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TW:
HYUNJIN'S POV:
Thinking i was the first once up, i wasn't. I woke up to Felix looking at me, but it wasn't lovely dovey it was more of a confused look with an emotionless face.
"Is there something on my face?" I asked as he shook his head in response.
Finally, i looked down to see the position we were in, not so friendly but quite intimate. I pulled away from him quickly and apologized. His face remained the same, still staring at me. I started to get confused myself, smiling sheepishly towards him. He sighed.
"You've cried a lot, Hyunjin."
"Ah, let's not worry about that now, did you sle-"
He scoffed towards me, lifting up my chin to get a clearer look at my face. He sighed before getting up and going into his bathroom. I watched as he ruffled through his drawers and medicine cabinet grabbing some equipment and coming back into the room. I sat up in confusion and he came over to me, lifting up my face.
"Yongbok-ah, what are you doing?" He
scoffed once again.
"I said to call me Felix." I shrugged it off. I genuinely like his Korean name, it's so perfect for someone like him. He carefully placed the warm towel onto my skin, gently tapping around my eyes. He paused in between with a small frown on his face, gently caressing my cheeks with his thumb.
"These are recent....theyre coming right off... Were you crying earlier?" I quickly pulled his hand away from my face, i honestly hate being pitied and especially at a time like this.
"Felix let's not worry about that right now, ya?"
"Have a backbone will you, if my boyfriend was crying, at any time i'm going to want to help, ya?" He mimicked. I smiled, glad to know i still have that title with him.
"Boyfriend, eh?"
He looked towards me with that stern look he's held on his face for a while. I sheepishly smiled with a sigh afterwards, and he softly smiled towards me and got up to put everything away. What did that mean....Shit, he's so cute.
He finally came back and sat beside me, fixing his pillow and placing the plushie on top of it.
"I wonder where Yujun and Jisung is right now, they've been gone since morning." Says Felix, breaking the silence and eye contact we held. I truly can't understand what's behind his pure eyes. His expression seems to change everytime i look into them.
"Ah, i'm not sure, how about giving them a call."
He nodded and pulled out his phone, i could still see the picture of us, with yujun, in his clear phone case that we took a while ago, i can't describe how that made me feel but i was sure awestruck by it. I would've thought he'd burn everything that had something to do with me.
"What are you smiling about?"
"Ah, nothing." He looked at me suspiciously before dialing Jisung's number. It rang a few times before it finally answered.
ð£ï¸: Hey babe, what's up?
"Ello, so when are you and Yujun coming back?"
ð£ï¸: Uhm we are in the car right now, but i sent someone for you that might help you cheer up. Sorry for not asking but you truly need it.
"Ah, he's already here, thank you. Although i was a little annoyed at first he has helped me get some rest.
ð£ï¸: See, this is why i couldn't always count on Seungmin. I didn't know he'd arrive that fast though, i called him 15 minutes ago.
"Wait what?"
ð£ï¸: I called Seungmin for you, Lixie. I'm tired of you feeling sad and tired all the time and i could see that Seungmin makes you happy. So i called him. And also! He could meet that relative that mom invited earlier.
"Huh...? ...Shit! Jisung! That relative was Hyunjin!"
Silence.
ð£ï¸..........so you're telling me........
"Fuck."
ð£ï¸: Fuck. Hey, Felix, Leeknow and I are taking Yujun to an arcade and buy new toys, ill buy whatever he wants, i'll talk to you later! Good luck, bye! (i'm so so sorry)
All of a sudden there was a loud beep through the phone. Felix threw his phone to the side and rubbed his fingers through his hair. I honestly don't know what to do right now. I can say that it hurt when Jisung said that Seungmin was the only one to cheer him up but it isn't his fault, him and I did break up after all.
"Would you like me to leave, Felix?"
"Ah, no! No...i really... don't actually.. Just wait here i'm going to talk to Seungmin for a second."
I nodded in response, watching him make his way downstairs. At least it's safe to say that he's comfortable with me around again.
YONGBOK'S POV:
I went downstairs waiting for the doorbell to ring. Ugh. Why at a time like this. If i'm being honest i REALLY want Hyunjin again, but it feels kind of wrong to let Seungmin down this way. Maybe i should wait and see what happens who knows if my gut will let me get back with Hyunjin.
Finally, the doorbell finally rang, i sighed before making my way over to open it. There stood Seungmin at the door with that adorable smile that's ALWAYS on his face.
"Seungmin, hey, what are you doing here?"
"Ah, Jisung invited me over, he told me you were sad and needed some help cheering up."
"Oh...he could get confused sometimes, i actually have someone over already..."
He chuckled a bit before putting his hand on my shoulder.
"I know Hyunjin is here, Felix. His car is outside and by the looks of your face it was pretty obvious who that could've been...I guess i'm too late again, eh? You two back together?"
"No..."
"Oh, just friends now? Nothing further?"
"Honestly i don't think there's anything between us, i'm not quite sure though. He's helped me out meanwhile."
"Oh, i guess that's good. At least i still have a shot, you know?" He chuckled before playfully nudging my shoulder. I slightly chuckled. Little does anyone know my head was spinning in circles at the time. Is there really nothing between Hyunjin and I? He's my Ex....but i don't know if we'll be back together or if we're even at the friend mark..We've never actually been friends we just jumped straight into a relationship.
"Say, how about me and you go somewhere tonight, i know you said you're doing fine but i still feel like you should let your mind take a break for a while, ya?"
Can this guy read my mind or something? Creepy fuck.
"I guess that'll be okay.."
"Hey i'm not trying to hit on you, i swear!"
We both laughed a bit.
"Oh shut up. I'll see you later on anyway, bye now Seungmin. Have to get back to someone, y'know."He nodded and pulled me into a gentle hug.
"Feel better, Lix."
HYUNJIN'S POV:
Felix finally entered the room, his body language has changed, most definitely noticeable. I grabbed my phone, jacket, shoes, and keys and walked over to him. He looked up towards me, quite discombobulated as always.
"Leaving?"
I hummed in response before walking passed him and out of the room. He quickly grabbed my arm causing my to turn and face him.
"Damn you really hate that guy, huh? Just the thought of him being here makes you want to leave. How petty." Felix chuckled, but yet again, i stood there silent.
"Is there something wrong, Hyunjin?"
I shook my head and look down towards my arm, confused on why he was still holding it.
"Why aren't you speaking to me?"
"Listen, i just need to take a break from all of this, i'm not as tough as you think, Felix."
"Hyunjin, what are you talking about? You're literally 'The Mr.tough guy' What's going on?"
"You seriously only see my as an Ex?"
The hallway grew silence, Felix with his head down. I gently pushed his hands off my arm, but he quickly grabbed it again.
"Why are you asking this...so suddenly ..?"
"Just answer the fucking question, Felix. Do you only see me as an Ex..?"
"Hyunjin...I..."
I raised an eyebrow waiting for him to speak, but there was nothing to be said. Only him looking up at me with shiny eyes. I sighed.
"See how hard it is to explain shit when you can't put it into words? Now we both know how it feels. It was nice seeing you Felix, i should be going now."
He clung onto my arms, face buried into my chest.
"Hyunjin! Don't be like that, i'm sorry...please don't go."
Honestly it was hard for me to see him like that, but i'm hurt too, i just need a break....is it even worth it....no...Felix is worth it...but is it worth hurting each other more...?
"Felix, please let go. We both need a break from all this. We can't keep hurting like this."
His grip only tightened.
"Hyunjin! I don't want another break. Please. I don't want you to go again! We can talk about it." He begged only holding tighter.
"Felix, let go."
"I don't want....i don't want you to go."
"FELIX." I pushed him off of me, making him fall to the ground. That's not what i intended to do. Shit. I always let my emotions get the best of me. His eyes remained on the ground, i could see the tears slowly falling from him.
I hesitated, whether i should stay, or should i go....
"I'm sorry, Felix." Was all i could say before storming down the stairs, out the door, and off in my car in one heartbeat. I hurt him... Mentally...and Physically.
"I think this is goodbye, Yongbok. I'm sorry..."
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