Chapter 41: Not ready to love

Chaos In My MindWords: 912

It was never hard to love you

But it's hard to let you go

I need to stop my fighting,

Forget everything I know

I need to step back, struggeling

And I am trying hard

I know, this isn't my end yet

I'm only at the start

Cause I know I can't love someone

Until I love myself

And inside of me I do know

That I don't need your help

It was never hard to love you

Only hard to love myself

You lied to me to make me weak

And told me it would help

I should've never listened

Should have stayed like how I was

And I was never good enough

Now I'm breaking all your laws

And before I can love someone

I need to love myself

And inside of me I do know

I can't give what I don't have

Yeah, sometimes I still think of you

Cause you made me feel strong

But what you did was hurting me

Was bad for me all along

I'm glad that I can grow again

And you didn't decide to stay

Cause what I didn't realise then

Was you made me waste away