song for this chapter : Down bad by Taylor Swift
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At this point
I see myself as the stupid girl
The girl who is about to get really hurt
Please, do not shut me down
I do not want to lose you
Because all I ever wanted was this
Being close to you
I do not know how you actually see me
And I would ask you but I think you are tired of knowing how much I like you
The fun but no fun part about all of this is that
I knew it was you
From the moment you said hello and smiled to me on that sunny day
I knew you would be the next victim of my thoughts, of my feelings
I swear I try to be softer
calmer
I try to be less intense
But what can I do ? That is not who I am.