Chapter 42

POV Nikami

"Soooo, Ni-" Raijin tried to speak first, but she got cut off by me.

"Before we speak, let us go somewhere… more private." I glanced at the other students staring at us. We made such a commotion it would be natural for people to gaze upon us.

"Guh! Let least let me finish my sentence." Raijin clicked her tongue and walked to the corner of the courtyard.

I followed up right behind her, my heart starting to raise with each step.

My nervousness was back again.

"Does Nikami just… Turn and off…?" I thought, still following Raijin.

Even though I have lived 16 years of my life with my sudden switch of personality, I still don't know how to control it or know when I will change.

Me and Nikami.

We are different people.

We may have the same identity, but our characters are not.

"Nikami is cold and uncaring. To the point where you can't even tell if she has any type of sympathy anymore. Always Cynical and distrustful of others, she always has the «I do not need anyone. I am perfect.» type of mentality.

Me meanwhile, have some of her personality… But only to a small extent.

I can't deny that I am cold, but uncaring isn't right. I can feel sympathy, but it depends on my mood if I will act or not. I do not trust people easily, but I will rely on people I trust.

I wonder… If the Raijin in front of me, still resembles my knight…?" I thought, stopping as I stared at Raijin leaning on a wall.

Her fierce blue eyes met with my sharp green ones.

My nervousness came back to me again.

Right now, I want to run towards her and hug her, sobbing in her shoulders as I whisper on how much I missed her.

"...." But my body won't move, it won't let me do such a miserable and desperate act.

My pride won't let me.

"Guhh… Seriously, Shu told us to talk, so at least talk alright? Why are you just standing there?" Raijin glared at me, groaning.

"To talk or to not talk is my own decision. You won't command me." I spoke, closing my eyes.

"Guh?! What are you saying? You are only a mere royal consort, you have no power against an actual prince with royal blood. You are only marrying into my family, I can, and will, command you. Don't forget that!" Raijin glared at me once again, still leaning on the wall.

"..." I fell into silence, knowing that she was right. I silently clenched my fists in defeat.

Raijin smirked seeing me like this, she stopped leaning on the wall and approached me.

She stared at me with those fierce eyes, that were similar to a lion's.

I backed up due to her approaching me, and was met with a wall behind my back.

"Tch… She cornered me." I thought as I turned my head at the wall, away from her face.

Irritated that I looked away from her, her right-hand went up in flames and was slammed on the side of my head.

Slightly startled by the sudden slam, I turned my head towards her.

"Look at me when I am talking to you!" Raijin spat. Her left hand now going on the other side of my head, filling my vision with nothing other than her face.

"..." I was silent as I observed her actions.

"Still no words?" Raijin sighed, staring at my face.

Now that Raijin is closer to my face than ever, I started to admire her complexion.

Her violent blue eyes, her reddish lips, from afar you would think she would be a guy.

But if you closely look at her physique, her waist is smaller, and her face isn't as sharp as a man as well.

She is a girl.

I noticed that she was inches away from my own face so my face flushed pink slightly, then I looked away from her face.

"Cornering me, that's very unfair." I sighed, complaining to Raijin.

"Gu-guh-" Raijin stepped back and put her hands in her pockets, her face fully red.

"That expression is unfair!" Raijin yelled, pointing at me. Her face was still entirely red.

"..." I slightly giggled, then immediately stopped right after.

"Nika… You…" Raijin stared at me, her face having a frown.

"I what?" I asked, leaning on the wall staring back at her.

"... You… Don't hate me… Right?" Raijin felt like crying, but the flame and intensity in those blue eyes never got put out.

She asked the question that both of us were begging to have an answer.

Does she hate me?

"Of course I don't." I shook my head, folding my arms.

"Ah! Then-" Raijin's face lit up, grinning idiotically. Before she even finished her sentence she got cut off by me.

"I just think you're irritating," I added.

"I-" She looks at me, surprised and disappointed.

"Come on Nika! We were having a moment!" Raijin yelled at me again, sighing. She was furious about the fact that I ruined our so-called moment.

"I'm kidding." I scoffed, walking towards Raijin and wrapped my arms around her.

"H-hey?! What the fuck?!" Raijin yelled, startled at my sudden hug. She gritted her teeth as her face turned red.

"Don't curse Rai. You're supposed to be a prince, have some elegance." I sighed, stepped back as I stopped hugging her.

"Do you hate hugging me THAT much?" I glared at her, clearly furious.

"N-No! Liste-listen, My body- my mouth- just… I can't explain it. But you know!" Raijin quickly apologized, bowing down slightly.

"The in-game Raijin took over you, correct?" I sighed, nodding.

"Yea…" Raijin nodded, looking away, and scratched the back of her head.

"I understand…" I closed my eyes, adjusting my gloves.

"But just to make sure… You are still… My knight, right? You are still my best friend… ri-right?" I looked up at her, opening my eyes. My voice was shaky, before I even knew it, I was trembling.

My usually blank face changed drastically, my eyes started to water, desperate for the answer of yes.

"Didn't I tell you that I'll always protect you?" Raijin smiled, hugging me.

"This world may have already changed us, but as long as we still love each other deep inside… I promise, we won't despise each other." She patted my back, wrapping her arms around me.

"Warm…" I thought, slowly hugged her back.

"Raijin." I spoke, now my voice back to normal.

"Yea?"

"Thank you." I thanked her, smiling slightly.

"Yea, no problem… Princess." She grins, letting go of the hug.

"... I haven't heard that nickname… For so long." I thought, smiling at her.

"S-so… What now?" She looks around, not knowing what to do.

"I have a question… What will we do if the protagonist chooses one of us? Sure, we may match-make her and Shukona… But what if, after all, we did, she will still choose one of us?" I asked Raijin a tough question.

There is no doubt that both of us will feel romantic attraction towards the protagonist at one point, and if she does choose one of us…

What will we do?