still wet, wearing a full sleeves v-neck and tracks.

"Come on dinners ready." I said smiling and he walked towards the dinning table without a word.

20 minutes into the dinner both of us were silent the only sound was of the clinking of the fork and knives. So, I decided to break the ice and spoke.

"Um.. Kyle?" I said.

"Yes." He replied keeping his eyes on the plate.

"Can I asked you something, please?" I asked lowly and he just nodded.

"Then please look up." I told and he huffed looking at me.

"What?" He snapped at me. I was shocked! No matter what, he has never spoken to me that way.

"What is the matter with you? I mean I can clearly tell that you are stressed, something is bothering you for the past month. You can tell me, baby. Tell me what is it that has got you all stressed." I said keeping my hand on top of his.

"You know you serioulsy have to stop with this interrogation of yours! I have told you there is nothing, that means there is nothing! So, why can't you mind your own f*cking business?" He shouted taking his hand out of my hold and got up banging his fist on the table dropping the chair in process.

Tears flowed down my cheeks I was afraid of him at the moment. I have never in the past two years have seen him so angry. Hell! He hasn't even talked dryly to me ever, but here he is shouting at me.

"I am s-sorry! I just w-wanted t-to know what wa-s bother-ring you. I didn't mean to interrogate you, sweetheart. I just want t-to know what is bothering y-yo-you." I said keeping my eyes on him still crying like a weakling.

He walked to me furiously taking long strides. "You want to what my problem is, right?" He asked pulling me out of the chair and held both my arms in a painful grip. The pain was too much and I was unable to answer him and whimpered.

"ANSWER ME NOW!" He yelled in my face.

"Y-yes." My voice came out strained and I tried to get out of his painful grip.

"IT'S YOU! YOU ARE MY F*CKING PROBLEM!" He shouted again tightening his grip.

"Leave me K-Kyle, please! Y-you are h-hu-hurting m-me." I sobbed out trying to wriggle out of his death grip.

"FINE!" He shouted again and harshly threw me on the ground. I fell down with such a great impact on the ground banging my head painfully on the floor in process. For sure it would become a bump later. "AHHH!" I screamed out in pain.

I turned around on the floor to look at Kyle. I saw his eyes softening a bit when he saw my face. But the softness was gone as quickly as it had appeared.

"Your crying won't affect me bitch!" He said looking at me with disgust.

I was too shocked to by his sudden change to say anything and kept on looking at him crying continuously.

"Got my answer as to what my problem is, huh?" He said mocking me his face devoid of all emotions.

"W-why... why are y-you do-ing this, K-Kyle?" I asked hopelessly.

"I don't owe you an explanation!" He spat.

"What have I-I done wr-ong, baby? Please tell me. I know you can never hurt me. What is the cause o-of all t-this?" I asked still not believing that my Kyle could hurt me physically and emotionally like this.

"You still ask me what is the cause? Damn! You are even more stupid than I thought you were. Okay so listen, you are the cause of all this. I have never ever loved you! So, I can't tolerate your presence near me any more, staying married to you for the past year has got me all bothered and stressed. GET IT?" Kyle said and my heart broke.

"NO! No, This isn't you! You would never let anything or anyone hurt me in the slightest. So, you saying all this, does not convince me the least bit. Tell me the truth, baby! I won't judge you. Let's put these couple of hours behind us and we can talk." I told him giving him a small smile, trying to stand up with help of the chairs beacuse my knees were hurting too much due to the fall.

"Talk about what? I already told you what has me all bothered, then what do you want to know more?" Kyle asked looking at me with digust, which was a big blow to my heart.

"The genguine reason for your behaviour." I answered swallowing the lump in my throat.

"Are you that shameless!? I just told you that I never loved you, and I don't want to stay married to you. It suffocates me woman! I have used you as my legalised wh*re in this marriage, that's it! I am done with you! I couldn't find a woman who would be so putty in my hands apart from you. I used you for my sexual needs that's, that." He spat.

I gasped in shock on hearing his cruel and unfeeling words. I was shaken up!

"Fine! Now, the reason-n apart from the o-one you just g-gave me. E-explain why did you marry me?" I croaked out, knowing that all wasn't the truth. I was in a state of denial, denying that my world was crumbling right infront of my eyes.

"Okay then. Well listen, my mother Felicia was a complete bitch! For her I was always an unwanted child, she wanted to be free and enjoy her life without having to care about a child. But my father Jeremy wanted to have a heir, plus he genuinely wanted a child in his life. Felicia agreed to have a child, but never took any resopsibilty of me.

After eight months of being born, I was only raised by nannies and my father till I was three. While my so called mother was busy roaming around the world having a great time, topping off all the botox and using dad's money for her luxurious habits. Dad wanted to stop her, but she divorced him instead and left both of us. He was totally devasted and drowned himself in work and neglected me as if I didn't existed.

This kept on going till I was four, that was the time my paternal aunt, my dad's younger sister Chole came to live here with her three month old daughter with us, cause she had lost her husband in a plane crash. Her husband although had left alot of money and property! She was shattered but when she came here, she saw how I was miserably living my life. So, me and her daughter Katherine became her motive of living. She loved me like her own, like the mother I never had! I was ten when Aunt Chole started feeling the emptiness of not having a life partner, but she coped with it by bringing me and dad close. We both had an amazing father-son relationship.

All four of us were happy! Katherine was like the sister I always wanted, I was a very over protevtive brother. All I wanted now was, my aunt to find the right person in her life and get the happiness she deserves. She was a mother for me, if I wasn't for her I wouldn't have been alive. I even called her mom, I loved her too much! But then things started to change for good was what we all believed. It happened when I turned twelve when aunt came and told us she was seeing somebody and they both loved each other dearly, that man wasn't even least bothered by the fact aunt already had a daughter. All he wanted was her! They continued to see each other and a year later they were about to get married.

One day I was alone at home with aunt, when she rushed out of the house with some papers in her hand, she looked ecstatic! I asked her what had got her all happy, but she said she will tell me about it when the time would be right.

Weeks passed and it was finally time for her to get married, Katherine was blooming to have father in her life, but it all change that day. My aunt was at the venue but that man never came! He had left her, he went MIA! Aunt Chole was crying histerically! The papers she carried that day, were all the property papers she had and she gave it to the man. He left her moneyless! Robbed her and ran away.

All these years dad was supporting his younger sister and niece happily, but aunt always felt as if it was burden on him. So, when he took away all her money, she felt helpless. For a month after that incident she just stayed inside her room. Katherine also felt bad, but mostly for her mom. People started to talk it about how unfortunate aunt and Katherine were and all sorts of other shit.

Slowly aunt started getting better, she wasn't the same old woman, but she started interacting with us. That man was never found and all of us were not happy about this fact.

One day some of my dad's friends came over to our house and told us that the man aunt was suppose to marry was already married and had a child four months younger to Katherine. Aunt Chole lost it that day! She felt used, dirty, unworthy of love. So, she just ran and went inside her room and locked herself up again. We tried to get her out but she just didn't. At night sometime aunt took Kathrine to her room, we felt as if she needed to be with her daughter and we left them both alone.

When the next morning me and dad woke up, they still didn't come down. We thought they needed the much deserved sleep after all this drama. It was 12:30pm and they both still didn't come. Dad went to her room and knocked but she didn't open nor did we hear a sound from inside. We broke the door and I found the most devastating sight in my life.

Aunt was hanging from the sealing fan and Katherine was laying down with poison bottle in her hand. THEY BOTH HAD DIED!! My mother and little sister were dead! We found a suicide note aunt had written stating that, "I am done! I have lost both the men I have ever loved. I don't want to suffer anymore! I want to die and my daughter will die with me, I don't want her to be an orphan. I am sorry! But I love you big brother and my son Kyle."

That man killed them both!" Kyle said punching a whole in the wall. "You know that day I had decided I would seek revenge from the man who had taken my mom and sister away from me. Even if it meant I have to harm someone related to him." He complete turning around looking at me dead in the eyes.

"I am sorry, Kyle! You have been through so much, love. I never realised it. But you are amazingly strong. We will get through this also, together. We will find that man and get him punished for his sins. You are not alone, Kyle, I am with you! Tell me who he was, Kyle! Tell me his name!" I said wiping my tears away feeling every ounce of my husbands pain.

"You really wanna know his name, Paisley?" He asked and I nodded.

"You sure?" He asked again and I again nodded.

"He was your father Paisley! Your father George Smith!" He shouted and I gasped with wide eyes.

I knew my pathetic excuse of a father was cheap! But I didn't know he destroyed lives other than my mother's and mine.

"God! I am just so sorry, Kyle! I feel more than ashamed of being his daughter. I am sorry for what you and your family have gone through. He has not only destroyed my and my mom's life, but also your's and your family's. He deserves to be punished! I know where he is, we can do something about it. He deserves worst than hell!" I said going to Kyle and taking his hands in mine. One of his hands was bleeding badly due to the punch.

"I don't need to get him punished! I have got my revenge that I wanted from him. I married his daughter and now I am leaving her just like he left my aunt. Get the fuck out of my house, you wh*re!" He said jerking his hand out of mine.

"NO! No, I won't! You can't do this! I know you are hurt and angry, Kyle, you have all the right to be! But I AM NOT LEAVING YOU! I love you, baby! I will stay right here with you." I told him.

"Well, you have to, cause we are divorced! You can't stay here!" He said pushing me away.

"What do you mean we are divorced, huh? I never signed any papers." I asked stunned, I felt as if I was about to pass out.

"You remember three weeks back when you were down with temprature and drowsy because of the medicines?" He asked and I nodded with tears running down my face.

"I made you sign some papers, right?" He asked and I nodded again with my heart hammering inside my chest.

"Well, I told you sign them saying they were some papers for the new house I had bought, but they were actually divorce papers I made you sign, in your drowsy state without you reading them." He explained as if it was the most simple thing in this world.

"NO! You wouldn't do that to me! You are hurt and angry and that is the reason you are lying!" I said crying taking steps backwards shaking my head in denial.

"I did! I even filed them and now we are officially divorced! I am finally getting rid you!" He said with a satisfied expression on his face.

"This won't get you your revenge, Kyle! Understand sweetheart!" I tried to make him understand the fact.

"Of course, it will!" Kyle denied whatever I said.

"NO! That man hates my guts, Kyle, you can kill me and he will not even be bothered about it. He would rather be greatful to you for doing that!" I told my husband.

"No bitch! Seeing his daughter miserable like this would break him. It would be my revenge! I will see him suffer!" Kyle spat.

"You are wrong, Kyle! Don't do this please! I am sorry for all his mistakes please forgive me. But don't leave me, love, please. I love you and we will fight this together!" I begged him going down on my knees.

"I have done that already! Now out of my house, wh*re! You're nothing but a pathetic weak s*ut!" He said and dragged out of the house.

And how he threw me out of the house and how he ignored my pleadings is already known to you all.

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I was crying like crazy after remembering that day.

All my failures in life and love cameback to me slapping me in the face.

I just continued crying and cursing myself till I felt completely empty once again!

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Hey Babies!

DUN DUN DUN!

The secret is finally revealed! It was heatbreaking for me to write this. Both Paisley and Kyle have their know demons to fight. I cried throughout writing it! I hope this was worth the wait.

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P.S the longest chapter I have written till date. Over 4300 words! Phewww! *wipes off sweat*