âYou couldâve told me you were hiding your sorry ass up here.â
I looked over my shoulder and spotted Cameron in his black tux, holding two cans of beer. He tossed one to me before joining me on the balcony, propping his elbows on the stone railing, and looking out at the city lights in the distance.
âNeeded some air,â I replied, delighted and amused that he had found beer. Mom would never serve beer at parties. Unless the prime minister had requested it. Or Mick Jagger. âWhereâd you get the beer?â
Cameron eyed me mockingly as if to say, Oh please.
I nodded, acknowledging his genius before taking a sip. âSeems like I canât blink without someone making a business proposition to me down there.â I gestured with my own beer at the party below.
Among the sea of soft lights and lavish gardens, women paraded in elegant gowns and glittering jewels, and men in stylish penguin suits. It looked like a dazzling play.
âGuess youâve got a lot to learn,â Cameron commented, curling his lip as he watched the people. âBetter have an excellent poker face, because youâre going to deal with a hell of a lot more than business propositions.â
I shrugged. He was right. I really didnât mind it. In fact, I liked people, parties, and socializing. Usually.
But Red wasnât here yet.
Everything felt wrong.
âHow the hell would you know?â I asked, just because I was irritated.
He tapped his beer against his temple. âBecause I have a brain.â
âOh? Thatâs news to me.â
He sniggered.
âYou know what they say about a man with a gorgeous face?â I asked nonchalantly.
âHe has a little dick?â
I took a sip of my beer and looked at him smugly. âI donât even need to talk. I just stand around and get what I want.â I paused. âIâm holding a beer, arenât I?â
He laughed. âNah. Mostly, I feel sorry for you. Guess sheâs not here yet.â
I glanced at my watch for the hundredth time. âSheâs not answering her phone.â
I reached for mine in my pocket. No text, no calls.
Where is she?
âYou phonedâ¦Kara?â Cameron asked.
âYeah,â I replied. âPhoned at the shop too, but no oneâs answering.â
âIt takes them each a week to get ready. And there are two of them.â Cameron shuddered. âBesides, the shop is open on weekends during the summer. They get really busy at this time.â
Raking my hands through my hair, I leaned against the balustrade. âIâm leaving in half an hour to get my girl.â
He was just taking another sip of beer when he stilled, stared at me with his brows raised. âYour mom will kill you.â
I just eyed him silently.
âFine,â Cameron replied with a self-deprecating sigh. âBut Iâm driving.â
I grinned at him knowingly. âSee? Didnât even say a word. Iâm just standing here.â
He laughed. âFuck you.â
âCal?â
We both turned at the voice. Beatrice-Rose was standing at the door in a red gown, eyes soft and pleading as they watched me.
I felt a mix of emotions at the sight of her. Pity, guilt, anger. Somewhere beneath all that was affection for someone I had grown up withâand bewilderment at the thought of a childhood friend being hateful enough to hurt the only girl I loved.
She approached us slowly and warily. Beside me, I noticed Cameron change his stance. He looked relaxed, but I knew it was only a facade. Like me, he was braced for a confrontation.
âHi, Cameron,â Beatrice-Rose said.
âBeatrice-Rose.â
âHow are you?â
âGood.â
Cameron was a man of few words when the mood struck him. He used his intense too-blue eyes to let you know what he was thinking. But I had to admit that it only made the air more tense and awkward.
âHowâs your dad?â Beatrice-Rose asked softly.
She didnât seem to get the hint that Cameron didnât want to talk to her. Or that I didnât. I had been avoiding her throughout the party, but sheâd found me this time.
âStill in jail, Iâm presuming,â Cameron answered coldly.
Beatrice-Roseâs mouth dropped open in shock. âOhâ¦Iâ¦â
Cameron cut her off. He had no patience for empty words, but his voice was less harsh when he asked, âHowâs yours?â
âH-heâs not doing very well. I⦠Can I have a moment to talk to Caleb?â
Cameron just leaned against the balustrade, pointing his beer at me. âThatâs up to him.â
I nodded at him. He threw me a pitiful look before he left, shaking his head.
Uncomfortable silence lingered as I waited for Beatrice-Rose to speak. She had her eyes down, her hands clasped in front of her.
âHappy birthday, Cal.â
I nodded, but since she wasnât looking at me, I decided to finally open my mouth and speak. âThanks.â
She bit her lip, tucking her hair behind her ear.
Sheâs sick, Cal.
I shut my eyes tightly, blowing out a breath. She needed help, and Iâd be a major douchebag if I didnât at least try.
âHow are you?â I asked.
She glanced at me, her eyes tearing up.
She has a penchant for faking her panic attacks to get what she wantsâ¦
I felt like an ass for thinking this when she needed a friend, but I couldnât help it.
âIâm fine.â She paused, her lip trembling. âActuallyâ¦Iâm not doing well.â
âIâm sorry,â I said uselessly.
When she started to scratch her arm, I held her hand to stop her. Ben had told me she would keep scratching until she bled.
As soon as I touched her, I regretted it.
She took it as a sign that everything was back to normal between us. Tears started to pour down her face as she stepped forward and wrapped her arms around me.
âOh, Cal! I feel so alone. I canât do this alone.â
âBeatrice-Roseâ¦â
âPlease,â she sobbed, burying her face in my chest.
I raised my arms awkwardly. I knew the right moves when a girl cried on my shoulder, but I couldnât seem to wrap my arms around her in comfort. I patted her back instead.
âAreâ¦are youââshe hiccuppedââstill mad at me? Cal?â When I didnât answer, her arms wrapped more tightly around me. âPlease donât be, Cal. Please. I donât think I can take more heartache. Iâm going through a lot with my dad, and if youâre mad at me too, thenâ¦â
âIâm sorry for what youâre going through right now. I really am.â
âOh, Cal! I missed you so much! I knew you wouldnât stay mad at me for long.â
âBeatrice-Roseââ
âVeronica was just a distraction, yes? Miranda says youâre going to live in Saskatchewan and manage your new hotel there. Once youâre there, Veronica wonât be around to amuse you anymore. I can go there with youââ
âStop.â
ââand help you with anything you need. Anything, Cal. Iâll give everythingââ
âListen to me.â
My eyes shifted to the door as I heard someone clearing their throat. I spotted Ben first, and then my heart jumped into my throat as I saw Red beside him, staring at us.
Through the guilt and pity I was feeling for Beatrice-Rose, relief and pleasure flooded me as I realized Red was finally here. Then pleasure turned into horror as I realized how this might seem to Red. Beatrice-Rose was still holding on to me, crying. And I had my arms around her.
Fuck.
Reluctantly, I returned my gaze to Beatrice-Rose. âIâm sorry. I appreciate the help, but Iâm not relocating to Saskatchewan.â I gently removed her arms from around me. âMy fiancéeâs here, and I go where she goes.â
âF-fiancée?â
I froze when I saw how pale she was. âBeatrice-Rose? Are you all right?â
She stepped away from me, covering her mouth with her hands as tears continued to stream down her face.
âBeatrice-Roseâ¦â
But she wasnât listening to me. Her eyes darted toward Red, and what I saw in them chilled me to the bone. But whatever was in her eyes disappeared in a flash, and I wondered if Iâd just imagined it.
Beatrice-Rose turned on her heel and rushed through the door toward Red.
For a moment, I had the strongest urge to stop her before she reached Red. But she only went past Red and headed for the stairs.
I sent Ben a grateful look as he nodded at me and went to soothe Beatrice-Rose.
Everything faded as I looked at Red again.
She looked so alluring, so captivating standing there in her red gown. Her dark hair cascaded down her back. Red lips, dark eyes. Just the way I liked it.
Grabbing her hand, I laced our fingers together and pulled her with me.
I walked fast, past the guest rooms and the library to the west wing where my old room was. As soon as Iâd closed the door behind me, I held her face in my hands. Leaned my forehead against hers.
âYouâre here,â I whispered. âGod, I missed you.â
Her smile was warm as she wrapped her arms around my waist. We held on to each other a little longer than usual. A little tighter. âHappy birthday, Caleb.â
âNow it is.â
I kissed her. Slowly, tenderly, savoring her taste. Her lips were soft and tasted like chocolate. Like love. Like everything.
âYou look like a dream.â
âI love the all-black suit. And the red tie. Very debonair.â She rested her head on my chest. âWe match.â
âPerfect,â I murmured, kissing her hair. âYouâre not mad at me?â
She pulled back a little to look at me, one dark eyebrow raised. âShould I be?â
I angled my head to study her face. She didnât look pissed or even irritated, but her face told me something was wrong. âWas that a trick question?â
âCaleb.â She whispered my name in a way that squeezed my heart. âI trust you.â
âAnd I love you.â I kissed her again. âIs that my present?â
âHere. They wanted me to leave it downstairs with all the other presents, but I wanted to give it to you in person.â She bit her lip.
âGood. I want to open it now.â I looked inside the huge paper bag and found two boxed presents. âDid you get me two presents?â
âNo. The pink box is for your mom.â
How sweet was that?
âSheâll love that. She loves presents.â
I eagerly pulled out my present. I tore off the paper, opened the box, and saw a red beanie inside. I knew instinctively that she made it for me. Something warm wrapped around my heart. âYou made this.â
âYes,â she answered, breathless. I shifted my eyes back to hers and found that she had her bottom lip tucked between her teeth. âDo you like it?â
Did she even have to ask?
âI love it. Thanks, baby. Iâm wearing it.â
âNo.â She laughed. âYou canât.â
âOf course I can.â
âCaleb,â she warned, snatching the beanie before I could place it on my head.
I narrowed my eyes at her. She must have caught the gleam in them because she started backing away, holding my beanie behind her.
âWhere do you think youâre going?â I drawled with a hint of a challenge in my tone as I stalked her.
But she only smiled that secret smile of hers and kept walking backward until she hit the wall. I grinned as I closed the distance between us, placing my hands on her waist. Slowly and deliberately, I ran my hands over the hourglass shape of her torso, her ribs, and the sides of her breasts.
Her breathing became erratic, loud and fast in my ear.
I leaned close to her ear and whispered, âI caught you.â
I grazed my nose over her cheek and down to her jaw while my hands cupped her breasts, molded her through her dress.
âThis dress is sex. Tell me, Red. Did you wear it for me?â
I heard her swallow audibly before she nodded.
âYou have to wear it again. I haveâ¦plans for you and this dress.â
She let out a hot, sexy moan and I turned rock hard.
âIâve never brought a girl into my old bedroom before,â I said, enjoying the arousal I saw in her eyes, the fast pulse in her neck that told me how much she wanted me.
âT-this.â She cleared her throat. âThis was your bedroom?â
âYeah,â I replied, tracing the shape of her earlobe with my lips. âI hadâ¦fantasies of bringing a girl here before.â Sucked. Licked. Sucked. âWant to hear them? Or better yet, why donât I show you?â
âCaleb, pleaseâ¦â
âPlease what?â
âKiss me.â
âWhere?â
âCaleb.â
The longing in her voice as she moaned my name made me feel so fucking good.
âWhere should I start?â I teased, sweeping my fingertips down her bare arm. âThere are so many places to choose from,â I continued, skimming at the tops of her breasts now. âItâs so hard to decide. Need a little help.â
I bit my bottom lip to keep from smiling as I heard her make a frustrated sound.
She was staring at my lips, licking hers. At that point, I knew it was either kiss her or die.
Need punched into my stomach as I pushed my fingers into her hair and leaned down to claim her lips. It was powerful, this yearning I had for her. And I surrendered willingly.
I slipped my tongue inside her mouth, exulting at the feel of her, at the taste of her.
âI need you. Now,â I growled.
Before she could answer, there was a knock on the door.