Confession #22: My biggest nightmare was for Reese to meet Patricia.
I think I grew an ulcer in the hours that followed.
I had ignored Patriciaâs threat, calling her bluff, and now she was going to be in the same house as Reese. If she really had anything to hurt my girl with, today would be a prime opportunity for her to unleash it. I wanted to warn Reese but I wasnât sure how. And I didnât have much time to do it, anyway.
As soon as the birthday girl realized I was home, I became her personal source of entertainment. First, she wanted to watch ~Hawaii Five-O~ with me, then read a chapter of the current ~Harry Potter~ book we were on, and I couldnât tell her no; it was her ~birthday~.
After that, it was time to set out last-minute preparations for the party.
Half an hour before go-time, Sarah sat in her chair by the door, eagerly awaiting her first guest. When twenty-five minutes passed with no one ringing the doorbell, her hopeful expression slipped with each click of the minute hand of the clock on the wall, and my helpless frustration morphed more fervently into self-righteous anger.
And then, finally, the first guest arrived at four minutes before two. The next two after that showed up together another minute later, and that was it. Three classmates were all that showed. And they looked like reluctant shows because not a single one of them even bothered to speak to Sarah as their mothers ushered them forcefully through the doorway. One even asked her mom aloud how long they had to wait before they could go.
The good news was that Patricia didnât show, but then⦠She was never on time for anything so she probably still had her grand entrance coming.
The bad news was that Reese was absent too. Thatâs what worried me most. The last thing I thought sheâd ever do was let Sarah down on her big day. But when ten minutes after two passed and she still wasnât here, I started to grow downright pissed at the entire world. Sure, I hadnât wanted her to meet my landlady but I didnât want Sarah to suffer either. And not having her favorite babysitter here on her special day would stingâ¦big-time.
Where the hell was she?
Was she okay?
Fuck, ~was~ she okay? Had Patricia finally struck? Or did her absence revolve around me? She had seemed sincere when she told me that we were still friends before Iâd left her apartment this morning, but what if that had just been a ruse to get me out of there without a fight?
Oh, God, what if Iâd done something last night that I couldnât remember that had actually hurt her?
I was tugging my phone from my pocket to call her when the front door swept open, and there she was. My relief was so visceral that I swear I could suddenly breathe easier.
âIâm so sorry Iâm late,â she gushed, hurrying inside. âI lost track of time while I was writing a paper for school. I knowââshe gave a dramatic bowââIâm a total geek that way.â
Noticing Sarahâs three classmates whoâd been forced to come, she hurried to them, introducing herself. âHi, Iâm Reese. Iâm Sarahâs evening sitter.â
And just like that, my relief clicked back into anger. All that worry and fear Iâd felt for her, and sheâd merely lost track of time? My irritation mounted, and this time it lashed out at ~her~. I knew it was misplaced even as I scowled, watching her make friends with the little brats ignoring my sister, but I couldnât help it. I just felt helpless and pissed and I needed to direct it ~somewhere~.
She mustâve realized it, though, because as soon as she finally greeted Sarah, she thought up a smooth way to escort me from the room, announcing that we should help my mom set up food in the kitchen before she hooked her arm through mine and physically dragged me up off the loveseat Iâd been sitting on.
As soon as we were alone in the hallway, she hissed, âWhat the hell did I miss?â
âBrilliant idea to invite the classmates,â I growled at her since sheâd been the one to suggest it. âTheyâve been ignoring her the whole time and wonât even stand on the same side of the room as her.â
Reese merely rolled her eyes. âWell, what did you expect, with you hovering over her like a pissed-off guard dog? I swear, you were foaming at the mouth as you stared at those poor little girls. Iâm surprised they havenât run screaming from the house yet.â
âPoor little girls, ~my ass~,â I snapped. âWe invited every brat in her class, and only ~three~ of them showed up, the three who openly confessed they were only here because their parents forced them to come. Sarah is ~crushed~.â
Reese opened her mouth to respond, but weâd just reached the kitchen where my mom was rushing around like a frantic, blind chicken. And once again, Reese worked her smooth-magic and got rid of Mom, shooing her from the room with the promise that she and I would finish getting everything ready.
And what did my mother do in reply? She actually ~thanked~ her.
âOh, Reese, youâre a saint. Thank you.â
I rolled my eyes and muttered as soon as she was gone, âThanks for volunteering ~me~.â
âWhat?â she gasped before demanding, âWhat did ~I~ do?â
âWhere ~were~ you?â I finally asked, unable to hold the question in a second longer.
âI told you,â she bit out. âI was at home, writing a paper.â Opening the refrigerator, she found the punch mix and brought it out so she could fill the bowl. âItâs actually a pretty interesting subject for my Brit Lit class. We had to read Chaucer in Middle English, which totally sucked monkey butt, and then translate it into todayâs English. But let me tell you, ~The Canterbury Tales~ is not just some sweet, innocent fairy tale. I mean, Iâm still pissed the rapist ended up in a happily ever after romance, butââ
âI donât care about your ~paper~, okay,â I exploded. âMy sister is about to cry in there. I wanted this to be the best birthday ever, but she ~hates~ it.â Plus, Patricia was probably going to burst through the door any moment now.
Reese blinked at me dumbly. âOh my God, Mason. Breathe. It ~will~ be the best birthday party ever. I swear. We just need to get past that first stage of awkwardness and everything will be fine. Trust me.â
I gripped my hair, actually feeling myself lose my cool as she calmly moved from the punch to the cake, cutting it in choppy, uneven rows.
For some reason, watching her horrid cutting skills centered me. It showed me her flaws, her truth. So if she also said to trust her and things would be okay, then that had to be the truth too.
Right?
It was all kinds of wonky reasoning but it worked for me. Letting go of my hair, I clutched the back of a chair, bending slightly at the waist to blow out a long breath. And I relaxed.
âIâm sorry,â I told her. âItâs just⦠After that thing with Eva this morning, I wasnât sure if you were going to come at all. Then you were late, and I thoughtââ
âHey.â She immediately stopped what she was doing and took my hand, causing me to lift my face and meet her blue, blue eyes. âDonât worry about Eva, okay? We talked. She isnât going to go to the police. I swear to you, you donât have to worry about her.â
âThat wasnât the part I was worried about.â I squeezed her fingers and wished she could just see everything inside me so I wouldnât have to explain.
She seemed confused a moment before she let out a harassed breath. Rolling her eyes, she promptly smacked me in the side of the arm. âOh, whatever,â she muttered. âYou know you canât get rid of me that easily. Iâm going to be that annoying friend who never leaves you alone.â
âPromise?â I asked, watching her closely.
She winked. âCross my heart and hope to die.â
I sniffed out my amusement, and the tension in me drained some more. Until I remembered the last reason I was so disjointed. âThatâs not all,â I added on a wince. âMom went and invited our ~landlady~ to the party. And she said yes.â
Reese immediately smiled. âOh, thatâs nice,â she started, flopping the first piece of cake ungracefully onto a plate and getting frosting all over her index finger in the process. But a second later, she froze, then looked up at me. âWait. Is this the same landlady who was your firstâ?â
Christ, why had I ever told her about that?
Because I was an idiot, thatâs why.
When my silent gaze answered her, she winced. âRight.â She drew out the word miserably before lifting her eyebrows. âWell⦠This should be fun.â
Fun.
Like a proctologist exam, maybe.
âI hate it when she comes over,â I muttered, beginning to pace the kitchen. âShe always manages to find a way to corner me somewhere and ~talk~. It makes my skin crawl.â
Reese grabbed my arm, stopping me in my tracks. When I looked into her face though, she was busy frowning at my hair. Reaching up, she smoothed out a piece that mustâve gone wild while I was losing it.
Liking her hands on me, I stood there, letting her do whatever she wanted.
When she was finished, she finally met my gaze. âDo you want me to protect you from the mean old cougar?â she asked a little too seriously.
With a grin, I lowered my face and rested my forehead on her shoulder. âYes.â
âDone.â
I looked up, only to smile when I caught her licking frosting off the knife. She smiled at me, accidentally smearing a little at the corner of her lip. I couldnât resist. I reached out, murmuring, âYou got a little something.â
I took my time brushing the frosting away and watching her gaze go unfocused before I pulled back and popped the dab of pink buttercream into my mouth. Then she focused on my lips, her attention growing so intense I found myself leaning in until we were only inches apart.
Her eyes lifted to mine, and her throat worked as she swallowed. The temptation was clear on her face, and it ran so thick through my blood, I was a little surprised we werenât attacking each other already.
Suddenly, she turned away to open the can of mixed nuts. âYou know, I mightâve been saving that frosting for later.â
I tried to laugh at her joke, but it didnât flow out so well. âBut you know me,â I retorted. âIf you have food on you, Iâm bound to steal it.â
âTrue.â With that, she held out the can, letting me steal my fill.
âSee, you ~do~ know me.â
âDonât take them all,â she scolded when my handful grew heaping. âThe guests might want some.â
Remembering there were other people in the houseâpeople who were upsetting Sarah, I said, âThose ~guests~ better start treating my sister right or they can kiss my ass.â
âDonât worry,â she assured me once more. âI have a plan for the little children. Theyâll be eating out of Sarahâs hand before the end of the day.â
I lifted a suspicious eyebrow. âYouâre smiling a bit too evilly right now. I donât know whether to be awed or scared.â
âAwed,â she said, quickly running her fingers across the stubble of hair on my jaw. âAlways be awed by me.â
âI usually am,â I admitted.
My answer seemed to please her; she beamed out a grin that lit up the entire room. Then she sprinkled nuts onto plates with cake on them and added ice cream before piling them in my arms until I held more than I thought I could possibly handle in one trip. But she loaded just as many plates into her own arms, and then sent me a wink. âLetâs go save this birthday party, shall we?â
For the next twenty minutes, thatâs exactly what Reese did. She pretty much single-handedly saved Sarahâs party.
She made sure everyone was fed well and she led us in singing the birthday song. Then she sort of steered the conversation and suggested when it was a good time to open presents.
She and I somehow ended up sitting on the loveseat next to each other as Mom helped Sarah open her gifts. Reese and I had coordinated our present buying to go together. I had gotten a charm bracelet, and Reese had gotten a charm to go on it.
But when Sarah got to Reeseâs present and unwrapped it, there were actually two more boxes to unwrap inside that.
I leaned close, scowling. âYou got her ~two~ things?â
Grinning smugly, Reese swept her hair over her shoulder. âOf course.â
I sniffed. âSuck-up.â
âYou know it.â She knocked her knee against mine, proud of herself.
I just shook my head. And then I nearly laughed when Mom saw the makeup kit Reese had gotten my sister. I doubt Mom had ever even considered her baby girl growing up enough to wear makeup. The dread in her expression was priceless.
Reese didnât seem to mind my momâs reaction though; she just grinned at me as Mom helped Sarah attach her new charm to her bracelet, and she said, âDo we make a good present-giving team or what?â
She offered me a fist bump, which I couldnât turn down. Weâd just knocked our knuckles together when the door flew open and Satan enteredâ¦carrying a huge birthday present wrapped in Mickey Mouse paper.
I stopped breathing, not sure what to do. I wanted to stand up, grab Reese, and haul her out of the house. But then, I didnât want to leave Sarah and Mom behind with Patricia either. The landlady could be perfectly pleasant whenever she was in the mood, but I had no idea if this was going to be one of those days or not.
I found myself watching Reeseâs expression as she studied Patricia from head to toe. She probably wasnât expecting someone who looked so well put together, but Patricia had style, and it seemed to intimidate Reese.
I pressed my knee to hers, trying to get her to look away or at least look at me. I could almost see every thought in her head as she tried to picture me and Patricia together. It made my stomach churn with unease.
I was about to lean in and beg her to stop thinking about it when she actually swayed my way and whispered, âWhoâs he?â
Huh? ~He?~ With no idea what she was talking about, I turned toward the doorway only to find some guy entering the house behind Patricia as if he were here ~with~ her.
âNo clue,â I whispered back, furrowing my brow, because seriously, who ~was~ this guy?
âEveryone,â Patricia announced. âIâd like you to meet my fiancé, Ted. Ted, this is Dawn. Sheâs been my tenant for what feels like forever.â
I have no clue what they said after that, my brain was too busy buzzing over the word fiancé.
But ~fiancé~?
No.
No way.
She hadnât mentioned anything about a fiancé a few days ago when sheâd tried to get me to come over. I was so confused. But also relieved. Mostly relieved. If she had that guy to keep her occupied, she wouldnât have any time to bother me.
I suddenly didnât care who he was, I didnât care if the fiancé claim was a complete lie; I just hoped it helped get her off my back.
I turned blindly to Reese, needing to share my relief with someone. âThank God,â I mouthed.
She snickered and squeezed my knee, only to whisper, âGuess you wonât be needing my protective services today after all.â
âAnd Reese,â Patricia broke in, dragging her poor fiancé behind her. âI had no idea youâd be here today. Hello, again.â
Wait. What?
Hello ~again~?
Again?
When had they met before? Why did I not know about this?
Reese merely sent her a chipper smile and greeted, âHey, Mrs. Garrison.â
Patricia didnât get a chance to introduce me to her fiancé because Mom and Sarah stole her attention by opening the gift Patricia had brought. So I took that moment to lean and whisper to Reese, âYou guys have met?â
Reese merely rolled her eyes. âShe was outside smoking one night when I got off work⦠The night Sarah had her seizure, in fact.â
Figured.
She mustâve seen me and Reese in the kitchen together through the back window. No wonder why sheâd come in after Reese had left and touched the wall right where weâd been standing. Sheâd purposely wanted to ruin my special spot.
Just then, Sarah thanked Patricia for the large stuffed bear sheâd given her, and Patricia winced, pulling her face away before glancing around at everyone and asking, âWhat did she say?â
Sarahâs face drained of color, and I wanted to strangle the bitch for humiliating her like that. Yes, my sister might have difficulty talking because of her CP but she was perfectly understandable.
Reese saved the day by dryly answering, âShe said thank you,â as if that shouldâve been obviousâ¦because it ~was~.
After that, Reese suggested that Sarah and her three classmates put Sarahâs new makeup on each other, so she popped up from the loveseat next to me and went to my sister, taking charge of that activity.
And about as soon as she left, Patricia blew out a breath. âWow, my feet are just killing me. Do you mind if I sit here?â
And she sank down next to me without waiting for a response.
I sent her a scowl before I commenced to ignore her completely.
Her fiancé or whatever he was, stood awkwardly beside her, because he couldnât fit on the cushions with us, until Mom seemed to take pity on him and asked him what he did, which left no one paying attention to either Patricia or me, and in turn let her think we should actually talk to each other.
âSo⦠I tried to contact you last night,â she murmured discreetly.
I watched Reese spread a deep purple over Sarahâs eyelids.
âI know you saw the message,â Patricia added.
Blush was dabbled to my sisterâs cheeks.
âYou canât ignore me forever.â
Oh, yes, I could.
âDo you even care what your sweet, ~innocent ~babysitter is hiding?â
Honestly, I didnât care what Reese might or might not be hiding. Nothing could make her worse than the woman sitting next to me now. She was bright color in my black and white world, and Iâd most likely defend her and stand beside her no matter what sheâd done or hadnât done. She could end up being just as big a prostitute as I was, and I just wouldnât give a fuck. Reese was still Reese, no matter how her past had played out, and I loved her no matter what.
Shitâ¦
Wait, what had I just said up there in my head?
Patricia sniffed next to me, her gaze on Reese. âSheâs quite the attention seeker, isnât she? Stealing the limelight away from your sister on her birthday.â
This time, I turned to glower at her.
She didnât have a clue, not a single fucking clue how awesome Reese was for my sister.
Before I could tell her to go to hell and never come back, Sarah and her friends started screaming, hopping up on the cushions as not to touch the floor. Then Reese yelped my name in a panic.
As she cried out for someone to save Sarah, I lurched to my feet, trying to figure out what was causing the uproar, because I couldnât spot the source of their terror at all.
âWhat the hell?â I said. âWhatâs wrong?â
Five females started in at once, telling me something I couldnât understand but their frantic gestures toward the floor at least directed me ~where~ to look.
âOh,â I said, blowing out a relieved breath when I spotted it. âItâs just a wolf spider.â
Reese gaped at me as if Iâd lost my mind. âI wasnât asking what ~kind~ it was,â she screeched in outrage. âJust ~kill~ it!â
Wow, she was insistent. And ruthless. But this bloodthirsty, kill-it side was cute. I cracked up. âItâs harmless. Jeez, Reese. I thought you would be more of a humanitarian than this.â
âNot when it comes to gross, hairy, eight-legged freaks. That thing is bigger than me.â
I rolled my eyes. âIt is ~not~.â
She drew in a long breath as if she was about to bitch me out for laughing at her fear, which only made her even more adorable, when suddenly she screamed and clutched one of Sarahâs classmates.
âOh my God! It moved. Kill it, kill it, ~kill it~.â
When Sarah and her friends started shrieking along with her, I finally had mercyâon them, not the spiderâand I stomped my foot down, only to lift my shoe, exposing squished arachnid guts.
âHandled,â I reported.
Reese yelled, âOh my God, ~thank you~.â Then she jumped off the couch and straight into my arms. I wasnât expecting her to do that, so I had to grapple to catch her before we both crashed to the floor.
Her breasts smashed into my chest and her face was inches from mine when she gave an overly exaggerated sigh and announced, âMason Lowe,â in a dramatic, falsetto voice, âyouâre my hero.â
I chuckled and rolled my eyes, setting her back on the floor before I did something stupid, like kiss her in front of everyone. âYouâre such a dork,â I said, loving that feature most about her.
Shaking my head, I smiled, because she was honestly the best thing that had ever happened to me.