I put Anriâs bag and my bag on my shoulder and get on the train.
Anri is silent the whole time. And her expression is also dark. It is like a lighthouse that has lost its light.
I take Anriâs hand and get off the train at the usual station. We walk home more slowly than usual.
I decided not to take the long way around today, but to walk home through the shopping arcade.
On the way home, I was approached by a lady at a butcher shop.
âWhatâs the matter, Tsukasa-chan? Whatâs wrong with such a gloomy face?â
We walked up to her and went into the store.
Normally, we would have bought some menchikatsu, but we were not in the mood today.
âOh, Hime-chan. You look terrible. Did you get into a fight?â
Auntie was sharp and pointed.
She has been running the restaurant for decades.
She is a good observer of peopleâs facial expressions. I mean, is Anri called âHime-chanâ?
Thatâs something new.
âWeâre not really fighting. Itâs just that things have been going onâ¦â
âHime-chan, you seem really distressed. But that face must still be worried. If you feel like it, please talk to Auntie about it.â
Then she gave us some steamed meat buns from the counter.
âHere, eat this and cheer up! Itâs a special service from Auntie.â
We nodded silently and picked up the steamed buns, which were warm.
âThank youâ¦â
Still, Anri looked down and did not speak a word.
A shopping street with many people passing by. I wondered how we looked to other people, holding hands and walking along the edge.
After passing through the shopping street, we arrived in front of a park.
This is where I told Anri how I felt about her. Suddenly, a bench caught my eye.
âShall we eat some steamed meat buns?â
I took Anriâs hand, entered the park, and sat down on the bench.
Anriâs bag is heavy. It was filled with reference books, notebooks, and other things.
I handed her one of the steamed meat buns I had gotten for her.
âHere, letâs eat it before it gets cold. Auntie was concerned about Anriâ¦â
Anri took a bite of the steamed bun in her hand and put her hand on her lap.
âItâs warm, This steamed bunâ¦but my heart is surely coldâ¦â
âNo, not at all. Anri has a kind heart. Surely, itâs only for now that youâre so worried about it.â
I start eating the steamed buns with a big mouth too.
The menchis are good, but the steamed buns are also good.
âIâm not sure how Iâm going to look at Ayane tomorrow. I donât have the confidence to act the same way I always doâ¦â
âDonât worry. By tomorrow, I am sure everything will be back to normal. Donât think so deeply.â
The park is completely dark. The street lights are on, shining right above us.
The wind is a little chilly. The wind blew Anriâs hair and left a single tear drop on her cheek.
âIâm sorry. Sorry for being such a jerk.â
âAre you that insecure? Are you that uncertain? Then, are you that insecure about what Anri said when she told me she liked me?â
âThatâs not true! I like you, Tsukasa-kun. But Ayane is also an important friend of mine.â
âThen donât think too much about it. We are what we are, right? Just because Sugimoto-san was there doesnât mean anything will change. Anri is overthinking things.â
âIs that so⦠am I overthinking it? Am I fine the way I am?â
âYes, just the same as before, go home together, have dinner, study. Youâre going to the movies next time, right? Itâs a movie you want to see, right? Then letâs go together. Takayama, Sugimoto, me, and Anri. See, itâs the same as usual, isnât it?â
âYeah, thatâs right. Letâs all go to the movies together. Iâm sure Ayane is looking forward to it.â
Anri, feeling a little more energetic, puts the steamed bun in her mouth and begins to eat it, looking a little more delicious.
I followed suit and put a piece of the steamed bun in my mouth.
âThis steamed bun is delicious. Letâs buy some next time.â
âWell, Auntie treated me well today, so now I have to get it right.â
Taking Anriâs hand, who was feeling a little better, we headed home.
Good, she seems to be feeling a little better.
â
I cook dinner with Anri and we sit around the table.
I thought it was noisy when Mom was here, but when she was actually gone, I felt a little sad.
âMother-in-law taught me how to cook a little. Um say, do you mind if I make Tsukasa-kunâs lunch tomorrow?â
âHmm? Arenât you going to make one for yourself?â
âBut wouldnât it be strange if we both had the same bento?â
Indeed. If the lunches were made at completely different houses and had exactly the same contentsâ¦
There is no way such a miracle could happen. Iâm sure that Takayama would notice.
âI agree, itâs not good for two people to have the same bento.â
âIâll do the same as usual, so can I just make one for Tsukasa-kun?â
âIsnât that too much work?â
âNo, itâs not! Even Ayane was able to do it. I can do it too!
Sheâs angry. Thereâs no need to be angry.
âIâll leave it to you. Also, can we not go jogging in the morning until after the test? I want to study a little in the morning.â
âI think thatâs fine. I think it will take me a couple of hours to make lunch, too.â
Does it take that long? It doesnât take three hours to make one lunch, does it?
âDo you want me to help?â
âDonât worry. I can do it by myself.
While we were talking like this, the night was drawing to a close and it was almost time to go to bed.
Both Anri and I had finished taking a bath and were relaxing on the sofa.
âIs it okay if I dry your hair every day?â
Anri, sitting next to me, asks me.
âHmm? I donât mind, but why?â
âI donât have any deep meaning. I just want to do it.â
Smiling, Anri brings a hair dryer.
Then she dries my hair nicely.
This feels really good, you know? Iâm going to be addicted to it.
âThank you. Iâm all dried up.â
âNo, no, youâre welcome. Iâll dry it tomorrow, too.â
Why are you so obsessed? Is there something wrong with my hair?
Maybe Iâm going bald or something⦠No, my dad has a full head of hair and my grandpa had a full head of hair too.
Iâm sure Iâll be fine. Iâm sure Iâll grow up to be a healthy, hairy adult.
I looked at the clock, the date was about to change.
We had been studying after we got home, so it was getting late.
Anri seemed to have dried her hair, and we decided to go to bed.
âThen Iâm off to bed. Iâll see you tomorrow at the usual time.â
âYeah, okay. Good night.â
Anri ran upstairs alone.
Thank God, I thought she might be a little more emotionally unstable after what happened earlier.
Maybe the meat buns were good?
I turned off the light and snuggled into the futon.
Well, the test is coming up. I told them we were all going to the movies together.
This is the time to win. I have to do my bestâ¦
As Iâm dozing off, I hear the door to my room open.
In the dimly lit room, I looked toward the door and saw Anri standing there holding a pillow.
And her expression is just as dark as before.
âWhatâs wrong? Did something happen?â
Wordlessly, Anri walked up next to me.
ââ¦Can I sleep with you?â¦â
It wasnât more than a few seconds before I got my answer.