CH 738

How could I not think about it. My childhood friend is crying in bed using manga as a cover up. Xiao Qin, you’re holding the manga upside down, so don’t tell me you’re crying because of the plot.

“Xiao Qin, do you blame me for being too heartless.”

I sat down on the chair opposite the bed and asked Xiao Qin with my hands on my knees.

“No, no.” Xiao Qin avoided my gaze, “I was the one who suggested that you remove me from the position as a girlfriend. It’s because I was too afraid of losing my identity as your girlfriend, so I became more and more extreme and not only caused a lot of trouble, but also endangered your life…”

“You can’t say that, I was only saved because of you.”

Xiao Qin, who gradually stopped crying, shook her head and said gloomily: “That can only be considered atonement. After becoming your girlfriend, I kept worrying about everything to the point of almost losing my mind…”

I was just about to interject, but Xiao Qin went on to say: “Although I did suggest for you to remove me as girlfriend, I still held onto a sliver of hope that you would keep me, but… you didn’t hesitate… so it’s good, it keeps me from having any unrealistic hopes…”

“Not true.” I said flatly, “There was a special reason I demoted you back to being a childhood friend.”

“Huh.” Xiao Qin’s eyes widened slightly, “What special reason?”

“It’s, it’s just…” I hesitated because at that time I had just learned that I was suffering from a heart disease and felt that I was not going to live long, so I thought that removing Xiao Qin as my girlfriend would give her one less reason to kill herself because of love when the time came. If I don’t reveal my heart disease, then I can’t tell Xiao Qin the reason.

“Anyway… I didn’t demote you back to childhood friend because I hate you.” I finally said aloud, “I just think it was a bit premature when we determined our relationship the last time, so we should start anew from childhood friends and see how it goes.”

If you recall carefully, my motive for agreeing to be Xiao Qin’s girlfriend was not pure. At the time, I planned to bully Xiao Qin as her boyfriend, to the point where she wouldn’t be able to stand it and run away.

For a long time, Xiao Qin was my secret girlfriend. Even if she was later exposed to people we met infrequently like He Ling and others, most of the time she still had to conceal her identity in front of everyone else.

The reason why Xiao Qin accepted Winnie as her bestie so quickly was because Winnie found out that I was dating Xiao Qin at the amusement park, so there was someone else Xiao Qin could share her secret with.

The fact is that Xiao Qin’s identity as my girlfriend was incomplete. Instead of keeping this defective identity, it was better to leave it behind completely, then start over again and seek to be a normal girlfriend.

In fact, although it wasn’t explicitly said, Xiao Qin’s status was downgraded on the outside, but actually it was secretly upgraded. Since her previous girlfriend identity was not real, but it was also mixed with my previous resentment for the Little Tyrant. Now, she was no longer an “old enemy” but an “old friend”. She was actually upgraded from the “abominable demon king who is more terrifying than Godzilla” to a “childhood friend”.

Damn, what kind of dumb game is this? How can a Demon King evolve into a childhood friend, I think the order is wrong, right?

King Piccolo: “Hello, I have been a Daimao for a while, but now I have joined the side of justice and have become your childhood friend, please take care of me.”

Who is your childhood friend? I don’t want a childhood friend who can lay eggs from their mouth!

Majin Buu: “Hello, for some reason, there are always people who say I’m a devil, but I don’t do things that make me hated anymore. My current occupation is to be your childhood friend, please take this piece of chocolate.”

Who wants to eat the chocolate you gave me? I think you turned a human into that chocolate, right? You man-eater, don’t come near me, I don’t want to be turned into another food item.

“Hello, my name is ****, the Americans call me the Demon, even since I was shot down by the U.S. Army…”

Get lost! Who wants such a bearded childhood friend! Lie down at the bottom of the ocean and go play hide and seek in the trench with Godzilla.

“I’m satisfied that you don’t hate me.” Xiao Qin said, “As for why my mom strangely wants me to go to your home for dinner, I think it will give you trouble. If you feel troubled, I’ll tell my mom to stop saying those things…”

“No, it’s no trouble at all.” I quickly said, “As long as you don’t mind my cooking, you are always welcome to come eat at my place. We might have supplemental classes every day in our third year, so since you live further and Auntie Ren is very busy with work, you can come to my home to eat dinner and then take the subway back, so at least you won’t have to travel hungry.”

Hearing me say this, a look of expectation naturally appeared in Xiao Qin’s eyes, but it soon dimmed again.

“That’s good, I can also help cook, but… but what if I bump into your real girlfriend, that would be awkward…”

“Huh.” I froze, “Who’s my real girlfriend?”

Xiao Qin bit her lips, “It should be the class leader, Shu Sha. Although I almost caused you to die last time, so I no longer make any more plans with Zhuang Ni, but she just sent me a text message and said Ye Lin classmate and the class leader’s relationship has become more intimate…”

On the surface, Zhuang Ni apologized to me and the class leader, but she was still trying to conspire against me behind the scenes. Did she inform Xiao Qin because she wants to use Xiao Qin as a weapon?

I don’t think I slapped her hard enough nor did I choke her hard enough. If you keep this up, be careful the next time I choke you and make you lose control of your bladder.

Zhuang Ni’s instigation didn’t have any effects for Xiao Qin, whose identity was now that of a childhood friend.

Xiao Qin only said emptily: “The class leader is more beautiful than me, kinder than me, she also gets better grades than me, taller than me, even… even larger breasts than me. It would be natural for you to like her. Sometimes I see the backs of the two of you walking in front me and feel like you guys are a good match…”

Hey, we only look like a good match from the back because there’s not much of a height difference… but if you look from the front, it would immediately give you the feeling of a police officer walking with a murderer! Is the police escorting a murderer, or did a murderer kidnap a police officer?

Xiao Qin paused and continued to say: “A few days ago I heard an old song by Rene Liu played on the radio, “Love You So Much”. It talks about a girl’s blessing to a more perfect girlfriend for the one she loves. I think since our current relationship is that of childhood friends, even if Ye Lin classmate and the class leader gets into a relationship, I should give you my blessings as a good friend…”

Xiao Qin said those words to me calmly. I felt that if she cried out and blamed me for abandoning her, I might have felt better.

I can’t be sure whether or not my heart disease can be cured or if the negotiations between Ren HongDe and Ai ShuQiao can go smoothly. I don’t know if Ai Mi can gain control of her own destiny, or if my dad can successfully propose to Auntie Ren… I was troubled as I had no time to think about my own feelings.

Of course, if the class leader did not delete her confession text message, then maybe I would already be in a relationship with her. But since she deleted it, it means that her confession to me was just a momentary impulse. Even if she becomes my girlfriend now by whatever means, it would be just as irresponsible as when I agreed to let Xiao Qin be my girlfriend.

From Zhuang Ni’s perspective, my relationship with the class leader has indeed become more intimate. But in my opinion, I’m only receiving extra care and attention from the class leader because she found out about my heart condition. Her brother’s spending less and less time at home, so she’s using her maternal nature which has nowhere to go on me, a sick person.

I jokingly asking the class leader to call me her husband, to touch her thigh, and to give me a lap pillow were all, to some extent, pranks I played to get back at the class leader for deleting her text message.

I don’t think I have enough of a conscience because the class leader was the one who organized my rescue. After she found out about my heart condition, she took care of me without fail. She really doesn’t owe me anything even though she deleted the text message and made me want to pull my hair out and depressed for a while because I wanted to know the contents of it.

Because Zhuang Ni destroyed the mood in the morning, I actually wanted to get a good mood back from the class leader. After careful review, I’m pretty despicable. Even if I wanted to touch someone’s thighs, it should be Zhuang Ni’s thighs.

But if Zhuang Ni got a rash from wearing Shu Zhe’s stockings, then wouldn’t she have an even bigger reaction if a man directly touched her legs?

So the reason why she insists on wearing stockings isn’t because she’s allergic to the sun, but because she’s allergic to men.

Did you get molested by a man on a bus when you were in elementary school? I don’t think it would have been possible for you to hate men right after being born.

Although I don’t know if her allergy is physiological or psychological, but if her lower body is allergic to men, then I’m afraid she really can’t have intimate relations with men for the rest of her life. She has to become a lesbian whether she wants to or not.

But do not be too dejected, if you can’t find a man to satisfy yourself, you can visit our store! My family’s online store has a lot of tools adult women can use to comfort themselves.

I just hope that you’re not also allergic to rubber…

As for Xiao Qin blessing me, I think she doesn’t have to because the reason the class leader accommodates me is because she was born to sympathize with the weak and she felt sorry for deleting the text message.

I still don’t have a defined relationship with the class leader, just like how I don’t know where my future will lead.

Besides, I have evidence that definitely proves that Xiao Qin holds a rather important place in my heart.

That is, the suicide note I wrote on my phone after I lost hope after falling into the bear trap.

I still thought I had the possibility of dying at any time, so I thought the suicide note still had value and didn’t delete it from my phone.

So, it was sitting quietly in my phone’s notepad application with my dad’s birthday as the password. If I took it out and let Xiao Qin read it, then it would definitely eliminate her anxiety.