BYLER

I keep seeing my heart break over and over again

The look you gave her I wish that was me instead

Sometimes my brain plays tricks on me

Imagining you'd hold my hand like you do hers

You're my inspiration for every painting

A heart on your shield, leading us forward

The monster that settled in me, I can still feel it

Goosebumps running to the back of my neck

I can hear it whisper in the darkness

The images it showed me haunt me in my dreams

So I try to hide in my memories, ones of you and I

All my drawings that I've given you

All my feelings that I grew for you

We were only kids, so we didn't know

I am the person who loves you

Few days I'm gone and you found someone new

Someone special, not like any other

Captured your attention, left me in shambles

You laced her name in every sentence you said

I can not stand the pain it brings

You stopped caring about everything that has to do with me

You leave the table the minute the phone rings

You refuse to even look at me

I fall apart while it rains

I wreck the place we used to play

The once filled with laughter, joy and adventure

Now the castle has fallen down

Stupid ••• stupid ••• stupid

This whole thing is stupid

I heard you rushed here to apologise

I'm somewhere you can't find

I remember us sitting in the backseat

Sleepover at my place

Biking down our way

Even on Halloween

You saved me from my mind

Together we'll go crazy

The swings are my favorite in the park

And for years you wondered why

I thought your eyes forgot mine

Sometimes I don't know

Should I stay or should I go ?

Summer '85 went by like a breeze

Nothing has changed, we're always facing Stranger Things

Side by side in front of danger

Trying to win against all odds

This all sounds like something out of our own imagination

No one will ever believe the stories we lived

Sometimes I think I'm dreaming cause it's all so impossible

Are we still in that basement running our own campaign ?

If it's all make-believe, I want it to end

To feel the evil lurking around, I'm always on guard

And maybe then she wouldn't even be here

Maybe you wouldn't have had to look in the woods for me

Only to find her

We're standing in Starcourt like it's our own trial

She drained herself bloodless

We stood by and watched astounded

We were screaming but our voices weren't heard

Everything is a blur to me now

But I remember you holding her in your arms

She saved us, she lost

There's nothing we could do

To bring back what went missing

Leaving, broke every last bit of me

You embraced me for the last time

My tears fell down like the rain in November

Seeing the sign on the road shattered me endless

You came by to visit

I was over the moon when I heard it

I spent all of my time working on something to reveal my heart to you

A pat on the back, is that all I get ?

Guess message recieved, you're never seeing it, ever

I'll keep it to myself just another block to the wall

"Friends don't lie"

Seems I can't follow what you trusted

Mirroring our fight that night

I can feel their eyes but I'm only looking at yours

You're breaking me even more

Everytime I pick up a piece it flies with the wind

It's like wishing on a dandelion but it's an excruciating pain

Unlike the hopefulness dandelions bring

I lose it all

You tell me you couldn't say the words she wanted to hear

I wish you'd say them to me

I sit next to you leg beside leg

Then you smile and draw me back in

Before I could say a word, we're running

We rush to save a life, your arm is protecting me

Like it's your first instinct

We head out, our lives on the line

I see you're still worried about her and I am too

But seeing you in that state hurts me even more

I look at you you look away

I want more than anything, at the moment, than to dig my grave

You're starting to air out the pressure you feel inside

I sit there and listen to every word on your mind

If only I could express to you all my feelings

If I could show you what you mean to me

But it's scary to open up like that

I'm anxiously terrified to tell you the truth

To be honest how could I say it

I don't know how you'll react

What will you say or if you'll even accept what is obviously clear

So I add another drop to my overflowing cup

A nine-hour drive turns into an eternity

You spill out what you're afraid of and your insecurity

I pull out the thing I swore you'd never see

Calling you "The Heart" but misinterpreting the meaning behind

"She needs you" I need you

Feeling so lost in a new place it's been miserable without you

"When you are different sometimes it makes you feel like a mistake"

But you never made me feel that way

I cover my mouth so you wouldn't hear

The waterfalls and gasps for air

She's your superhero, she's my superhero

Her heart is so pure, her love is so true

I can't deny that when she looks at you

Her eyes sparkle like twilight

I missed her so much, she's my sister

My friend in all that is new and old

Though we're not by blood

I'll protect her with my life

Her life we saved, everyone's life she saved

The trio of Cali is back

On our feet to fight the very thing that destroyed our hometown

I know I shouldn't but I envy her

Your eyes never leaving hers

I keep gazing at the both of you from afar

Telling jokes I never understood

Someone who knows me can see

That I'm on the verge of exploding

Brother, thank you for being there for me

Hearing you say those eight letters

I wished the ground would swallow me

When I went missing, that's when your life started ?

Out of all the things you could've said

You chose to use the day that terrified me the most

When I was gone, it was your name I screamed out

Hoping you'd come and save me like you always did

I heard you had your first kiss

I wanted you to be mine

Wishful thinking, I'm trying to give up on

It's supposed to be forbidden how I feel

I can't help loving you though I'm drowning in my sorrow

I love you during the 7 that I rolled

I love you during the nightmares that I lived

I love you during the ghostbusters costumes

I love you during your tears in the cabin

I love you during your presence in the hospital

I love you during your hand holding mine

I love you during our crazy together

I love you during our "are you okay?"

I love you during our neverending story

I love you during all the dnd in your basement

I love you during all the times you saved me

I love you during all my drawings you hung up

Will I ever say those words to you ?

I'd rather not but a part of me hopes to

We're there once again at the cabin in the woods

I can still feel the pain and not just that of my own

Everything I said wasn't what I planned

Yet I'm glad you're by my side

I hope it's okay if I can keep loving you from a distance

I'll cheer you on, support you in everything

And since it's her you love

Then I wish you two all the best