They were all in the car but I didn't want to talk to Xavier.
Not after that.
I know I'm taking my anger out on him but I didn't know what else to do.
Knowing this will end bad I walked the opposite way, walking on the pathway to somewhere. I didn't know where I was going but I needed to be somewhere else. Away from them.
A car started driving next to me at the same pace as me.
I didn't bother looking, I already know who it is.
"Get in the car Avery" Xavier warned me.
I glanced at him not giving him another minute of my time.
"I don't want to be anywhere near you right now" I told him truthfully, meaning every single word.
He seemed conflicted by this. "Fine, I'll take you somewhere and then I'll drop off the face of the earth, just get in and I'll take you back home"
I felt broken.
As far as I know there is no place for me.
"I don't have a home!" I yelled back.
My home is currently filled with two dead people.
He didn't know what to say to that because he knew that was the truth. "Just get in the car" he replied.
"Are we really gonna do this?" I heard Richard ask in the back of the car.
I wanted Xavier to leave. I needed him to leave because I didn't want him to see me truly break.
I stopped walking facing Xavier who stopped the car.
"What Damien said back there, was he right. Were you going to kill him?" I asked in a vulnerable voice.
He hesitated telling me but I needed to know the truth. I deserved the truth.
He stared straight back into my eyes "Yes"
He didn't regret thinking that either.
I shook my head disappointing at him "He was your brother" I said in an pain stricken tone.
I know they weren't brothers but even they admitted that they were. Not through blood but through their friendship.
"He was not my brother. He betrayed us. And what I said back there, he deserved it all and I don't regret thinking or saying that" He stated in a harsh tone.
I flinched from his harsh tone.
"He didn't deserve that. He was dying!" I tried reasoning yet from the look on his face I know he isn't listening.
"He killed your mother and your still trying to find the good in him" Xavier tried figuring me out.
A different kind of rage exploded out from me. "That's what I do Xavier. I look for the good in people and sue me for doing that" I yelled out angrily.
What he said next shocked me.
To the point that I didn't even want to look at him anymore.
If he's trying to break me it's working because with every word Xavier is saying, I'm being brought closer to the edge.
"Your mother would be so disappointed in you for defending him" He replied in a cruel tone.
How dare he say that.
I nodded laughing bitterly . "Using my own dead mother against me"
I ran my hand through my hair trying to get a hold of any stable emotion in me because I felt like I was dying. Not physically but emotionally.
"I never want to see you ever again Xavier" I paused "You see this" I pointed towards my face. My face held a range of emotions. Mainly pain and the numbness of feeling absolutely broken. I felt numb to the point that it felt dangerous. I've never felt this far gone and I don't know if anything or anyone can bring me back. "I want you to know you caused this. When you wake up every morning I want you to remember this because I am your collateral damage. I am this way because you let me slip this far into the darkness. You truly lost me Xavier" I felt tears roll down my face
I wanted him to take in every inch of my face and with it, every emotion I was feeling because I didn't want him to forget it.
He took in every inch of my face and although I couldn't read the expression on his face I know he felt guilty. And that's what I wanted.
I walked the direction back to my house and I heard Xavier drive off.
I let the tears roll down my face as I stopped walking and held my hands in my head attempting to stop the pain.
I need it to stop.
I didn't want to feel this anymore.
I suddenly realised the one person I had completely forgotten about.
Josh.
He doesn't know anything. He's completely oblivious to everything that's happened. For all I know he could be happily travelling and has no idea what he's missed out on.
I want to keep him in the dark because I don't want him to feel anything remotely to what I'm feeling.
Yet I also know that he needs to know. He deserved to know.
I pressed onto his contact and started ringing him.
"Hello?" He answered in a bright and chirpy voice.
He sounded so happy. The complete opposite to what I'm feeling right now.
Tears started to roll down my face as I held a hand against my mouth to not let out any sounds.
"Avery?" He asked with a worried tone.
He needed to know. He deserved to know.
"Josh" I choked out.
Hi voice held concern. "Avery what's wrong?"
I tried to stop crying yet it was overwhelming. I needed to get it together. "E-everything is wrong... Everyone's dead"
"Whose dead?"
I took a deep breath. "Dad and mum"
There was silence on the other end.
"What do you mean? Avery put mum on the phone" He said in a worried tone.
I sobbed. "She's not here Josh, she's gone. I'm sorry I can't do this" I hung up the phone and put my head in my hands.
My whole life was a mess. I had nowhere to go.
I took a deep breath and wiped away my tears. I needed to get my shit together and find a solution. Otherwise I'll be sleeping in the outback.
I picked up my phone and scrolled through my contacts the only viable one being Chantelle.
I needed to get my belongings from his house and Chantelle was the only one that could get it for me. And then I could think of something from there.
I rang her and she instantly picked up.
"What?"
Her voice somehow sounded different.
My voice was shaking. "Um Chantelle. I need you to get something from me"
There was a sudden beep as I realised she had hung up on me. I tried ringing her again but nothing came.
From anger I threw the phone on the ground. "Stupid fuckin phone"
It smashed. "Shit" I spoke when I realised what I did.
I picked it up but it was useless. The whole think was smashed.
I started my walk back to my house yet I became worried when I realised a car had been following closely behind me for the past minute.
I stared at the car and gave them an angry wave. "The speed limit is 70km, not 10!" I yelled out however the car door opened instead and out came three people wearing suits and holding guns. A women came out the other side.
This meant trouble.
Her heels clicked on the ground. I tried recognising her face. But she had sunglasses on.
She took her sunglasses off and smiled.
My eyes widened in shock. "Chantelle?"
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Hello guys. Thanks for waiting patiently I really appreciate that.
Hint for the next chapter:
Chantelle no longer on her brothers side.
What does that mean? You'll find out next chapter. I love cliffhangers ;)
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~Ashley