This is it.
Iâve made my choice,
And in this silence, I find my voice.
The worldâs too heavy, the sky too gray,
And I just want myself to be gone, away.
Iâve smiled enough, Iâve played along,
Told myself I could be strong.
But inside Iâm rotting, piece by piece,
Begging for this endless pain to cease.
Nobody knows, nobody cares,
They see the laughter, unaware.
Iâve perfected this act, my flawless lie,
While Iâve been dying on the inside.
I laugh with friends, I walk through light,
But when Iâm alone, itâs endless night.
I wish someone would see past the mask,
But they never do, they never ask.
You'll say you never knew, I seemed so bright,
While Iâve been choking in plain sight.
Iâm tired of fighting this battle alone,
Of calling this hollow body a home.
I wanted help, I really did,
But Iâve been too good at keeping it hid.
Now thereâs no more strength to pretend,
Iâm done. This is the end.
So when you read this, understand,
It wasnât sudden, it wasnât planned.
Iâve been slipping for far too long,
I just can't keep holding on.