Ana's pov:
I am watching the late-night sky from my room window which looks beautiful with full moon and stars. I am in my night dress shirt and pants. When I was watching suddenly, I felt some one was coming towards me. I turn around to see alex infront me with an unknown emotion in his face. It was night time, it was not good for us to be alone in a room.
" Alex, what are you doing here? You should not come here at this time." I walked towards the door to send him back. Before I open the door, alex stood behind me, closed the door and locked it. I was so close to him that if I turn back, my body touches his.
Without turning back handle of the door, I stutter " Alex... if anything you have... to say, you can tell me tomorrow. Now you should leave..." I don't know why; I can be brave and straight froward with others except him. my brain stops working when he was so close to me.
Alex makes me turn towards him; you can say I am short that I can see his chest with my direct look. Then I observe his outfit, v- neck blue t shirt that correctly fits him which shows his muscular body. It remembers me his half naked body, my cheeks turn red. I look aside to throw those thoughts away, alex bends to me, that touches his lips to my ear. I can say my earlobes are red, why should he have this effect on me. I hear " remember something.". he knows what am I thinking. This was really embarrassing. I put my hands on his chest to push him away, but his wound I stopped to push him.
"Like what you touch" Alex says huskily. OMG what he thinks, I took my hands back " Alex... leave, you ... should ... leave " I said stuttering. He was not moving; this closeness makes different feeling and expectations in me. I want to leave; I turn to leave but he put his hand to block the way. I choose another side and same repeated.
Now I am between alex and door. He took step forward that my back close to door. I was pressed to door; he took another step that I completely pressed between him and door. All this time I look down or side but not into his face. my body completely touches his.
I feel his hands on my chin to lift my head to see him into his face. My breathe hitched to see him that close. He always suddenly comes and do things that makes me feel feeling about him.
" Alex..." that's it he placed his lips. First the kiss was slow and passionate , I clutched to his shirt and fisted it tight. My knees gone weak; I was about to fall then he lifted me up by waist to his level. He clutches me with single hand that makes feel I am weightless to him. And other hand he caught my neck at positioned to himself for better access.
My chest was pressed against to his chest that even air cannot enter, I reluctant to kiss him back first then I feel a pain on my lower lips. He gets access to my mouth and I lost control and kissed him back. I started to moan when he bites my lips. I tries to push him when I needs breathe.
I was panting for breath, but he put me on floor but did not leave me. I buried my face in his chest that I can't look into his face. He dipped his head in my hair and smelling it. He places light kisses and my neck then to my collar bone and down to middle of cleavage. For his touches my body reacts without my concern. I felt his hands under my top, he moves above and above. I want to stop him, but my heart says to enjoy it. For his every move I can only moan his name.
Then I hear a knock on the door. Jen shouted " Ana, did you wake up? Its already 8:00 AM".
I wake up suddenly hearing her voice , " what the fu**?" I mumbled. " Again, and again, what happens to you Ana?" I am asking myself for nth time.
"Why I am always dreaming about him, from last two days" I remember.
Before two days:
After engagement:
I was walking in the garden thinking what happens before. Then one of the cousins of Sanj and also friend of me came to me. she actually came afternoon; she did not get time to meet me before. After the function she came to me and we chat for some time. Then we get the topic of love. She asked me about I have any lover. I said no but she thinks I am lying to her.
" Ana, we don't know our feelings until we lose that person. If we are late, we can't get them back." She turns her face to me and said " one person used to visit me daily and helped me when I am in problem. when I am going to college and return back, he used to follow me to see that I reach safe or not. First, I think these his tricks to get my attention. I ignore it in starting , but if I am in any problem, he used to help me behind. After some moments I start to feel his caring and protection. Later he did not come to visit me. I starts to miss him, I feel like I miss one part of my body, then I realize that I am used to him. I always search for him while travelling but I never see him for one month. After one month I saw him again and feel I am connected to him. At that moment I realized that not only by touches or speak we can start love, how much close or far the person is only from his presence we will be happy, the care and secure we felt also considered to be love " I don't understand why she is saying this to me.
" from then I did not neglect him and try to clear my feelings. I used to spend time with him and known my feelings . first, I start to like him, I am always careless and he used to take care about me. I always like to spend time with him, I feel sad if he neglects me. I feel safe with him." she continued.
"the butterflies, the constant desire to want to be with him and chat with him. you can keep yourself in danger for our loved person. We trust him more than we trust in ourselves . the main thing is to realize weather we love or like others. These are similar in hearing but there is a large difference between them. Loving someone means that he or she is everything to you, but liking means that we are happy being with that person."
I was looking at her like I am in a new world because I never have these feelings before. But After some incidents with him I have some feelings, she saying.
She concluded " Ana, I thank god that he makes me realize the meaning of love before I lose him. "
"Ana, you think why I have explained it to you. Because from the start to begin I observe one person from his looks to his action. I think he have feelings for you, I want to remind you to never lose the person who care for you." She told. I was shocked that one person loves me I don't know who he is?
" who he is?" I asked her to know who he is. " you don't know who he is?" she asked .
I shook my head in no. she pointed a person who stand by the window watching outside and talking phone and he is none other than Alex. " no, impossible sis." I spoke strongly believing that he never loves me.
I asked sis " sis, do you know who he is?" she shook her head in no. she never interested in others and business. She always lives in her world and don't care about outside world.
" sis , your assumption is wrong because he never loves a person. If once you search him in google you can find about him without telling." I explained about what was the talk about Mr. Alexander Black King in the whole world.
She said " Ana, I don't know about him, but from the way he looks you; like you are the only girl he sees. From your entry to exit he always keep eye on you. When you left mansion, he arranges something . after the whole drama I realize he flied the drone to your room and let the whole people know who you are and clear your name." I don't know until now that he was the one to play the video on screen.
" sis, he always helps us thinking we all are a family. He helped me a lot in past because I am one of his friends. Not more than that." I explained it to her.
" Ana, I only want you take a right decision" she rubbed my head and left.
Past end
From that moment I can't think right about anything. I know I have feelings for him but I don't know whether I like him or love him. these feelings are new to me so I can't take right decision but debate with myself. Before once I decide that I should leave him when I came to India. Now also I think after return I will leave him.
When I close my eyes, I saw him half naked after bath. In sleep I think about his touches and kisses. At night in the hut, his behavior all his memories from bar to yesterday help. I try to forget it but more I try that more I feel his touches again.
In these two days I tried all the ways to forget it but only to remember all the things. I should blame sister for all this and blame myself that I can't control myself. Why should she have to say this. Now I feel what if I lose him, my brain says something and my heart says another. I lived my life alone and saw many boys in the way but I never feel these butterflies with anyone.
I came to scenes when I hear jen calls.
I wake up and fresh up myself and went to down to see my friends having breakfast. I told sorry for the late. Last two days I neglect alex, whenever he comes near me, I left him saying some reasons.
" what should I do ?" my heart questions brain because once I see him all the thoughts about him comes infront me and plays .
In past two days, first day my friends tour their parents around and next day they left. I was busy with my work because last few days I was busy.
From today again we are planning to have a weekend. This time all children and young people. Nearly we are 20 to 25 members. Children and others are coming in a mini bus, we all also be in bus. We all are going to exhibition. It was after a long time. I want to change bus because I don't want to be with those hateful looks coming from some people. I just want to enjoy this trip whole heartly without any worries. So, I decide what should I do.
Alex pov:
We are changing from mini bus to public bus, we mean you can get our batch. Do you want to know why then hear it?
" we all are going in a bus to some exhibition, on the way ana stopped the bus and said to girls ( jen, fin, Sanj and one cousin of Sanj). " Sanj , I will get by normal bus, you guys carry on I will meet you at venue." She explained. Sanj asked " ana, why should you want to leave us?" girls also questioned her.
She just said " Sanj, I just want to be simple and remember those past memories how we spend on the way. We use to travel around in buses , I just want to remember those memories . " she paused " but having a normal journey is fun when compared to this journey." I did not understand what it means.
" you can come with them" ana pointed to others. You can say what is the difference between to travel with them in mini bus and normal journey. Ana gets down the bus and walks, all are silent for few seconds. Geetha said arrogantly " see that girl, how she behaves? Arrogant and rude. See Sanj it is unfit for her to be here." Some agreed to her and some oppose her. " she like the way she live, don't bother her." then driver start the bus. I saw the girl figure before us is walking to another direction. Driver drove in another direction.
I just don't know my heart don't like it. Yes, my secret heart said to me " follow stupid, what will you do here without her?"
" guys, I will go with her, you guys carry on your plan." I said and get down from the running bus. With out waiting for their answer, I get down. But the bus stopped and I saw others my batch get down.
Sanj said driver to leave. " why you guys get down, I will follow her. you guys enjoy in the bus." I assured them. Zack said " from when our ways has been changed." Nick told " if anyone enjoy all should be together. No one should miss it". I remembered. From our child hood all of us path be same, I forget that because I am focusing on ana. Main reason is I don't want them to be tired; we all lived a luxury life that we never have a journey in public transportation. We ger what we want within a second.
Atlast we all agreed and walk together towards ana direction. She turns towards a small road that no vehicles will be there, we followed her.
When I turn into the way I saw a number of small shops having different crafts in it. While walking towards her I saw she was trying different accessories sold on the way. She bought some things on going, we all are some what far from her. when we reached her, she was surprised see us and questioned why we follow her.
Fin said " all our ways must be same." Jen added " you get out from bus without hearing us , then this stupid gets down from running bus. What should we do sit there and watch that we all are separated?".
After some conversation ana tried to send back but we all decided.
When we all reach the exhibition, you can say we all enjoyed a lot on the way. This must be our first time to spend a time as a common family who would like to walk and buy things for each other. Those are cheap but the way we spend time is remembered for our rest of the life.
We bought things which only cost tens and hundreds but those are rememberable. On the way to exhibition, we even get on the running bus, first zack get in the bus followed by fin, Dav followed by jen then nick and Sanj Atlast me and ana.
Ana was first to get in but she helped others to get in first. Bus was full so we all stood for some time, when there was a sudden break, I miss the balance, ana helped me. she caught me by her hand. On the way we stood beside each other, some times she was pushed to me. to secure her I hold her between my arms that no one can fall on her.
At 11:00 Am we are at the exhibition; we are late by an hour. All the others went inside but one person stood at entrance waiting for us. It was Sanj cousin who talk to ana at that night. She greeted ana " How did you spend time? " Ana was happy and shared the journey details happily, Sanj also explained her.
Cousin said " you guys enjoyed a lot, but in bus it was complete bore. All were immersed in their phones." Now I understand what she meant before. Ana replied " yes sis, I want to be free and enjoy so I get down. With them there will be never a happy moment. They believe in spending money gives happiness but I believe happiness can never be bought by money."
In the exhibition we ride all the rides, it was a beautiful experience that I never forget. The happiness in ana eyes makes the day even more beautiful for me. she really enjoyed every ride; on the way we bought some snacks and have it. We shared our food, drinks one by one. We all have ice-creams, get photos, selfies.
Some children also joined us, some played with others. In complete time ana face was bright like a star. Seeing her smile, I remember the party night. How beautiful she looks on that night as she was the angle for me from heaven. Complete function was happy except last part.
When I found that something was fishy, so I arranged everything before. When I hear what happened to her, I was like a demon to kill any person who come in my way. I tightly fisted my hand to control the argue to kill him. Atlast it was successful and her name was cleared. I want to talk to her on party night but she was chatting with other.
From next day I want to talk to her but she escaped from me. I can feel some thing was different in her in past two days. Sometimes she even blush seeing me, when I look her back, she turns away, she neglects me . I don't know the reason why
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