GINGER POV
It's been a month already since Alessa confessed to me. I admit I was overwhelmed and happy when she told me that she loves me but I'm afraid because I've never been in love before and on top of that, to a girl.
I'm happy when I'm with her, in fact I always want to be with her but what's confusing is that I never had a best friend before so I don't know if what I feel for her is platonic or romantic.
I'm so shocked when she first kissed me in her car because it's my first kiss. I'm not actually surprised when she kissed me again the next morning because I already briefed myself about it, but that's the last time because it didn't happen again.
We were back on our usual relationship after we reconciled that night. It's different in a way now that I know her feelings towards me, especially whenever she kissed me on my cheeks, hold my hand and hug me.
I'm preparing my coffee in the table when my mom sat in front of me.
"What exactly happened that night? I thought you two reconciled already?" she asked after taking a sip of her coffee.
"Mom, we're okay already" I replied smiling.
"Then why do you always look out of place? It's like you've been thinking hard these past few days" I sighed before I decided to tell her what really happened.
"Alessa confessed to me that night because she got jealous of Harry" I explained while playing with the spoon in my mug.
I saw a bit of shock flashed on her face before she smiled in understanding.
"Then why is she sad that night? You rejected her do you?" What she said caught me off guard.
"Poor Alessa" she added while shaking her head.
"It's not a total rejection, I just never thought of her as that, you know fall for a girl. I know she loves me because she always say that but I never thought it was in a romantic way. She's beautiful mom or if I ever felt the same way she's out of my league" I sighed making my point.
"I've never been in love and never had a best friend before that's why I don't know what's the difference" I added.
"Did you two kissed already?" she asked looking while at me intently. I blushed remembering the scene where she kissed me in her car, her lips are so soft and tastes like mint.
"Mom! Why are you asking me that?!" It's so embarrassing and awkward to talk to your mom about kissing someone.
"Just answer my question because I'm helping you to know the difference!" I hesitated at first but I finally decided to tell her.
"She...she kissed me in her car that night before she confessed, and the next morning"
"What do you feel then?" She looked so interested.
"It's electrifying, if that's the right word and I...it's quite good" I answered honestly while avoiding her gaze.
Gosh this is so embarrassing.
"I think you like her romantically" she exclaimed while clapping her hands. My eyes widen in disbelief by her reaction.
"Mom it's my first time to be kissed so it's natural for me that I felt that way" I argued because I'm still not convinced by her opinion.
There's something in me that wants to believe her but I want to be sure with my feelings, I need more time to figure it out.
"Okay, so let's wait and see if you feel the same rage like Alessa did when she got jealous over a boy. I think that's a good sign that you love her romantically" She suggested. I nodded in agreement because she has a point there. I've never been jealous to anyone that she's been with.
"You have a point there mom, but I need to go now because I don't want to be late for school" I said before kissing her cheeks and went straight to my school.
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The lessons as usual are boring and easy, I don't know why but even if I don't listen hard I still manage to pass my quizzes and examinations with a good grade. I am aiming for the valedictorian position so that I can apply for a scholarship in college.
After school I headed to the shop to start my afternoon shift. Harry is staying for the afternoon shift to help because Marcus is still on leave. He extended his vacation for two months instead of one month and I'm happy about that, but I make sure to avoid him as much as possible when Alessa is around.
I don't want her getting jealous though I admit I'm attracted to Harry, he's kind and helpful. He's like the male version of Alessa and I can't deny that he's also handsome. Even our female customers wants his attention and they even go to the extent of asking for his number.
I'm busy counting the money in the counter when someone covered my eyes. I smiled because I know the scent of Harry's cologne.
"Harry I can smell your cologne" That's when he removed his hands on my eyes and whistled.
"Next time I won't wear any cologne" he said smiling, exposing his perfect white teeth.
So handsome I said to mentally.
I can talk freely to him for now because Alessa isn't around yet. My shift starts at one in the afternoon and the usual time she arrive is at five. Today is quite busy because there are lots of customers and we're understaffed.
"Ginger, can you get the stock of coffee in the storage room? I have lots of orders" Regina said while tending the customers order.
"Yeah sure" I headed quickly to the storage room and looked for the coffee.
After a minute of searching I found it on the higher layer of the angular rack. I climbed on the ladder and was about to reach it when I heard Harry calling me.
I flinched in shock and it made me lose my balance and fell on top of him. His eyes are mesmerizing and I can't remove my gaze on it. We're in that position for a couple of seconds when suddenly I felt his lips on mine.
Unlike Alessa, his lips are a bit harder but he's definitely a good kisser, his tongue entered my mouth and it felt really good. I closed my eyes in pleasure, I moaned when he started caressing my back and my tongue started to move as well.
"Ginger where's the coffee!?" we both moved away when we heard Regina's voice.
Oh crap what am I doing! I stood up immediately. We stared at each other feeling awkward but laughed afterwards.
I told him to reach for the coffee and give it to Regina. I ran to the bathroom afterwards to wash my face. I looked at the mirror and touched my lips. I leaned to the wall and released a heavy sigh when I remember Alessa. I don't know why I feel like I cheated on her though it's clear that we're just best friends.
I shook my head to erase the thought and went back to the counter. Harry is busy fixing the stack of coffee beans, he smiled when he saw me approaching as if nothing happened, so I did the same.
Time went by fast that I didn't notice that Alessa already arrived. I'm busy taking orders from
the customers and while chatting with Harry once in a while.
"When are you going to get your Alessa's order?" Regina asked. I completely forgot the inventory of cake when I heard Alessa's name.
Fudge! what time is it? I asked mentally before glancing at my watch, it's already five thirty.
"I didn't notice her! What time did she arrive?" I inquired nervously.
"Five ten" she replied flatly before heading to the counter to tend the customers.
She's been waiting for her order for twenty minutes already, it's automatic for me to give her usual order as soon as she arrives. I'm sure she's already hungry now and I'm sure that she also saw me talking to Harry.
I'm dead.
I was about to go to her table when a beautiful girl sat in front of her, and smiled flirtatiously. I frowned while watching from afar. The girl reached for her hand and played with it.
I can't stand what I'm seeing so I walked to their table and gave Alessa her usual order, I coughed to get their attention. She smiled at me which is weird because I'm sure right now that she's supposed to be mad at me for talking to Harry and ignoring her for twenty minutes.
The girl looked more gorgeous when face to face and she looks really sophisticated and rich. I felt my insecurities grew but I didn't let it show.
"Hi Ginger, Liza I want you to meet Ginger, she's my best friend" Alessa introduced. Liza averted her eyes on me and smiled.
"Nice to meet you Ginger" I faked a smile.
"Nice to meet you too" I was about to leave when Alessa grabbed my right arm.
"Can you please bring another set of my usual order for Lizzy?" she said winking to Liza. I forced myself to smile and nodded.
Is she flirting with that girl? I asked mentally before heading back frowning.
"Looks like your friend is enjoying someone's company" Harry teased me.
I glared at him, my good mood is suddenly changed. Now I don't feel attracted to him because what he said annoyed the hell out of me. She can't enjoy someone's company because she said that she loves me.
"It's a joke don't be mad" he said chuckling while scratching his head. He then left to tend the customers.
I went back to Alessa's table holding the tray with the same order. I put the tray down with quite force which caused them to look at me. Liza is still playing with her hand and she seemed to enjoy it.
"Thank you Gin" she smiled sweetly. If it's in another situation I might smile back at her, instead I arched my brow before heading back to the counter.
A while ago I was happy because of what happened in the storage room between me and Harry, but now I'm pissed off because of the closeness that I saw with Alessa and Liza, they looked like they're attracted with each other.
"What is happening with me?" I mumbled while glancing to their direction. Alessa is laughing while poking Liza's arm. I instantly felt jealous.
Now I am jealous! What's with this Liza that makes me jealous and irritable?! I asked mentally while punching the customer's order in the POS.
When she's with Maya I don't feel jealous, maybe because it's obvious that Liza likes her. The way she looks at her, the way she touches her it's making me crazy.
After two hours of hell, my shift is already done. I change my work clothes immediately because I dot want Alessa to wait longer. Harry called me when I'm about to leave the staff room.
"Ginger I'm sorry about what happened in the storage room" he said looking so guilty. I shook my head and smiled at him.
"Its okay, just forget about it. Anyway I have to go now" I didn't wait for his response and rushed to Alessa. They both stood up as soon as they saw me approaching.
"Let's go Lessa" I said flatly before heading outside of the shop first.
"So...where are you heading now Lizzy? Thanks for accompanying me by the way" I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms while waiting for Liza to get lost.
"To the town center, gotta go shopping" she replied sweetly.
"Oh good, that's our way home. Let me give you a lift since you didn't bring your car" my face retorted upon hearing what she said, good thing Liza got the idea that I don't want it.
"No it's okay, I'll just take a cab" she refused while waving her hand.
"I insist! We hadn't seen each other for a long time, at least let me give you a lift!"
Then I'm gonna go get a cab! I yelled at her mentally. But of course I don't mean it because the cab is too expensive.
Liza grinned and nodded before giving me a smile of victory. She's about to open the door on other side of the driver's seat when I blocked her and opened it myself and entered immediately.
They both frowned by what I did but I don't care, I'm not gonna let her sit beside Alessa. I'm smirking while watching her enter the backseat.
It serves her right for being a flirt, I'm acting like a child right now but again, I don't care. Alessa's gaze is not leaving me but she's not saying anything. She shook her head afterwards before starting the ignition.
"Are you alright there Liza?" Alessa asked after a while. Liza nodded and winked at her in response. I'm killing her with my deadly gaze using the rearview mirror.
"So Liza, are you gay?" I snapped at her. She smirked at me.
"Yeah...in fact I courted Alessa before" My eyes widen in disbelief. So that explains why they seemed attached and close. The car suddenly stopped causing me to almost bump on the dashboard.
"You don't have to say that Lizzy" Alessa snapped at her, but Liza just laughed.
"She asked me if I'm gay, so telling her that I courted you before is no big deal and besides, she rejected you"
"Stilâ" She's about to argue when I interrupted her.
"I didn't reject her!" I glared to Alessa.
"Is that what you said to her? that I rejected you?!" I asked annoyed. I don't understand why she have to tell Liza about us.
She's about to respond when Liza interrupted us by unlocking the door.
"We're here now, I don't wanna be in the middle of you two fighting" she's about to kiss Alessa on her cheek when I blocked it with my palm.
"Whatever, I'll see you again Alessa" she rolled her eyes before getting out of the car.
"You won't see her again" I replied irritably. She raised her brow at me and put her arms on her waist.
"And why is that?" she inquired.
"Because I don't want to" she gazed at me in disbelief before shrugging her shoulders in surrender.
"Whatever" she muttered before walking away. I closed the door immediately and pretended that nothing happened.
"You don't have to be harsh with Lizzy, what is your problem?" she asked frowning.
"You said I'm the first girl that you fell in love with" I said annoyed.
"Liza said to you that she confessed to me, I didn't. I'm not into any girls, I'm only into you" she said while shaking her head in disbelief by my attitude.
"Then why are you two being touchy with each other? it's like you're both in a relationship!" I yelled because I'm completely pissed off.
"Minimize your voice Ginger I'm not deaf! We are friends, we grew up together and she confessed to me the day before she flew to New York" She started the ignition and shifted the gear in force.
"What if she didn't go to New York? You'll accept her do you?" I'm nagging her.
She massaged her temple in annoyance, she's biting her lips to control her anger.
"I love you okay?! I only have eyes for you! She knew that I'm not into girls till I met you! How many times do I have to tell you that!" she slammed the steering wheel when she can't contain her anger anymore. She's still gorgeous though even when she's mad.
"What is your problem? Even if I don't have feelings for Liza she's my friend so you don't have the rights to tell her not to see me again" she paused to calm herself.
"You're acting weird today given the fact that I should be the one who should be mad because you are flirting with Harry when you clearly know that I'm jealous with him" she added in frustration.
I suddenly felt guilty because she's completely right. I reached for her right hand and pressed it gently.
"I'm sorry. I just don't want you hanging out with her because I know that she likes you" I explained in a low voice.
"Now that you mentioned it, I think it's time to let go of you and give Liza a chance, that way I wont be a bother to you and Harry" she took her hand away from my grasp and focused on driving.
I'm alarmed by what she said. I don't want her loving someone else aside from me, just thinking of it makes me want to cry already.
"Please don't do that" I said as my tears started to fall.
"I don't like Harry anymore" now that I realized it, the Harry thing is just a pure crush.
"Why? You falling out of crush on Harry doesn't change anything at all. You still don't love me the way I want you to" she said sighing.
"It does" I mumbled enough for her to hear, she looked at me confused.
"Does what?"
"It does change everything because I...I love you" I said stuttering. It took me a lot of courage to tell her that but she just smirked at me.
"I know you love me buâ"
"RO-MAN-TI-CA-LLY" I interrupted her and made sure to emphasize every syllables.
The car suddenly stopped again causing me again to almost bump to the dashboard, I think I'm gonna have a migraine now.
"What did you say?" she gazed at me in disbelief while shaking my shoulders, my vision is blurring because I'm starting to get dizzy.
"I love you romantically and I just realized it today, I got jealous instantly when I saw you laughing with Liza so don't blame me if I'm harsh to her because I'm just jealous" I confessed. My face is completely red.
I frowned when she laughed out loud.
"What's funny?" She didn't respond and just kept on laughing.
"Are you toying with me Alessa Mendez?! Did you just want me to fall for you? Did youâ" I'm interrupted by her soft lips kissing me passionately.
My body tensed up in shock for a while but I closed my eyes afterwards. I clung my arms on her neck and kissed her back passionately.
Her tongue is exploring every part of my mouth. I moaned in pleasure when she sucked my tongue hungrily. I arched my body when her hand started to roam on my back.
I've never been kissed like this before, it's really different when she kisses me. Sure thing Harry is a good kisser but only Alessa can make me shiver in pleasure, she can make me crazy just by her kiss.
I now know the difference between platonic and romantic love, what I feel now for Alessa is overflowing with love. Our lips parted after a few minutes, I can see the lust on her beautiful eyes but we have to stop.
I faced the front immediately because I can't stand the way she's looking at me.
"So" she said leaning her head on her seat while grinning.
"So...what?" I asked in return.
"Are you now my girlfriend?" I smiled.
She sounded like a boy.
"Yeah" It took me a few seconds to respond because of embarrassment.
She leaned closer to hug me tight upon hearing my response.
"You don't know how happy I am now Gin, I love you so much" I smiled while patting her back.
"Me too. It's getting late we should go home now" I reminded her.
She retreated from our hug and started the car while mumbling sorry. She reached for my hand afterwards and held it the whole time she's driving.
This is one of the best day of my teenage life, I never thought I would fall for a girl, to my best friend. Shey my first time and I hope that she'll be the last.
"Thank you" I said smiling when we arrived in front of my house. I kissed her cheek and about to get out of her car when she grabbed my arm and kissed me on my lips again.
"I love you" she said after our kiss.
"I love you too" I poked her nose before getting out of her car.
I stopped at the front door and waited for her to drive away.
This is really happening, I am now in a real relationship I said mentally while touching my lips.
The lights are off when I came inside, maybe mom is already asleep because it's already ten in the evening. She usually sleeps early, I don't want to disturb her so I tiptoed to prevent making a sound.
I flinched when the lights turned on, good thing I don't have a heart attack. I sighed in relief when I saw mom sitting on our shabby couch with her legs crossed and smirking at me.
"I believe the cause of you going home late is because something happened" I blushed.
Did she saw us kissing in the car? Should I tell her now? I asked mentally. I bit my lower lip while fidgeting.
It's okay to tell her! Remember she said that she would be glad if you two ended up together? The other side of my mind replied.
I shook my head to clear my thoughts. I sat beside her afterwards and breathed out loud to build up my courage.
"Mom, Alessa is now my girlfriend"
"So that explains why you two are kissing in her car" She teased while raising her brow.
I knew it! She saw us! I closed my eyes in embarrassment. She reached for my both hand and gazed at me intently.
"Ginger, you know I love you and I will accept you both but you should take things slowly. You know what I mean, I'm okay with the kissing thing but limit yourselves, I know Alessa is hot butâ"
"Mom!" I interrupted her because my face is really red right now.
The thought of having sex with Alessa doesn't enter my mind until she opened up about it. I don't know how to have sex, I don't even had the chance to watch a single porn.
"Mom it's getting late so we need to sleep already" I said before rushing to our bedroom.
Today is very tiring but worth it. I fell asleep as soon as laid down on our bed.
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