Episode 11

Punguzhali Pov:

"So, friends?" he showed me his hand for a shake.

I nods at him with a smile. I don't know why, but I just accepted his friendship. Might be because of not having much friends. But one thing is sure, he is good at heart.

"But again let me reiterate to you. I can be a charming person, so don't fall, for me okay?"

"Am not meant to fell in love ever" I reply to him.

"Oh common woman."

"Am all ears" he says to me.

I took a breath.

"Well my story is not a good one or something. It's just a ordinary one with extra sadness that's it."

He didn't said anything.

"From a small kid, I was yearned for my dad's love. Since he always showered his love only on Shivani Whereas me always get a scoldings. Its my mom who always treat us equally. "

"Because I was a bad omen child. When my mom was conceived with me, my dad had a severe accident, from that time every bad things started to happen. Like my dad got expelled from his work. And my grandpa died. Everything happened in line. So my grandma and dad wanted my mom to get aborted. But my mom was very persistent on having me. Finally she had me. "

" But on having me, my grandma died, my dad literally thought am the reason for their every misery. My dad never ever had me in his arms when I was child. When I was 4, my parents had Shivani. The man who never touched me, never even put Shivani down for a little time. He always had her in his arms. He was very fond of her. Even he didn't allowed me to touch her. I grown up in the environment, where everyone will see me as whatever I do will never end in good. "

" Always my dad will  scold me for every small mistakes I do. But in case of my sister, he will never scold her even if she did a bigger mistake. "

" In small age I used to do a lot to get his attention but was never succeed in it. "

"And when I was 10, I had a severe pain in my stomach. So I was asked to undergo the sca  and everything like usual procedures then doctor identified that I had a Appendicitis. So I had gone through the operation. But that was not the shock to us. Its after the operation, that doctors identified that, I don't have a uteus. Upon testing my whole body. They declared that am having a syndrome and they explained everything to my parents. "

" That is the time when my dad started to hate me so much. I was already a bad omen to my family. With that few more characterisation were added. That am the disgrace, am the unfortunate... So on."

"I was very scared. When doctor informed me I didn't even had any idea. All I did seen was my mom cryings. Who was cried for 1 week. If I ask her anything she will say that am fine."

"After 3 years, I asked my mom what is meant by period. That too after my sister attained her puberty. I aksed her that why I didn't had any function like her. Then my mom explained me that I won't get any such. You are different from everyone."

"I still remember how my mom searched for words to tell me in a comforted way. That day I couldn't able to understand fully. But later when I started to grow up I understand that what it means." I wiped my tears.

"I accidently opened up this with one of my best friend only to get betrayed. She informed everything to everyone. Even the school turned to me a hell, until then it will be only the home would be hell. But after that day I was unwanted in bith school, and home."

"Whne I fisnihed my college, and joined in a job. There comes the another hell, marraige." I chucked.

"My dad wanted to marry me off to a widow or divorcee. But my mom was not accepted at first. But after looking out for few proposals my mom understood that this unfortunate woman won't get married if not for a divorcee or widow."

"It went for 8 years. I was hell bound on not getting married. Because I know no sane man will accept me. One I won't be able to coneive without medical help. And another one is I won't be able to satisfy any man needs. Even my mom explained everything about the medical world no one accepted me. There was various reasons, like am not fair, obese, not good looking, no uterus, and no proper reproductive sustem.

As my age increases I understood the life and how I need to sustain.

"Everyone would say that am lucky because I won't have to undergo any pain like period pain, giving birth labour pain everything. But I also wanted to endure these pains. How it will be? I don't know. I also dreamt to have my own child, but no it will not happen."

" There were no function I attended ever. "

" Because of the fear, what others will say. "

" Not attended any marriage, not attended the puberty function, not attended any child related function. Because I was not asked to come. Some prople would tell on my face to not attend few functions whenever they would come to invite my parents. "

"I was called as unfortunate woman in all my life. I was called as not a woman itself at many forum. I was shammed before evryone. According to them am nothing but a woman in outer appearance but insode am nothing to them."

"So the problem which happened on our house is not something new. It was a ordinary one. But for you it might be new."

"That is why I didn't informed your parents that I explained you beforehand about my sundrome. Because even if I say, no parent want his son to have daughter in law like me."

"It's simple. They want something which I can't give them. Upon Knowing they will surely resend me right."

"That's what happened" I stopped and looked at him.

He didn't said anything.

We both kept sitting on silent.

I looked in sideways to see the waves.

I felt light.

"Thanks for hearing me out." I says to him with a smile.

"You are a strong woman" he says.

I nods as no.

"No am not."

"You are Punguzhali"

"People will always try to pull us down, your mom is right. But you really achieved what you wanted to be."

I nods at him.

"But I think you shouldn't argued with your mom, that too for me." I asks him.

He nods as no.

"What I did is right."

"Being a literate person, my parents behaved as illiterate. But your mom even being uneducated, she upbringed you with a lots of confidence."

"Every mom will first put her own flesh in front before looking for other child heart." I said to him.

He sighed.

"There are many woman out there having a fertility problems but that doesn't mean they are not incapable to live the life or experience the life." he says.

"And there is no definition for being a woman Punguzhali. A woman is who we called as the one who has a heart of gold, the one who respect the elders, the one who cares about everyone."

"Everyone definition of woman is different" says

"True I accept, but this society will always try to find the flaws. That's it." he says.

"I think we should be get going" he says to me after sometime.

"Yeah" I says.

After that we reached our home.

He gone to restroom to get freshen up.

And then took a pillow.

"We both can sleep on the same bed right?" I ask him.

He looked at me for sometime.

"You are right" he says and lied down on the bed and hugged the pillow. I looked at his action.

"Sorry, I habituate to sleep by hugging the pillows." he says.

"I know it's weird behaviours." he again added.

I smiled at him.

He faced towards me.

"I was just kidding to you that I support you to stop my third marriage. I did that because am also a human being who has a heart."

"I never knew you are having a heart" "i says to him with a chuckle.

He glared at me.

"Good night Punguzhali" He says after sometime.

"Good Night" I too said before closing my eyes. I felt might after sharing with him.

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