chapter 28

"You don't like this genre that's very upsetting, but I will suggest you if you like to read then you should try this genre once, if you didn't like it then reading something wouldn't make any losses" Gauri advised me and left with the book I gave to her.I actually didn't like to read things that varies from reality. According to me those things were only to divert us from our way. For me my life was a waste, I had no family and no ambition. I lived until now because I didn't had the courage to die and if I would have died then my grandfather's efforts would have vain.But after meeting Gauri my heart wished to live a little longer, it was not because I was attracted to her beauty and have some fantasy with her. It was because I saw her working very hard to achieve her goals and live her life to fully, so I wanted to know what made her love her life so much!I was born with a golden spoon but I didn't get any love that was why I was astray. But for her she could get anything if she would work hard for it. Her personality and her positive attitude towards life attracted me a lot. I started to read the book she recommended, it was because I wanted to know what made her so positive and hardworking. After reading that book I realised it couldn't make my pain go away but it could give me courage and a way to survive. I feel grateful to her and my wish to have a good life became stronger. She saw me twice and we talked to eachother twice but she had a good impression on me. Not her face but her beautiful heart  attracted me.She was kind and good to everyone and I couldn't stop myself form falling for her. My first crush changed into my first love and that was how she became very important in my life.Finally one day I gathered all my courage to tell her everything I felt for her but I was late for that. when I took my time to gather courage someone else took that chance and got accepted by her. All my dream including my heart shattered into pieces. She was proposed by Omm Birla the popular guy of the college and their family also agreed for their relationship. My heart shattered and I couldn't confess my feelings to my first love. When I saw them together I thought he was the one who suits her well. I was not to his match. Her smile and happiness made me think I should give up and wish good for her. It might be indirect but she enhanced my hope to live this life. A princess like her would suit with a prince like him not with a joker like me.For somedays I stayed there  then I transferred myself. I went abroad and  there I changed myself and became the person I am right now. Because that was what I learnt from her, if one way closes then there will be another way ahead. I didn't lose hope in my life and didn't give up on love. I also waited for someone who could make me feel warm and the person who could make me realise that she is the one for me but I couldn't find anyone. But I worked hard on things my parents left for me and while working on it I found out that my parents accident was not an accident but a murder. So, I shift from abroad to here and started living here. It was not long ago I moved here I found it was none other than my uncles who killed my parents but I didn't have any solid proof. After I shifted here once I met Omm Birla at a business party but I didn't see Gauri by his side, instead there was another girl by his side. I heard people gossiping how Omm Birla's bride betrayed her then went to jail and died there. I couldn't believe  my ears. I got a great shock after hearing everything from people, then I enquired it myself still I couldn't believe those things they talked about Gauri. I know her very well she was not someone who would do that to her partner. She valued people around her a lot, so she would never hurt them. But it was only in my head I couldn't reply to those who called her characterless. I felt angry and frustrated for that day when I couldn't say my feelings to Gauri. If she was with me I wouldn't have let that happen to her. I would have listen to her and tried to figure out the truth. If I was a little braver, if I was a little confident, if I was a little stronger at that time then she wouldn't have died.I became depressed for days and regretted losing her and there was also no grave of her near which I could cry and ask for her forgiveness. It take me a long time to let her go and back to my original self.When I didn't give up on finding proof against my uncles they tried to kill me. That was how I  ended up at an unknown place, when I thought I couldn't hold on and would die at that moment I saw Gauri and I thought she was there to take me with her. Then for somedays I really lost my memories and didn't know anything that happened in that time. When I again opened my eyes I was in hospital and suddenly Gauri came in. I was surprised for a moment I thought I'm in another world with Gauri but after a while I understood whole situation. I was alive and the person infront of me who looked like Gauri was Shakti. How could be such a coincidence! I didn't say anything and acted with the flow. I became her husband and father of her children and did my investigation in secret to know her real identity.She was very different from before, she didn't trust anyone, she is not delicate and soft she used to be. She was not gullible and doubts everything. She is a strong woman who doesn't need anyone by her side and totally different from the Gauri I used to know. I also started to think both are different persons but somethings couldn't change even if you change your everything and that was her heart. Also I ran a DNA test to know her identity and I found she is Gauri and those kids were not hers. I felt I hit a jackpot and I decided not to lose her ever again.My first love whom I missed so much for years is now with me as my fake wife. How could I miss this golden opportunity!