Chapter 38: Toxic water

Chaos In My MindWords: 811

I just avoid the question

And keep it far away

but it is gonna crash on me,

crush my bones one day.

It's like a tiny string

That's holding up a rock so tall

I'm standing directly under it

Knowing that it's gonna fall

It's gonna crash me

Ready to slaughter

I don't have any air left,

Drowning in toxic water

Why won't nobody save me

And tell me what is right

And stop to strangle my neck

Instead of holding tight

I don't wanna hear my own thoughts

So I push them all away

Don't want to feel anything at all

I become numb and number every day

I run away but am chasing myself

Trying to catch up but I can never

Who am I supposed to fight when I am the enemy myself

I know I won't win ever

Someone pull me out this toxic water

Can't you hear me screaming?

How can nobody notice

That I've long ago stopped breathing