Chapter 20: chapter 20

I told him everything that happened in the society meeting on that evening and to my surprise he heard me whole time without interrupting my words. It was not like he didn't pay attention to it, he was very attentive and calm while listening to me.I told him things they said in the meeting and also the things they didn't  say but think about me. I thought if I will explain everything to him, he might understand my situation."That's what happened today, I have kids and I don't want anyone to insult my kids because of me. Also I don't want to bother you with my lies and you don't have to bear any responsibilities for it. You can leave whenever you want and if you remember anything from your past then let me know, I will search for your family with that" I said.He might misunderstand things later so a clear explanation was good for that situation. What if he is already married! What if he already have a wife and children! They might feel bad about it if they ever find about the lie I made.Also he should know I don't expect much from him. I just want him to regain his memory and go back to his family as soon as possible. Complicated emotions and complicated relations are the thing I hate most."Thankyou very much for saving me. I don't want to be a burden to you, if you are having problems because of me then I can just take a leave from here" He said.Was I that obvious! He said the thing actually I wanted to hear from him. But it will be inhuman of me to kick him out like that. "No... No... Offcourse not, You don't have to do that, actually I'm not that inhuman. How could I kick out a sick person! Still if you want to go then you can transfer to an NGO, I asked a doctor about this before and he said he got a good place for you. If you want to leave, then I will ask him for his help" I said. His face became a bit gloomy and I don't understand why was he upset! We are not even his family, did he get attached to us in this short period! "Then please talk to the doctor and let me know when to leave" he said. I couldn't hold back and asked "you looks gloomy, did you get attached to us in these few days!" "Actually after waking up from death bed, I couldn't believe at first that I'm alive. Then I felt I'm in an unknown world but kids and you didn't let me feel alone. This house has it's own warmth and I felt cozy here. I don't know how I got acquainted with this life" he said this and I felt bad for sending him away. Am I too cold to him? But getting attached to us is not a good thing afterall he must have his own family and one day he have to leave us anyway. If he doesn't have a family and if he doesn't leave us later, then can I accept him as my family!He is not a bad person and helps me a lot with everything. He is not demanding and full of warmth. I may not accept it but this family feels complete with his presence.How could I have such thoughts! I have to face reality and the reality is we are not a true family. "Please, don't take it in a bad way. But I don't want my kids to get attached to you for now then feel disappointed later. So, you should leave from here and I will arrange everything for you. And another thing, don't let kids know about your leaving. This is a request" I said. "No! Why should you request? I'm  grateful to you for saving my life, I will never forget you and will do everything to pay you back" he said. "It's getting late, let's go and sleep" I said and left from there, I didn't have the courage to look back. If I will look back then his puppy like sad eyes will make me weak. But is this the right thing to do!*****After that day he talked less, looked gloomy all the time but pretended alright infront of others. I felt bad for doing that to him but my decision didn't change because of it.Finally the day came when he was going to leave our family. I decided to send him away at the time when kids were not in home. So that day after kids left for school, I took him to the NGO. It was a good place but all people there were either old age people or persons who had some disability. Will he be okay among them? He will be right!"We should bid our farewell to eachother now" I said. "Ya right, it's already that time. Thankyou very much for everything" he said. His words were making me feel guilt for leaving him like that. But I don't want to get involve in this anymore.After that I left him and came back home. I knew kids will be upset when they will find out that he is not here, so I made their favourite food for them. I went and picked up them from the school bus. "Mom, where is Shiv uncle?" Anna asked. "Ya mom, why is he not here today to pick up us?" Ayush asked. When I heard it from them I felt guilty."Let's go home fast then talk" I said and took them to home.As soon as they reached home they threw their bags on sofa and started to search for Shiv everywhere.After searching all room and roof, Ayush asked "mom, where is he?" "Actually he got back his memory and left with his family member. As I said he can't stay with us forever. Now let's go and wash up, I have made your favourite dishes" I said and paused for a minute as they didn't show any reaction. They used to get excited in the name of their favourite dishes but today it felt like they were not even interested in it."How could he left like that! He promised me that he would teach me how to ride a bi cycle!" Ayush said."He also promised me that he would take me to the wonderland and will give me Cinderella costume" Anna said."Don't worry I will do that for you, now let's go foods are getting cold" I said."I'm not hungry, I don't want to eat now" Ayush said and went in to his room by making a gloomy face."I'm also tired and want to rest" Anna said and left. I knew this day would definitely come but I didn't knew they would be that much depressed because of him that they wouldn't even eat their favourite food.Sending him away is not a wrong decision right!