exhale

i want to yell at someone right about now

and not in the way where i accuse someone of something out of rage

but instead in the way where i let everything go

to shout and be heard until my voice cracks and quivers from the emotions i'm exposing

to make someone actually listen

and i want to scream too

not in a high pitched "bloody-mary" exclamation

but instead in a low guttural expression of my internal pain and suffering

i want my throat to be hoarse because of everything i'm saying and the power in the words

even the power in the wordless screams

i want to let it go and i want it to be heard

i want to say anything i can and as loud as i can because i've been quiet for too long

i want to make it known even if i'll regret it a week after

i want to i want to i want to