drink me

i knew i cared when i started asking you if you'd eaten or drank anything today

and i knew i cared when it physically pained me to see you in pain too

i know i cared

but i know maybe you felt like nobody did

but then i still cared when you left

when my head became empty and cold from the missing warmth your smile radiated

when my lips no longer tasted like your chapstick but instead like vodka

and i just missed you