Chapter 52: Chapter 51

51 – Memory

“You have been praised as a savior until now, but you betray us! Do you think you can still be forgiven by heaven? “What did we do wrong?”

“What? Saver? Praise? Ha, no one else knows, but you shouldn’t do that, you idiots. Have you guys ever listened to what I asked for? When I said that talented commoners should also be taught magic and use it, who was the one who refused, saying that magic was the exclusive domain of nobles? I taught him healing magic to try to save at least one person, but he said it was lese majeste, and who beheaded the soldier who used it? But since we seemed to be having some effect by teaching them secretly, who was it that gave us permission to pretend to be generous and boasted about it as if it were their own?”

“Isn’t it obvious! “Magic is only of noble blue blood.”

“Shut up. Because I’m not finished talking yet. Okay. If that was all it took, I would have endured it. No matter what you said in the past, eventually even soldiers could use basic magic. Not because of idiots like you, but because of me. Even so, he boasted about how the soldiers’ efficiency had improved, and then endured the fact that lowly commoners were still using magic…… I did…… “

“…… “If you’re going to be a b*tch, at least you shouldn’t have crossed the line, you bastards.”

“What do you mean, crossing the line!”

“Are you pretending not to know, or are you really not aware? Well, that’s enough. Either way. You’ve probably heard of it, right? The woman you killed because people followed her more than the idiot who pontificates and stays in the imperial palace. They said we were at a place where an enemy detachment was located, so we went there to make a surprise attack, and we were ambushed, I guess? Who actually did that? Huh?”

“We don’t know! “How could I have known they were there in ambush!”

“No. You knew it. You have a butler there, right? I dug into his brain and pulled out his memories. That bastard also did all kinds of ugly things. It’s funny. “So many lives were sacrificed to protect these guys, and while we were out in front getting slaughtered, they were doing such dirty things behind the scenes.”

“You saw a memory? That must be a golden art that only demons use! “You’re called a savior, but you’re in cahoots with demons. It’s treason.”

“Why don’t you just shut up?!”

“aaah! A person’s throat! “My throat!”

“You at least shouldn’t have touched her, you bastards! I shouldn’t have killed her for the trivial reason that people followed her more than yours! What do you think was the reason the front line was able to be maintained? What do you think is the reason why the soldiers’ morale was able to be maintained at all?! “It was thanks to the woman you trapped and killed!”

“No, Savior! She dared to plot her treason! Didn’t she arbitrarily offer remonstrances to His Majesty the King and try to kill our nobles? “Our nobles mixed up with the commoners and shed noble blood—huh?!”

“Are you even selling the names of dead people? Even though you know that all the nobles who fought together with the commoners are dead?! Even though I know that the reason you were still alive was because, unlike the true nobles, you were locked in the imperial palace and shivering?!”

“Blood, blood! Blood! Household troops! Where is the Royal Guard? Kill this guy right now! Household troops! Our savior has betrayed us! “The royal guard!”

“I…” … I’m not that damn savior. I’m just…… Just…… I just want to go home. You fought for over 10 years. If you were dragged in while reading a novel and did that, then you did your best. But what about you? What did you do while I was dying, losing all my friends and colleagues, and only earning the superficial title of savior? Staying here and enjoying the last remaining luxuries and pleasures? Or are you trying to figure out how to get involved with the demons?”

“Go, don’t come closer! “What are you going to do with us?”

“I made a deal with the devil. If you help the demons win this war, they will send me back to my original world in return. Even if it’s like this, you won’t understand. It was a fact he only told to one person, but he said he found it by digging up memories from a dead body. Then I asked for the body to be returned, but they said they couldn’t return it because the body had melted in the process. It’s funny. It’s funny. Smile. “Why aren’t you smiling?”

“Oh, don’t come! “Don’t come – ahhh!”

“The promise is different! They say they will send you back to the original world! However…… But why… ….”

“I told you so. Make us win the war. “Only when you die will we truly win.”

“…… It was a lie? That is?”

“It’s not a lie. From now on, you will provide salvation to the remaining humans, and in return, the goddess will send you back to the original world. Now, take a look. Millions of humans covering the plains. People with tears in their eyes, weapons in their hands, and with their mouths begging you to die. By sacrificing yourself alone, you can bring salvation to so many people. “It would truly be an end worthy of the title of savior.”

“…… Do not be ridiculous. Don’t be funny. Why on earth do I have to be like this…… Why do I have to be like this…… Why me… ….”

“Oh my. In the end, no one survived. Why? I wasn’t particularly brainwashed or controlled by my body. Did you kill all the millions of people who begged you to sacrifice yourself just once? Of one’s own will? Can’t you hear them crying that they don’t want to die? “I don’t know if that’s behavior worthy of the title of savior.”

“You wouldn’t have saved me if I was going to die anyway. Is this right.”

“I was planning to save him. We tried to use them as livestock for our food, generation after generation. I do not lie. “Isn’t that ultimately an act of saving one’s life?”

“…… Look. “I had no intention of protecting it anyway.”

“Hmm? Why are you taking up arms? Do you still intend to do something more? The only human left, other than the livestock we left behind, would be you. “Are you trying to fight our forces alone?”

“What are you doing this for? “That has been decided.”

“It’s what I do best.”

The morning sunlight shone in my eyes. I returned from memory to reality. At that time, the last answer I gave was just falling from my lips.

I reflexively checked her right hand. I could hear Yeongwon with his black blade set. He exerted so much force that the veins on his wrists bulged and his palms turned pure white.

‘Of course.’

I canceled the summoning of Eternal and woke up feeling dirty. Why on earth did I have such a dream at this time?

My appetite was bitter. It seemed like the worry about how to grow Brünnhild would have to be postponed until later.

“Ugh…… Is it morning already, Mira?”

Booss, Priscilla, who was lying in the same bed, got up next to me. She was wearing only a white Y shirt with no buttons fastened, and black lingerie top and bottom.

They say humans are creatures of adaptation, and at first I was scared just by the fact that Priscilla was sleeping next to her, but now I didn’t mind seeing that. I was just thinking that we fell asleep together again.

“Are you okay? “You don’t look very good.”

“It’s okay”

I was reflexively trying to reply that it was okay and not to worry, but honestly, even if it was an empty remark, I realized that my current situation was not like that. Memories that I had forced to bury deep in my heart came to mind, but how could I possibly be okay?

“…… No. “I don’t think it’s very good.”

Priscilla opened her eyes wide as if she had never expected me to respond like this, then stretched out her arms and pulled me in. Her head was buried between her breasts, her arms wrapped around her sides and back.

“Then let’s stay like this until it gets better.”

As if magic had been used, the blanket flew by itself and covered the two of us. The air inside began to heat up in an instant. I could feel sweat slowly seeping out of my chest.

“Shall we have a lecture today as well?”

“Wow, you are really popular. “How many are there in total?”@@novelbin@@

“I refused to visit them all, saying I didn’t need to visit them, but they only sent me gifts.”

“I’m glad I didn’t come empty-handed. Now, here’s your gift.”

“What is that? Flower?”

“If you give money in exchange, it seems insincere. I don’t think you’ll really need it. Or tell me what you want separately.”

“Nothing. Something like that. Just flowers are enough. “It’s much better than such a burdensome gift.”

“Right? After all, I have some eyes to see. Well, I’m going to leave it here by the window, so take good care of it so it doesn’t wilt. Well, it’s okay even if it wilts. “I can give it to you again.”

Rosaria, who had placed the vase on the window sill, approached the pile of gifts piled on the table and began to look at them. They were all sent after hearing that I had taken a break from teaching because I was sick.

Some of them came from the Chairman, some from Ingrid, some from the Crown Prince, and some from the Sword Saint. For the remaining dozens of messages, I didn’t even bother to check the sender’s name.

Anyway, they are probably just snooping around trying to make a connection with me somehow. No matter what I did with the gift, that’s the one I have to bend over to get into.

“No, what did Geomseong send? Elixir diluted 1/10? “Isn’t he in the imperial palace now?”

That’s exactly what I thought when I first saw it. I guess that’s because the other three are in the same academy, but I couldn’t figure out how Geomseong knew and sent it. Is there a spy in the academy?

There was also a gift from Roxanna, and I wasn’t going to eat it and was about to throw it away, but when I inspected it, it turned out to be an unexpectedly ordinary fruit set, so I just left it.

I don’t know why, but it seems like he’s trying to get close to me, so I guess I can just pretend to accept him and then just drink the sweet water and reveal his true identity.

“But why did you miss the lecture because you were in pain?”

“Being sick is an excuse. “I just feel a little bad.”

“…… “No, how low is the pressure?”

I was debating whether to tell you or not, but I decided to just tell you because I didn’t think it was anything to hide. Those two aren’t the type to go anywhere and reveal secrets.

“I had a dream.”

“Dream? “What dream?”

“My first world.”

“Uh…… Hmm. I see.”

Rosaria gave an ambiguous response. This is probably because she has deliberately avoided mentioning her first possession.

“…… To be honest. I was also quite tired at that time. We’ve been fighting for over 10 years, but the war shows no signs of ending and we’re starting to lose ground. All of our close colleagues and friends are dead, and all the capable nobles are dead, leaving only incompetent idiots at the top. “They paid the real waste tag value properly.”

But as I continued speaking, not only Rosalia but also Priscilla perked up her ears.

“I was so exhausted that I stupidly accepted the deal. He said that if I help the demons win the war, he will send me back to my original world. So, while outwardly insisting that we should fight until the end, inwardly we were wondering how to surrender to maintain power, we killed all of our superiors and surrendered.”

“…… “You were betrayed.”

It seemed like he realized what had happened to me. He nodded bitterly.

“They said that if I, the savior, sacrificed myself for the humans while carrying weapons against the humans I had been holding captive, the goddess would be moved and send me back to the original world…… Who would believe that? “I killed all the people who asked me to die for them, I killed all the demons who betrayed me, and when I came to my senses after cutting off the demon king’s head, there was no one left in the world except me.”

The people who were said to have been left by the demons to be raised as livestock were all dead when they went to the place with difficulty. Even those who survived by eating corpses didn’t seem to last long.

Whether the cause of death was starvation or hunger, it was clear that it must have been a very painful end.

“… ….”

“… ….”

Priscilla and Rosaria were hesitant, looking like they didn’t know what to do with the explanation that was more horrifying than they could have imagined. I burst out laughing.

“Well, that’s the story. I didn’t say it because it wasn’t a story worth telling to others and I didn’t want to drag it out of my memory, but this is what happened. And you aren’t strangers, are you?”

“I would appreciate it if you said that, but… ….”

The two were still in an anxious mood.

“Uh, um. “Sorry for asking you to talk for so long?”

“That’s enough. Because it’s all in the past anyway. I don’t particularly want to receive an apology. “You don’t have to be this depressed.”

It was a method I forced myself to use. There is no benefit in suffering from the past, so you should try to forget it, even if it means forcing yourself to do so. Even if you see a similar situation, never react.

I don’t know about other people, but it definitely worked for me. Because I was able to live a normal life until I had this dream. Even now, it will be fine in just a few more hours.

“Still… ….”

Rosaria, who was still hesitating despite my words, had a determined look on her face, and she grabbed the chest of her turtleneck and carefully opened it. Her white, silver underwear covering her busty breasts was clearly visible.

“Would you like to touch my breasts?”

“…… Why?”

I asked back as if it was absurd, and Priscilla, who had been clinging to me with concern, opened her eyes.

In fact, Priscilla was still in her pajamas, so there was no difference.

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“Well, no, whatever. Is there a saying that men feel better when they touch their breasts? I have really big breasts, so touching them will be delicious…… Uh, isn’t this expression a bit…… ?”

“Please dress properly, exhibitionist pervert.”

“What? Exhibitionist? Hey! People were worried at best! “Just spit out my worries!”