Song for this chapter : Us by Gracie Abrams and Taylor Swift
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Keeping it quiet
Keeping it low profile so that nobody sees us
Wanting to smile at you in class but I know I cannot
Forcing myself to be invisible to your eyes when all I want to do is lighten you up
You stare at me
Then you stop
I stare at you
Then I stop
We never get to meet in an eye contact
Because I do not let it happen
And you do not let it flow
When the bell rings I cannot run to your arms
When we finally get out of everyone's sight
It is like we have been away for years
Pretending we do not exist is exhausting
But it seems too easy for you
Maybe you are just a good actor
I recognize I do not know how to hide
The urge I have to kiss you
And I recognize that the fear of telling you I want it public is bigger than any monster I could ever face
So I will keep quiet
I will hold you in my silence
I will hold you
I will do whatever it takes