THE THOUGHT OF HAZEL THAT SHE HAD BEEN HAVING A LOT OF THOUGHTS IN HER MIND, KILLED HER.
Isaac was in the hospital getting injured, and she was glad to at least know that he was okay. But that still didn't stop her from overthinking everything else.
And she slowly started to realize that her anxiety had started to slowly build in again. Hazel sighed as she closed her eyes, trying to fight back her thoughts and anxiety.
A presence made her open her eyes to see Derek sitting on his chair by the table with her on the opposite.
They both stared at each other, not speaking any words. They both were waiting for someone to say something but Hazel was definitely going to stay still.
"You don't seem the type of person to speak out your mind." Derek finally spoke up.
The brunette looked down as she shrugged. "Trust issues."
Derek rose a brow as he seemed to understand her and nodded shortly. "I understand." He inhaled while Hazel stood quiet. "But that doesn't mean that you should shrink into your thought that are filled with nothing but negativity." She dragged her eyes up to him at that as he wrinkled his eyes. "You know that, right?"
Hazel that was staring slowly nodded. "It's not really the negativity that I know off. It's the anxiety. I can't seem to fight it. I'm just..." She shrugged. "too scared to fight it back." She glanced to Derek.
Derek that was listening closely and watching her, seemed in his thoughts now. At least, he was glad that Hazel made her first steps to express her problems.
"What is it that's been running in your thoughts?" He began asking.
Hazel quietly scoffed with her mouth closed as she parted her eyes somewhere else. "This is the part where I don't say it."
Derek was the one to scoff now. "Spit it out."
The two stared at each other, seemed like they were making a challenge out of it. But Derek for sure wasn't someone to play with.
"Just traumas that left me thinking, that's all." She decided to answer the most easiest way to explain it shortly.
Derek seemed to buy that but knew there was more to dig deeper into that head of hers. He stared at her for a moment before he asked her. "Are you mental, Hazel?"
The brunette chuckled humorless at that as she tilted her head along. "No... I don't think so. But I do have a Panic and Anxiety disorder so... I think we should just leave it there."
Hazel watched him float on his mind when she looked off to avoid him. She hated to talk about her problems. She didn't want to sound so important about it since they were never talked enough and never taken so serious about.
"Is that all?" His eyes were looking up to her in a way of an intense look in his eyes. Hazel slowly nodded, not saying anything. "Or did you do something Hazel."
That's wren her breath stopped as she felt her stomach drop when her eyes snapped up to his, now her turn to give him a dangerous and intense look.
It wasn't just the sentence that made it hit to her point, it was the fact that it didn't sounded like a question.
It sounded like a demand.
Derek seemed to notice everything now as he slowly nodded at that. "There's a lot of things you have never told anyone, right?"
Hazel now had the urge to not answer to any questions he made. He was getting close to making her fangs and veins appear.
It was starting to reach her anger.
"I know that you're about to get mad. And I get it. You probably think that I'm gonna be left confused why you're getting mad now but that's not how it is. I know what it feels like to get mad when you talk about your problems and others asking you about them. You don't even like to talk about them, that's why I get the fact that you seem to get mad and overreact in the next few seconds so i'll stop right there." Derek said.
Hazel sighed in the inside as she decided to answer. "I'm too socialized. Sometimes the very emotions I'm dealing with â like guilt over something i did, or shame about how i think i'm perceived, or the fact that I create scenarios when I get anxiety which leads the anxiety higher â can feel so overwhelming that i can't get up the motivation to talk it out. And I don't like attention along with people worrying about me, so i'm good."
Silence flashed in between them when Derek was at loss of words. He knew he could help Hazel, but she didn't want help.
"I can help you, you know?" Derek suggested.
Hazel scoffed as she rolled her eyes. "Derekâ"
"I don't care that you don't want to. You're in a situation that you've been burring yourself into and it only leads you to a shadow that you've been following. I don't want you to hurt yourself Hazel. If you don't have anyone to help... then I am the one right away. I don't care that you still want distance from my feelings and touch but the least you could do is lie to me." Derek demanded. "Understood?" Hazel stared when she stood quiet. She didn't like to listen to people. "Are you that arrogant to not even at least listen for once?"
She seemed to have noticed that too. She stopped listening to people since every each one of them disappointed her and hurt her.
"I told you it's all the trauma." Hazel boringly answered.
"You only listen to yourself, do you? That's the other problem you're doing. And I can't seem to help you either if you're like this. But that doesn't mean that I will leave your side in that case like everyone else did. I want to help you."
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Since Derek was off to God knew where, Hazel decided to take a walk. She was getting weaker than the other day.
Maybe it was the blood or meat that she hadn't eaten. She barely tasted some ever since she tried it out for the first time.
And that was a while ago.
Hazel stopped when she saw a sign saying 'Do not enter' and noticed a couple walking towards the place which was clearly a forest.
That's when a slow grin appeared on the corner of her mouth as she watched them disappear into the trees and had taken off towards them by speed.
She used her super and strong ears when she speed past them. They didn't notice since she didn't made it obvious at first.
Once they stopped walking, Hazel flashed past them with her terrifying echo hoss making the couple turn around.
"Did you hear that?" The boy asked her.
"It sounded creepy. I don't like that, Zack. Maybe we should go and should've not entered this place since it's forbidden." The girlfriend said.
"You're right. Let's go." The two turned back around and started heading out of the woods.
Hazel took that as a sign to stand right behind them as they kept walking.
The boy seemed to feel a presence as he furrowed his brows and stopped as he turned to look but no one was there.
His girlfriend that kept walking, didn't even notice. âZackâ started to get uncomfortable when he thought he heard or felt a presence. He brushed those thoughts off and ignored it.
He turned back around until he came face to face with veins and gold eyes forming as the fangs were showing.
Before he could yell, Hazel grabbed him and sped off somewhere else. The girlfriend stopped when she noticed that her boyfriend âZackâ wasn't with her anymore as she started to panic and look around.
"Zack! Zack, it's not funny! I don't like this Zack!" The girl shouted out and stopped as she stood there and waited for Zack to show up.
But all she waited was a horrifying face of. Vampire to appear behind her and go right for her neck. And the last thing that was heard, was her yelling.
S/T: And I'm trying my best, my best to keep from going under. And it's hard to forget all the rain when you keep hearing the thunder.
And it just feels like shadows keep following me.
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