Chapter 33: 31

Chapter Thirty One

"I'm calling you one. Prove me wrong

× SAHIL ×

"I-I knocked three-four times but there was no response and the door was open so- you're doing this again?"

"Ananya-" I told and she replied within seconds.

"Yes" she replied, smoking that damn harmful thing. I clenched my fist at that response.

It angers me so much but I know that is not the way to handle the situation. I have to handle this smartly and calmly.

I intentionally faked a cough when the smoke came out of the cigarette to get her reaction. But she just kept looking outside. The wind was blowing and her hairs were directly landing on her face. Without the cigarette, everything was beautiful.

I coughed more loudly this time while keeping a hand on my mouth as if I'm going to die.

Things I have to do for her.

"You should probably go. You are not used to this smoke" She gave her advice which I chose to ignore.

"No, no, it's okay. I'll have to handle this for my girlf- fake girlfriend, I guess."

On the scale of one to ten how much high was on that smoke to make that mistake?

Eleven, I guess.

"Alright, your choice"

Rude. Very rude.

After a few seconds, She looked at me when I genuinely coughed (and also faked some) and then asked, "Should I throw this?"

"Nope, you shouldn't, you should enjoy your 'one step closer to death' session. What worse can even happen? I can get sick, or worse, I can die. And you won't be able to experience the fake dating thing, because I would be on death bed, convincing Ma that we are not a thing. Nothing worse. I think I can handle that, continue" I said and smiled a little making a sympathetic face.

"Rip in advance, Sahil. Rip" I  muttered under my breath loud enough for her to hear it, and shook my head. She eyed me with the corner of her eyes with a suspicious look.

"Ananya, don't throw it, don't. It's not a big deal. I can get used to it for you" I said when she removed it from her lips for a second.

"Uh, I wasn't going to" she said and I closed my eyes and coughed again. "Maybe, I think I should"

She discarded the cigarette in the Dustin kept beside her.

Good work, soldier!

"Why did you threw it?! It was so costly! It costed your death!" I exclaimed with a big smile on my face and hid it instantly after seeing her serious face. Holding my ears with my hands lightly I muttered a 'sorry'.

"Why are you doing this drama today?" She asked me with her hands folded below her chest.

"Because I gave myself a challenge of acting like Ananya today, as you are so Grumpy today." I said and a small pout formed on my lips.

"Okay"

"Banda baat karni ki etni koshish kar raha hai apko conversation khatam kyu karna hai, mohtarma?"

[I am trying so hard to talk to you and you are ending the conversation, why?]

"Please get serious, Sahil. Mujhe baat karni hai kisise"  She told me in a very soft tone and her eyes left a tear which she was quick enough to wipe and I was quick enough to notice.

[I want to talk to someone]

"Bol, bol, bol. I'm serious now."  I told in a serious tone. She gulped nervously while I waited for her to speak. She didn't utter a single word for the next five minutes.

[Yes, yes, yes]

By her expressions, it was clear to understand that she wanted to speak so much but didn't know how to frame, or start. I observed that she kept fidgeting with her ring, lost in hef thoughts.

"Ananya" I said and she turned her head to look at me and nodded indicating me to speak further. "Let it out, I'm not going to judge you. Not today, not anyday. Never."

She took a deep breath and let it out before she spoke. "You are right, Smoking is wrong, I know how dangerous it is, but I can't stop. Whenever something is stuck in my brain, or I feel bad, low, overwhelmed, it gets out this way. I started this habit long ago, now it doesn't seem to stop"

"Whenever something is stuck inside your head, tell it out to someone-" I started but she replied to this sentence while looking directly into my eyes.

"I started this when I had no one to talk to. My parents weren't in contact with me, my brother was not in the country, I had no friends in the new city. So when I wanted to talk to someone, no one was there. This damn thing helped me that time." I licked my dry lips at her response which was out due to frustration. The only thing I wanted to do right now was give her a tight hug to make her feel good.

"I can't say about anyone else but you have me, everytime, anytime. I believe we have reached that level of comfort where you can rant out to me. And if you don't feel comfortable in doing that, then pen it down, or...anything. This, what you're doing is the worst method." I tried my best to keep my voice at a low decibel and explain her in the softest tone present in my system.

"It's not that easy! Do you think I've not tried? So many times, but I end up here again, maybe as a payback to the times it was with me, when no one was."

"Tell me when did you start this" I asked her and she thought for a moment.

"Four years ago." She replied.

"Give me one reason of how and why did you start it. Think properly but don't cover up, just the truth" She waited and thought for some good five minutes making some cute faces.

On to the point Sahil, Don't get distracted!

"Honestly, it's a very silly reason. And you might think of me as a stupid after hearing it-"

"Let me hear it and decide"

"My father, he was into all this stuff, smoking, vape, drinking and everything. I used to hate it so much at that time. I was smart enough to understand how bad it was, but then one day, I heard him talking with his friends while smoking, and I remember the exact words of his 'ye karna auraton ka kaam nahi hai, ye sirf mardo ko sobha deta hai. Koi aurat dukan par se kharid ke toh dikhaye, tabh manu main. Zindagi ke sath khelne mei himmat chahiye, jo auraton ke pass nahi' " She said it copying a proper Rajasthani accent.

[Smoking isn't women's thing, it suits only on men. I'll consider when a woman buys a pack of cigarette from the shop. It takes courage to put your life on stake, which is not present in woman]

When did a bad habit start having a gender?

And what sexist thinking is this? If woman aren't courageous then no one could be born, no one could be alive.

If this is the environment she was raised in then I'm so proud of her looking at where she is now. Because she is damn powerful. And successful. And courageous.

I wish to say that on her father's face if I ever get to meet him.

"And that was it. It was enough to trigger something in me. A woman can't do it? Hold my beer.  I went to the shop and bought it that day itself, but never used it. I knew my limits and my age. I was thirteen but I was smart enough to understand that a woman can smoke but a child can't. And then four years ago, the day I ran away and we met the first time, that was the day I first smoked. It was bad but the rebel inside me felt satisfied. So satisfied." She said and her lips formed into a thin line.

"But kid inside you which hated smoking wouldn't be so proud." I told her and she nodded in agreement.

"I know that. But you know, I've always been the kind of rebel kid, I've always heard that from my whole family. You should just say once that I can't do something or a woman can't do something and I'll do the same. I shouldn't do something then I won't. But you question me or underestimate me and I set the world on fire just to prove you wrong. Not justified, I agree but this is how it is"

"Why do you care about what someone says?" I asked her.

"I don't, Sahil. I don't give a fuck. Before I used to get stressed out about what someone says, now I just listen it from one ear and remove it from the other. There is this urge inside me to prove them wrong, to rebel them, to do what they think I can't." I just left a sigh while looking at the leaves dancing whenever wind is blown.

If she's like this, then we have to deal with her in a different way.

"Okay then, I don't think you'll ever be able to stop smoking by this attitude. We can't help that" I said and shrugged with a serious face.

"I, I can see what you're trying to do there" I could feel that she was looking at me, so I turned to her side and took a step closer to her. She played with the hem of her short light green kurti, but stood there in the same place.

"What am I trying to do?" I took another step near her and she chose to turn, with her back facing the railing of the balcony. I was quick enough to follow her step and keep my both hands on her either side, caging her.

"You, you are-" she said and her eyes blinked rapidly while I maintained the eye contact.

"I am? I'm just saying that you, Ananya Rajput, you won't be able to stop smoking because you started it just to prove someone wrong. Now everytime you smoke the devil inside you gets happy while the angel doesn't like it" Her eyes widened at this and she gasped.

"How do you know?" I raised my brow.

"What?"

"Nothing"

I went closer to her, with only some inches left between our body. She had to tilt her head a bit upwards, in order to look at my face, because of this closeness. A soft wind blew and strands of her hair were now on her face. It looked like she freezed because she did nothing to remove them, so I tucked them softly behind her ears with my fingers.

"So, I don't know what you could see but you won't be able to stop this habit everytime you feel an emotion deeply. I challenge you, Ananya. Challenge." Her upper body went backwards when mine went towards her. She unknowingly kept a on my chest and her breath was uneven.

Damn, I'm loving my effect on her.

"I-It doesn't work like that, S-Sahil. You're telling this because I told you-" I cut her of mid sentence.

"No, no, I'm not just telling this to you. I'm telling this to all addicts in general. No addict can stop after starting once. And you're one of them"

"I'm not an addict"

"I'm calling you one. Prove me wrong" I smirked and she flickered her long eyelashes.  Her brown orbs looked magnificent when shining under the little amount of sunlight falling on them.

"I will" she said.

"Let's see. I'll be the happiest if you succeed"  We kept looking into eachother's eyes, without blinking, without moving. After a few seconds, she said applying force to hand kept on my chest.

"Okay, now let's go" Though it was a light push but I shifted a little.

"No" Quickly, going back into my position and caging her again, I muttered. She raised both of her eyebrows.

"Not until you let me call you chamatkar" My grip on the railing got strong, just in case if she tried to push me.

I have to be prepared, I can't trust this woman caged between me and the railing.

"Never." She said and tried pushing me like I said. And my tight grip didn't let me move, like I thought.

"You have to, or I'm not moving a step from here" I said and went more closer. She proving her dumbness tried going back when she was already at the end and that led her to lose her balance. My right hand caught hold of her waist in order to save her.

"What is this blackmailing?" She asked and I shrugged.

"Tell me that I can call you chamatkar" She wriggled under my hold trying to escape.

"No" I went closer leaving only a few centimetres gap between us.

"Please" I whispered in her ear after blowing some wind. She shivered for a second and her breath hitched. Her cheeks turned red within some seconds and I smiled.

This effect>

"N-Not in front of anyone" she stated and I nodded.

"Agreed"

"Okay" I smiled widely.

"Leave me now" she said.

"First, repeat after me" I said and she made a face. "I, chamatkar-Ananya, am officially giving Sahil"

"I, Ananya, am officially giving Sahil"

"The permission to call her by his favourite word, Chamatkar"

"The permission to call her by her most hated word, Chamatkar" she scrunched her nose.

Cutie.

"And she gives guarantee that Sahil would be alive and healthy"

"I can't give that guarantee!"

"Then I'm not leaving you" I shrugged again.

"Yeh kya zabardasti hai?" She asked.

[What is this blackmailing?]

"Jo bhi hai, yehi hai!"

[Whatever it is, this is it!]

"And she gives guarantee that Sahil would be alive and healthy" she scoffed.

"Good" I left her waist and took a step back.

"Seduce karke baat manva raha hai, Dusht insan" she muttered.

[He's seducing me so that I let him do that, evil human]

"Aur aap ho bhi gayi humse seduce? Abhi toh kuch kiya bhi nahi tha ess dusht ne." I teased and followed her as she went inside the room.

[And you got seduced? I did nothing till now]

"Jao tum" she said.

[You go]

"Kuch bhi kaho, jalwa toh mera nazar aagaya aaj"

[Say anything, my hotness was proved today]

"Bahar nikalo, aaye bade, jalwa wale" her cheeks were still red and she tried her best to hide her smile while throwing the cushion at me.  I catched it.

[Get out]

"Arey, kudi sharma gayi" I grinned and got hit by another cushion.

[Someone got shy]

"Kuch bhi"

[Anything]

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This chapter felt so cute while writing.😭😭

What are your thoughts?

Qt Sahil got some good brains.

Qt Ananya got some power to blush.

Nvm. I'm going crazy.

Do vote on the chapter if you liked it, the views are of some good amount but the votes and comments are a bit disappointing. I personally dislike giving the vote goals and everything so I keep updating whenever I'm free but then lack of response makes me think otherwise :(

Not forcing neither blackmailing someone, I'll still write even if no one votes but I feel happy seeing response nothing else 💗

Chalo dukh side mei rakhte hue, bye-bye qts🤝🏻