Part 18 Ending

(TRIGGER WARNING: TALK OF ABUSE and DEPRESSION. please read at your own risk.)

"Knock knock——" a careful knock sounded on the door, she didn't dare to knock too hard, nor too fast. It was intermittent and could be cut off at any time. Chu Muxi didn't open the door. She didn't know how to face her, and shamefully chose to escape. The knock on the door was cut off. Chu Muxi was in a trance and a little regretful. Then a message popped up on the screen of her mobile phone.

[I have reheated the food. Eat some more, or you will be hungry later.]

[It's placed at the door. I have already left.]

[I can tell you anything you want to know. Don't be angry. Being angry is not good for your health.]

All of them were sent by Su Yunqing and Regret reached its peak at this moment. A puppy crying pitifully in the corner of the wall automatically appeared in her mind.

[I'm sorry, I was too impulsive.] Chu Muxi sent the message. When she opened the door, she saw that she's gone. [No need to say sorry. It is all my fault.] Su Yunqing sent another message, She's always the weaker party in a relationship. After countless setbacks, she has engraved inferiority into her bones.

[Mom, it is my birthday today.]

The young Su Yunqing sent a message to her mother with great expectations. It took a long time before she received a reply.

[Yeah.]

The expectation was shattered, Su Yunqing sent another message without giving up.

[Mom, can you come back to accompany me?]

[Mom has something to do today and can't go home. Xiaoyun, please stay at home obediently? Don't cause trouble to your parents.]

But today is my birthday. Tears fell from her eyes, and she never got reply to the messages she sent to her father. Are there really parents in this world who who doesn't love their children? Probably yes.

Su Yunqing was rebellious when she was young, and was even called home by her teacher to reflect on her parents. She still remembers the cold eyes her parents looked at her with, as if she was not their own child.

"How could I give birth to such a thing?"

"Children are hard to raise."

They complained about her in front of her without any scruples, as if it was a mistake for her to be born. "It's not that I want to be born by you!" Su Yunqing yelled at them, and in return, she was given even more disgusted looks. "You have no conscience."

They scolded and beat her, and locked her in the room without food or water for many days.  No matter how much Su Yunqing cried, it was useless, and she was exhausted from hunger. She almost died, Before she fell into a coma, she had the concept of death for the first time.

The door was opened, Su Yunqing didn't have the habit of locking the door, which made it convenient for Chu Muxi. Sure enough, she hid in the corner and cried, curled up, with her head buried in her knees, and her cell phone was thrown aside. The sound of the door opening and the approaching footsteps were all blocked out. Su Yunqing thought that she would never meet someone who treated her better than Chu Muxi.

The strong sense of self-blame and decadence mixed with inferiority dragged Su Yunqing into the dark and bottomless abyss of the swamp. Her heart twitched and twisted, reminding Su Yunqing of the days in the past. The days that were never cared about, taken for granted, and extremely depressing.

"Yunqing, Su Yunqing!"

Suddenly someone held her face, the cool touch was accompanied by the familiar sweet-scented osmanthus fragrance, and the dazzling light made her suddenly forget the pain of the past. "Muxi," Su Yunqing shouted with a dazed look in her eyes, she was fascinated by the palm of her hand on her cheek, and the faint sweet-scented osmanthus fragrance surrounded the warmth in winter. "I'm sorry, Yunqing." Chu Muxi helped Su Yunqing wipe the tears from her cheek with heartache.

"Don't abandon me." Su Yunqing begged, with a hoarse voice. She really liked Chu Muxi, so was afraid that she would be abandoned by Chu Muxi. She didn't know what to do if she was abandoned by Chu Muxi. Chu Muxi was her only support. "I didn't say I would abandon you." Chu Muxi said helplessly. Su Yunqing now looked stupid and pitiful.

"um." Su Yunqing said sullenly, as if she had woken up, and then said: "I am not from this world." Chu Muxi is an atheist, but thinking of Su Yunqing's sudden change, so she half-believed and half-doubted it. she took a tissue to wipe Su Yunqing, The snot and tears were about to mix together. Su Yunqing felt embarrassed, took the tissue and wiped them herself, then she told Chu Muxi everything in one go.

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After fainting, Su Yunqing woke up in the hospital. Her parents were educated by the doctor, but the effect was minimal. From then on, Su Yunqing has been silent. There's nothing worth caring about, Su Yunqing told herself. Because of her "glorious deeds" at school, her teachers and classmates didn't like her. She had been a loner until she saw a lesbian novel by chance, She envied the love between the heroines.

Why didn't anyone come to save me? After being moved, she felt regretful and decadent, but decadence couldn't help her change the status quo. The indifference of the people around her made it very clear to her that no one would help her, and no one had to help others. The only thing that could change was herself.

So She began to work hard, Study hard and get into a good high school. Leaving the embarrassing environment of junior high school, Su Yunqing made rapid progress. People who shine are always easier to be noticed. Su Yunqing, whose grades gradually ranked among the best, was praised by the teachers, and new classmates kept approaching her. It was at this time that she met a girl who moved her heart.

The girl was beautiful and excellent in study. They ate together, studied together, and went back to the dormitory together every day. Su Yunqing really felt that the time was right, so she confessed. Unlike the happy ending in the novel, the girl looked at her strangely and rejected her. After that, she avoided her like a snake and scorpion. It was the critical period of the third year of high school. The pressure of study was more and more likely to promote love. There were suddenly several couples in the class, but Su Yunqing's love withered before it bloomed.

The good days ushered in decadence again. She failed the college entrance examination and felt defeated. Su Yunqing thought she had no great ambitions and thought that she would be alone for the rest of her life, so she just did it casually. She gave up her undergraduate studies and applied for a culinary arts major. No one would care about her anyway, so it didn't matter what she applied for. Fortunately, cooking was to her taste.

She liked to make exquisite dishes with her own efforts, and she also liked the satisfied smiles of the guests after eating. But from time to time, she still longed for someone to love her. She didn't want to be alone forever, a loneliness with no end in sight. Su Yunqing didn't tell all her stories after all. She just briefly said that she was not liked by others, and she failed the college entrance examination and applied for a junior college. As for being locked in a room, being alienated by her best friend, etc., there was no need to say it, she'll keep it to herself.

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"Muxi, I like you, please don't hate me, okay?" Su Yunqing plucked up the courage to confess. She really, really liked Chu Muxi. It was the first time someone cared about her, the first time someone stood up for her, and the first time someone indulged her. She remembered everything Chu Muxi did for her. Chu Muxi is like an angel sent from heaven, the light that saved the other party in the novel, and she couldn't give up her existence. Su Yunqing's tone was trembling, like a puppy abandoned and adopted on the roadside, trying hard to please the new owner, afraid of being abandoned again.

"I won't hate you." Chu Muxi said solemnly. If Chu Muxi felt skeptical about Su Yunqing's "not from this world" at the beginning, now she completely believed it. She lowered her head, and her rosy lips fell on Su Yunqing's forehead, a light kiss, gently falling and gently leaving. In Su Yunqing's shocked and dazed eyes, she said shyly and seriously: "I like you a little bit too."

Chu Muxi's life is very monotonous, studying, working, and making money, but she doesn't think there's anything wrong with it, She has her own firm values ​​and ideas. The other half is dispensable to her, and she doesn't care much. Until Su Yunqing seemed to have become a different person, the most intuitive feeling was that there's delicious food every day. Then Su Yunqing became less annoying.

Careful movements, meticulous care, a smile that makes people feel good, puppy-like eyes, and the tempting aroma of strawberries. Finally, there's a lively person in the family, laughing every day, but soft and well-behaved. "Muxi, you're so nice." Su Yunqing cried with joy, and the tears that had been shed began to fall again. "So are we girlfriends now?" "Yeah, so don't cry." Chu Muxi responded. Su Yunqing cried too easily, there's really nothing she could do. "I'll be fine soon." Su Yunqing quickly took a few pieces of paper to wipe away her tears and snot.

No more tears! Su Yunqing exerted the power of her mind, she would not cry again. She opened her eyes wide, moved her nose, and her face was visibly trying to control her tear glands so that she would not cry. So silly, Chu Muxi laughed out loud and comforted, "It's okay if you want to cry." "I can control myself." Su Yunqing said firmly, "I'm fine now."

"Great." Chu Muxi said in a soft voice, like praising a child, and Su Yunqing blushed. Is this the treatment of being a girlfriend? "You are so nice, Muxi. Can I hug you?" Su Yunqing blinked her bright peach eyes, full of expectation. "Yes." As soon as the voice fell, a bear hug came over, and Chu Muxi put her head on Su Yunqing's neck and thought. It's not a puppy, it's a big dog.

Since the successful confession, Su Yunqing has become Chu Muxi's clingy spirit. Want to stick, hug, and kiss her. And because of the popularity of Yunmu's live broadcast room, Su Yunqing was also invited by Chu Muxi's company to be the company spokesperson. This time, she's clinging to her even in the company, and everyone in the company knows it.

"Muxi, I'm done with the photo shoot." Su Yunqing had just finished taking promotional photos. She's wearing a red hooded jacket and black military pants, with a small braid on the side of her head and a wolf-tail hairstyle, which made people's eyes shine. "I want a kiss." She came to ask for a reward. As soon as the photographer said "OK", she couldn't wait to run over to her girlfriend.

Chu Muxi stopped the work in her hands, glanced at her lovingly, and hooked her finger and said, "Come here." Su Yunqing immediately trotted over, squatted down and put her face close. The moist and soft lips fell, and they separated as soon as they touched. Chu Muxi silently attributed Su Yunqing's clinginess to the exposure of Alpha's nature, but she didn't hate it.