The three of us are in bed together, sleeping in the shape of a river. [TLN: Has something to do with the Chinese word/letter for river I think]
My mother, who was beside me looking at the ceiling as I was, began to tell me a story.
It was before I was born.
How my mother and father met, how they started dating, and how they got married.
I had never asked her before, nor had I thought of asking her.
But this is a good opportunity. Letâs take a moment to talk about my motherâs story.
âLetâs see, when I was still in high school, I met Ryuichi. I met Ryuichi at this boarding house.â
Mom began to tell me an old story. The story is a story that she actually experienced, so of course, it is true.
I donât think she was exaggerating.
She met my father a long time ago when she was still living in this boarding house.
It seems that he was a college student who was taking care of her at this boarding house.
Ryuichi-san doesnât talk much and looks the way he does, right? Heâs pretty much at odds with the other housemates.â
Well, I understand somehow. He is scary when you look at him normally, and even if you think he is smiling, the smile that comes to his face is the devilâs smile.
What the hell, itâs the same now as it was then.
âThere was a day in high school when I came home late from school. On the way home, I was in trouble because I was being accosted by a delinquent, and Ryuichi came to my rescue.â
In the darkened room, my mother was telling me a story about the old days.
I canât see her, but Iâm sure she has a smile on her face. The tone of her voice seems to be getting higher and higher.
âWhat do you think Ryuichi-san said to her at that moment? He said, âSorry, sheâs with me. Heâs with me. I came to pick her up. Who are you guys?â Well, thatâs an embarrassing line now that I think about it.â
Where have I heard that line before?
My heart beat a little faster than before.
âThen he grabbed my arm and led me straight away away away from the delinquents. Now that I think about it, I think thatâs when I fell in love with him.â
Mom never opened up to Dad again and didnât tell him how she felt until she graduated from high school.
During that time, neither Mom nor Dad had a boyfriend.
âI tried to get her to open up to me over and over again, but he just didnât notice or answer me at all! He was really insensitive, or maybe I should say dull⦠But Iâm sure Ryuichi was also concerned about me. He never said it himself, he never showed that kind of attitude, but he was always there for me and helped meâ¦â
Jesus, Dad, youâre so insensitive, too. If you were normal, youâd notice, right? The girl you care about is giving you signals, you know?
âIâve tried crossing arms with him, hugging him from behind, going to festivals, movies, and amusement parks with him, but he never asked me to go out with him or confessed his feelings for me. If we could go back in time, I would have confessed my feelings to him and we would have enjoyed our high school years even more!â
All those years under the same roof, having feelings for each other, not going out, and then going outâ¦
Huh? Iâve heard that story somewhere⦠Oh, isnât it the same as that movie?
I donât remember all the details, but when I saw the magazine, I think it was a movie like that.
Could it be that the hero of the movie, like my father, had crossed paths with the heroine?
âOn the graduation day, he handed me a bouquet of flowers and said, âWonât you go out with me on the assumption that weâll get married?â Thatâs right! He bit his lip at the very moment when he was about to say something like that! I was happy, but it was even funnier than that, and I burst out laughing right then and there!â
Somehow, I can picture that scene in my mindâs eye. If my father, that tough-looking guy, bites his tongue in a scene like that, Iâm sure Iâd be laughing my ass off too.
But Iâm sure heâs very serious.
âAfter a good laugh, I said, âToo late! You are too late! If you were serious, you would have kissed me right here and now.â And Ryuichi didnât say anything, he just kissed me softly! I still remember that moment vividlyâ¦â
Isnât this a funny story about my dad instead of a simple love story?
But you made up your mind in the end. You didnât get confused, you told him how you feltâ¦
âOh, that⦠Werenât you embarrassed, like when you and Ryuichi put your arms around each other or hugged? Youâre not in a relationship yet, are you?â
Oh, Himekawa is still awake. She had been silent for a long time, so I thought she was asleep.
Well, Iâve been a listener, too, and Iâve said very little.
âThatâs pretty embarrassing. But my body naturally started to move. I can do it now! I thought. But I guess you donât even notice our thoughts, you know?â
âThatâs right. Yes, itâs too much. Thatâs terrible. I think heâs probably the worst kind of man.â
Himekawa spits out a lot of venomous words. The poison is unimaginable from the way she usually uses her words.
âDad had his reasons. Mom, you were in high school, right? You see, thereâs an age difference and stuff.â
âWhen I was sixteen, Ryuichi was eighteen and a college student, so we werenât that far apart, you know? Maybe he didnât want to have a relationship with the daughter of the boarding house owner. Plus, he had to deal with the other residents.â
âI see. So there were still other people living there at that time.â
âI was still living here, but everyone knew I had the hots for Ryuichi. My mother and father included.â
Whatâs that? Everyone but my father knew about it.
But in that case, wouldnât he have heard about it? He knew that my mother had feelings for my father.
âEven under those circumstances, didnât Ryuichi tell your mother how he felt about you?â
âI guess so. I guess there must have been a rule in my mind. But I wanted to go out with him earlier and have more enjoyable adolescence!
Itâs not that itâs better to be early. Not necessarily better to be late.
However, the reality is that the time that has passed will never come back.
It is the same for me and Himekawa. We are spending the same time.
The time that has passed will not come back. Yes, it doesnât come backâ¦
âTsukasa. Since you are quite insensitive just like Ryuichi-san, you should properly sense the feelings of other girls.â
âHmm? Me? Iâll probably be fine. Iâll definitely notice.â
Oh? For some reason, I felt the air become heavier.
Was there something wrong with what I said?
âTsukasa-kun⦠can I trust your words?â
âOh, itâs all right. Iâm no more insensitive than my father.â
I think. Maybeâ¦
âI believe your words. I believe youâ¦â
Himekawaâs voice is getting a little faded.
Maybe sheâs sleepy?
âAre you sleepy already, Anri? Do you want to go to bed soon?â
âIâm a little sleepyâ¦â
âI see. Well, I guess thatâs it for today. Next, we were going to talk about Tsukasaâs first love! What a pity!â
What is that? Talking about my first love?
Who is it? Whoâs my first love?
âMother-in-law. The night is just beginning. Next, Tsukasa-kunâs love story.â
Hey, Himekawa-san? Didnât you say you were sleepy just now?
âI like you too, Anri-chan. Okay, then, Tsukasaâs first love isââ
Donât proceed without confirming my wish!
And so our talk, in the shape of a river, continued until midnightâ¦