Chapter 30: spilled ink

Chaos In My MindWords: 1222

I smile on the outside

While inside, I cry

Hiding my emotions

So no one sees me die

I wear a mask to hide

Don't want to let it fade

My feelings from inside

They just make me afraid

When will I reveal myself

When will I put away my mask

When will I stand up for myself

It feels too much to ask

Too easy it is to act strong

And hide my true face

I know it's been too long

Now I'm trapped in this dark place

I may seem tough

But I'm weaker than you think

My confidence is not enough

I feel like dark, spilled ink

Regret fills my heart

I can't handle my own emotions

Now I'm falling apart

While drowning in dark oceans

My feelings like a house of cards

Easily shattered and frail

Why is my life like a nightmare

Instead of the promised fairy tale?

My heart is heavy with the weight

Of the emotions I keep inside

But I can't bring myself to show

The pain I try to hide

I am tired of pretending

And hide my true emotions away

But the thought alone is just enough

To make me wanna stay

And now I'm left with nothing

But a castle of shattered glass

My emotions run like rivers

Through cracks of my fragile mask

And when I'm gone, they'll finally see

The person I truly was

But it's too late, I'll be a memory

Fading away into dust