Andrei
I called Phoenix first thing.
He didnât answer.
So, I sent him a text.
Me
Iâm going to need a new social for Alice, new last name, a job, maybe something in retail. She likes clothes.
Me
Have her dye her hair blond so sheâs unrecognizable, talk to her about the risks of wiping her prints from her skin. Iâll have her ready in an hour.
Phoenix replied back quickly.
Phoenix
Iâm confused, I gave her twenty-four hours. She has yet to contact me. Did she tell you she wanted this?
I frowned down at my phone.
Me
What are you talking about?
Phoenix: I offered her her freedom last night. She said no.
Hands shaking, I read the response over and over again. He had to be wrong. Mistaken. Confused.
Because it was often that Phoenix Nicolasi was confused?
He was in his twenties, not his eighties.
Me
Whatever. I made the choice for her. Itâs not worth it. I thought I could control it, thought it would be different.
Phoenix
So, what youâre saying is, youâre a coward?
Me
Take that back or Iâm burning down your house with you in it.
Phoenix
Promises⦠whoops, I just added everyone in on this conversation. Guys Andreiâs scared.
I almost broke my phone in half.
Barely stopped myself from throwing it against the wall as texts came in.
Nixon
He does realize that heâs the monster he sees in the mirror⦠right?
Me
Speak for yourself psycho.
Nixon
I love it when you compliment me.
Chase
I was scared of the dark too when I was a kid, but then I put on my big boy pants realized I have a dick not a pussy and got the hell over it!
Me
We sure you have a dick?
Dante
Donât make him show us.
Tex
Like the camera can really capture things that small.
Sergio
Why are we talking about dicks again? Itâs seven a.m.!
Phoenix
Trouble in paradise. Andreiâs scared of his wife.
Me
I was interested, now Iâm not. Because I donât do attachments. Sheâll be fine. She has my name.
Nixon
Did you pass her a note to break up with her? Or are you waiting until recess? Shit man, you canât just marry someone one day and break up with them the next.
Me
Setting your house on fire too, guess Iâll be busy tonight.
I hated that he was both wrong and right. Sheâd be safe because sheâd have my name, they didnât know it wasnât real. It didnât matter. My name was all that mattered.
Nixon
Could you start the fire in the kitchen? Trace wants to do a remodel, would save me a shit ton of time.
Chase
I love setting things on fire.
Tex
People. You love setting people on fire, oh wait thatâs Andrei.
I rolled my eyes.
Me
It was necessary at the time.
Sergio
Setting a human on fire when you could just shoot them? Mmmm, okay. Sure.
Phoenix
Weâre getting off track. He wants to send her away.
Chase
Hell no. Iâm enjoying this. Letâs lock him in his apartment and spike everything with Viagra.
Nixon
We donât want to kill him, can you imagine the erection?
Dante
Erection, erection, erection. I love our texts, they make me feel so mature.
Chase
Small fry, the adults are talking, shhhh.
Tex
Rock a bye baby on the tree topâ¦
Me
The day Tex sings me a lullaby is the day I give up on life, or maybe itâs the day life has given up on us?
Sergio
Deep, Drei, so deep.
Chase
Word.
Nixon
Look, we took blood oaths to protect you. That means from yourself when necessary, I mean look at Chase! He was miserable!
Chase
Thanks man, really.
Tex
Nixonâs right. Donât send her away because youâre scared of a bit of nakedness.
Me
Iâm not scared of her.
Phoenix
Take it from someone who refused to eat certain colors because I didnât think I deserved them⦠youâre not good enough for her.
Tex
Heâs right. Heâs not who I would have picked for my baby sister. Anyone, I would have literally chosen anyone but him.
Phoenix
Thanks man.
Tex
Itâs true.
Phoenix
She screams when sheâ
Me
STOP
Dante
Voice of reason here, arch enemy, person who almost shot you in the face and took great joy in sitting on your throne at Eagle Elite.
Me
Youâre not missed.
Dante
Donât do it. Youâll regret it.
Me
I already regret this entire conversation.
Phoenix
My answer, as youâve already guessed, is hell no. If she reaches out to me and wants it, thatâs on her, but Iâm not doing this favor for you, because itâs not in your best interest.
Tex
Dad put his foot down, nice.
Me
You swore fealty to me and my family.
Phoenix
Iâm protecting you from losing your soul. Youâre welcome.
Nixon
Sex does solve a lot.
Tex
Heâs not wrong.
Dante
Besides⦠youâre a whore, shouldnât be hard.
They didnât know.
In their eyes I was double dipping.
Running the club and screwing anything with legs and a healthy appetite for life.
Fantastic.
Phoenix
Guysâ¦
Me
Phoenix say one wordâ¦
Phoenix
I hate to be the one to do this.
Me
Phoenix I will MURDER YOU.
Phoenix
Andreiâsâ¦
Nixon
Dying?
Tex
Secretly Italian?
Dante
Been married for a year?
Sergio
Russian, heâs Russian. I win.
Chase
Heâs a virgin.
Phoenix
You knew?
Nixon
Iâm sorry, what?
Tex
WTF?
Dante
You justify setting people on fire and sex is what? Too adventurous for you?
Nixon
What?
Tex
Iâm confused.
Phoenix
How did you know?
I exhaled in relief. At least I was a better actor than that.
Me
Iâm running myself over with my car now. See you in Hell.
Tex
Wear a condom!
Nixon
Donât go too fast.
Chase
It will be over in five seconds. Maybe two.
Dante
I can come over andâ
Me
Finish that sentence and I strangle you.
Tex
Thatâs what she said.
Phoenix
You arenât your father.
I stared at the screen.
The guys stopped texting.
Maybe they knew I needed a minute.
Maybe they didnât know what to say.
Me
I have work to do. Iâm going to break Elena. Iâm not going to have sex. Itâs all I have, all I have.
I hated being vulnerable.
I hated admitting that.
And then Nixon replied.
Nixon
I respect that.
Tex
Same.
Dante
She wouldnât be taking it, Drei, youâd be giving it.
Sergio
Weâre here if you need us.
Phoenix
I get that more than you will ever know.
Me
Then try to understand why I want her to leave.
Phoenix
No, I think I like the idea of you being tortured and finally facing your demons, theyâll come knocking a different way, and there are worse ways to conquer your fears.
Nixon
Heâs right.
Me
Iâm leaving this chat group now.
I tossed my phone on the bed and ran my shaky hands through my hair, then stood, grabbed my phone, and stomped out of my room.
Alice was waiting in the kitchen. Sheâd made bacon.
I stared at it.
Then at her. âYou packed?
âNo.â She swallowed a piece and reached for another. âIâm not.â
âWhy?â I leaned against the granite; it cut into my hip as I waited for her response.
She eyed me up and down. âYou need me.â
âNo.â Rage filled me, how dare she! âI really donât.â
âWeâll see.â
âYup, guess we will.â
Was everyone going to drive me insane today?
I slammed my hands on the countertop and tried to breathe in and out, in and out. âIâm off to torture my stepmother. Donât know when Iâll be back.â
âWait!â She reached for my arm, touched it.
I flinched. âWhat? What more could you possibly want from me?â
âCan I come?â Her eyes searched mine.
I had to have heard her wrong. âIâm sorry, what?â
Was she drunk?
âCan I come with you?â
âYou,â I said slowly, âwant to come with me and watch while I torture a woman for information and bring her as close to death as physically possible?â
She shivered and then paled. âIs she bad?â
âDoes it matter?â
She nodded.
I bit back a curse.
âShe used to hit on me when I was a kid and tried touching me in the shower multiple times, would tell my dad I was the one hitting on her and made it so that I had to kill my own puppy when I was a child.
Aliceâs eyes lit up with rage. âIâm coming.â
âJust make sure you puke in the corner and remember sheâs the enemy.â
âIf Iâm staying, I need to learn how this works.â
Exhausted already, I sighed. âYouâre not staying, six thirty-two.â
âBack to that, are we?â
âAlice.â I said her name with warning when my heart sped up that she would even fight to stay. âDonât.â
âDo I need to bring like a weapon or something?â
I smirked. âWow, youâre actually serious, arenât you?â
âYeah, I mean you cut out my brotherâs tongue. Iâm assuming I need a knife orââ
âIâm keeping you far away from all sharp objects. With my luck youâd actually injure yourself and distract me.
Was it my imagination or did her eyes light up? âNo. I would think for a man who has a tarantula at the bar, youâd be far more⦠adventurous.â
I barked out a laugh. âYou have no fucking idea.â
At least one good thing would happen from today.
Alice would watch what I did.
And because she was a good person.
Because she was more than good.
Sheâd realize just how much she didnât belong in my world.
I was the prince of darkness.
She may as well be an angel of light.