Iâm an asshole to use seduction to distract Lucy, but I need her to back off. Not that I hadnât hoped weâd end up in bed again. The strip of condoms in my pocket is proof of that.
What I hadnât expected was for her research to poleaxe me. Sheâs observant enough to know it hit me, but I canât afford to give her the truth. Even now, trying to kiss away reality, the papers scattered across Lucyâs table mock me. Names of the dead. My parents. Our staff. Ashâs girl. All reduced to black ink on white paper. And detective Marshall, who once was loyal to my father, fills me with a murderous rage.
âFlynn.â She finally pulls away. âWeâre here to work.â She turns back to her papers. âThe Ifrinns were just as corrupt as the Keans, werenât they? Makes you wonder if maybe the Keans were justified inâ ââ
âStop.â The word comes out harsher than intended. I canât bear to have her lump my family, me, with the Keans. âYou donât know what youâre talking about.â
âBut the records showâ ââ
âRecords donât tell the whole story. The Ifrinns werenât saints, but they looked after their people.â
Lucyâs blue eyes narrow, and I realize Iâm saying too much. âHow would you know? Youâre investigating the Keans.â
âIâm surprised you donât see this. Youâre a writer who sorts through peopleâs lives, narrowing them down to caricatures. These were people. Real people with families who loved them.â
âWho also broke the law,â Lucy counters. âJust like the Keans do now.â
My jaw clenches. Sheâs right, but hearing her compare my family to those murderers makes my blood boil.
She tilts her head. âDid you know them, the Ifrinns?â
I need to change the subject before I say something Iâll regret. âI donât have to know them to know how they died was a heinous way to go. To know that despite what the press says, there were people who cared for them.â
I can still smell the smoke and hear the screams. My brothers and I had snuck down to the basement to play video games and smoke a little weed while everyone slept. We razzed Ash about his girlfriend sleeping in his bed and what our parents would do if they found out. Thatâs when he told us he planned to marry her.
And then all hell broke loose. We got out of the house, only to see it light up like a fucking torch. We headed back in to save our family, but we didnât make it far. I felt like my skin was melting, it was so hot. Blaise and I had to hold onto Ash to keep him from running into the blaze to save his girl. Phoenix knew the fire couldnât be an accident, and he took charge, getting us out and hidden. We stayed hidden for ten years, planning, plotting for our return and our vengeance.
Lucy studies me, and I hope to hell she canât see the truth in my eyes. Finally, she says, âWell, if you can find out who was in the house and survived, maybe you can learn more about what happened.â
If she only knew she was sitting across from one of those survivors right now. But I canât tell her. Not yet. Not when she sees the Ifrinns as just another crime family who got what was coming to them.
Plus, I donât know anything. I survived but donât know who betrayed my father. For months Iâve been hanging around Keanâs crew, getting my face bloodied in their fights, drinking their whiskey, listening to their bullshit. And what do I have to show for it? Not much.
Except for Marshall. Was he in on the betrayal, or did he just switch sides when he saw my family was out? Why the fuck doesnât Phoenix, Ash, or Blaise know about any of this? Itâs my job to mingle around the Keansâ men, but they have their own assignments. Why donât they know more? If more people survived, where did they go? Did the Keans hunt them down one by one? Or did they scatter to the wind, too afraid to ever look back? Were any involved in the betrayal?
Lucyâs voice breaks through my thoughts. âRight after the fire, three of Hampton Keanâs other rivals also disappeared.â
âIfrinns werenât rivals. The Keans and the Ifrinns were friends at one time.â
She nods. âI wonder why Hampton turned on them? The Ifrinn and rival territories were absorbed into Kean holdings within weeks.â
I grunt in acknowledgment. The Keans moved fast, striking while Bostonâs underworld was still reeling from the Ifrinn massacre.
âMaybe we should take a break.â God knows I need one.
âThereâs something bigger here. These cover-ups, the missing evidenceâ¦â Her eyes narrow at me. âWhy arenât you more concerned about corrupt officers? Shouldnât that bother you as a cop?â
Every time she calls me officer, it gets harder to maintain the charade. I want to tell her everything. Who I really am, why Iâm here.
âLucy.â I grasp her shoulders, needing her to understand without revealing too much. âSome of these people youâre looking into, theyâre dangerous. More dangerous than street thugs or fighters. They can make problems vanish without throwing a single punch.â
She studies my face, doubt creeping back into her expression. She doesnât believe me. âYouâre hiding something from me.â
âIâm trying to protect you.â Itâs the most honest thing I can say to her right now.
âBy lying to me?â
The accusation stings because sheâs right. Iâve never felt this conflicted about deception before. Usually, lies roll off my tongue easily. Theyâre necessary tools in my world. But with Lucy, each one feels like a betrayal.
I cup her face, torn between pushing her away for her safety and pulling her closer because I canât stand the thought of letting her go. âThere are some things youâre better off not knowing. Please trust me on this.â
âYouâre being weird about this,â she says, crossing her arms. âIf youâre really a cop, why canât you just tell me what, specifically, youâre investigating? Is it the Keans? Police corruption?â
I move closer, hoping to distract her with proximity like I have before.
But Lucy backs away. âDonât. Donât try to charm your way out of answering my questions this time.â
The distance between us feels like miles. My hands itch to pull her close, to kiss away that suspicious furrow between her brows. To make the world melt away by losing myself in her body.
But for the first time since I met her, my usual tactics arenât working. Iâve underestimated her determination to uncover the truth. And now Iâm watching my carefully constructed façade start to crack under her scrutiny.
Before Lucy can retreat further, I cage her against the table. âYou want answers?â My voice comes out rough, desperate. âFine. But firstâ¦â
I crush my mouth to hers, swallowing her startled gasp. I pour everything into the kiss, my fear of discovery, my growing feelings for her, the burning need to keep her safe from the Keans and the truth.
Her lips part on a soft moan, and I take full advantage, deepening the kiss until weâre both breathless. My hands slide down her sides to grip her hips, pulling her flush against me. The heat of her body through thin layers of clothing makes my head spin.
âFlynn,â she pants when I break away to trail kisses down her neck. âThis doesnât⦠oh⦠this doesnât answer my questions.â
âNo more questions.â I nip at her pulse point, feeling it race under my tongue. âJust feel.â
I slide one hand under her shirt, tracing the soft skin of her stomach. She arches into my touch with a whimper that shoots straight to my groin. I lift her on the table. The papers about my familyâs massacre scatter to the floor.
Itâs selfish and wrong to distract her this way. But with her body melting against mine and her fingers tangling in my hair, I canât bring myself to stop. Not when this temporary escape feels so damn good for both of us.
I brush my lips along Lucyâs jaw, shifting into a lighter mood to ease the tension. âYou know, I had plans when I came here tonight.â
âPlans?â Her breath hitches as I grind my dick against her heat.
Reaching into my pocket, I pull out the strip of condoms. âI came prepared this time.â
A blush spreads across her cheeks. Itâs so fucking beautiful.
âPretty confident, werenât you?â
âJust hopeful.â I press closer. âCanât blame a guy for being optimistic.â
She laughs, the sound turning into a soft gasp as I find that sensitive spot behind her ear. Her fingers curl into my shirt, pulling me closer.
âWhat happened to discussing the case?â she murmurs, but her actions contradict her words as she tilts her head to give me better access to her delectable neck.
âLater.â I capture her lips again, and she responds instantly, matching my intensity. The chemistry between us crackles, making it impossible to think about anything else.
Her hands slide under my shirt, tracing the muscles of my back. Every touch sets my skin on fire.
âLucy,â I breathe against her lips. I push her shirt up, revealing smooth skin that I need to taste. She shivers as I kiss my way across her stomach. My dick feels like itâs burning a hole through my jeans, but Iâm not ready to move this to the bedroom yet. Right here, right now, I need her.
I get her jeans and panties off, then put her back on the table, pushing her legs open so I can get a view of her sweet pussy. It glistens, and I lick my lips, eager to taste her. I lower to my knees and lap my tongue through her folds.
âOh!â Her fingers clutch my head as I eat out her delicious pussy. It isnât long before she cries out and her essence coats my tongue.
I rise, kissing her hard. Her hands fumble with my belt. When her fingers brush against me through my boxers, I almost lose it. Everything else falls away. The investigation, my secrets, the weight of revenge. Thereâs only Lucy, warm and willing.
The table creaks ominously as I press closer, but I couldnât stop now if the damn thing collapsed beneath us. I remember the condoms, sheathing my dick. When I sink into her, she cries out, her whole body shuddering. I want be here, with her wrapped around me, forever.