Chapter 16: How are you?

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I'm fine.

Am I really fine?

Of course I am.

Don't you see my happiness?

Can't you hear my laughter?

Don't you feel my happy smile

That my jokes come after?

I'm fine.

I don't want you to know the truth.

So what else would I say

When honesty in life so often

Just gets in my way.

I'm fine.

I don't want to explain myself

Don't want to show my weakness

Want you to think I'm happy now

Ain't gonna show my sadness

I'm fine.

Stop asking me how I am.

I don't wanna tell my story.

Want you to think that I am strong

So you don't have to worry.

How are you?

Why does that question even exist

Who wouldn't say a lie

Nobody will be honest

Not even when they try

I'm fine.

Stop bothering me.

I ain't gonna tell you, so take your worries aside

I ain't gonna tell you a thing

Even while dying inside

I'm fine.

I will text you this while crying

So stop asking. How would you ever know

That what I really feel and am

Is what I really show

I'm fine.

You may think you know me

But let me say, you don't

And even if you think one day

I promise that you won't

I'm fine.