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NUNU

"Say Jojo," John said slowly to Malaysia trying to make her repeat after him he was doing this for a good three minutes.

"Boy it ain't gonna work and you a fool to even think you gonna have her saying Jojo before she's saying mama," I said.

"She just saying that cause she jealous ain't that right Asia?" John said rubbing her cheek.

"Dada!" She yelled touching Johns's chain.

I ain't think much of it because she's young and doesn't understand what's she's saying she pretty much calls everybody and anything dada because that's the one word she knows.

"I can't wait until you meet my girls y'all are gonna be best friends," John said.

"Have you talked to your baby moms about everything?" I asked.

"Yeah she said she's fine with it as long as you know you're boundaries," He said as I nodded.

I can't be mad at it.

"Do you think she's gonna be too young for them?" I asked.

"Naw my older one loves babies and my other daughter is around the same age as Asia is"He explained

"Oh ok well you just let me know when you want them to meet" I said sitting on the couch.

I was at Johns house because I wanted to see him and I wasn't really ready to bring him to my moms house cause I feel like that's kinda disrespectful because she hasn't met him yet.

"They can have a play date the next time they mama let me see them" He said as I nodded.

"Malaysia I'm so proud of you for being good at daycare besides you throwing a tantrum because you couldn't eat the paint" I said picking her up and kissing her repeatedly.

My baby did so good at daycare I knew she would she was just scared because it was her first time being away from me in a place she's never been.

"Since we're talking about playdates and shit I wanna take you out on a date this weekend" John said making me smile.

"Really?" I said.

"Yeah, really where you wanna go?" He asked me.

"Take me to The Cheesecake Factory" I demanded flipping my hair over my shoulder.

"Fine i'll take you to cheesecake factory I would've thought you would want something more expensive" He said shrugging.

"Aww you would spend a bag on me if you wanted to?" I cooed.

"Of course you ain't basic" He said making me smile.

"Ok well be ready to pick me up don't keep me waiting for hella long" I said crossing my arms.

"I won't have you waiting" he said putting his hands up in defense.

"Ok Imma call you later when I get home" I said going to the door.

"Ok Imma see you at the date or tomorrow when I bring you your lunch" He said walking me out.

"Malaysia stop holding on to the cabinets you're gonna fall I need to put this chicken and shit out before yo Abuela kill me" I said seasoning the chicken.

I remember my mama use to throw the chancla at me because I ain't have the chicken out or her ingredients out in time.

So my flight or fight has triggered.

"M you're going in your walker" I sighed picking her up and placing her in her walker.

"Now let me get this done" I said to my self going into the kitchen.

"Im home!" My mom said putting her keys in the bowl by the front door.

"Hey ma" I said walking out the kitchen.

"Hey hun" She said kissing my cheek.

"Did you check the mail today?" she said handing some mail to me.

It was all types of envelopes from the correctional center.

"Oh lord" I scoffed.

"I know I know just see what it says maybe he's checking on Malaysia" My mom said.

"I doubt it" I said opening up the envelope sitting at the table.

The date he wrote this was different so I'm guessing his letter just came in from the mail.

Deajahnai, My love, My heart

I know I messed up in the past like really bad I was slowly going back into my old ways and you didn't deserve that at all and I'm sorry. I get scared everyday that you might move on and find a another man.I just want another chance I promise I'm not gonna be the same man I was before I got into jail.Im crazy about you I'm crazy in love with you that's why I did what I did from the court thing and the shooting.I know you might never forgive me or at least take awhile to forgive me put it sorry like really sorry. I want to be happy and you're my only happiness I can't find it in nothing or nobody else.I want to see my daughter grow into a beautiful woman that I know she can be but now I understand I can't see much of that for awhile.Im slowly losing my mind in these four walls so I'm asking you even though you might hate me and want nothing to do with me could you please just write me letters it does theeven have to be about us it could be about Malaysia I don't care what it is as long as I can see your handwriting Ill take anything.

Im a thousand times sorry for everything I've done and caused.

Love, Shar

I noticed myself getting emotional but I quickly pulled my self together.

Snap out of it bitch.

I kinda feel bad for the thing I've been saying and how I've been talking about him.

I'm trying to stay strong and put on this front but I can't do it anymore

I LOVE HIM.

No matter how much I try to convince myself that I don't deep down inside I still love him and I know that he puts his hands on me I know that he said hurtful things to me but I don't care anymore.

I even used John as a distraction to get my mind off of him but it's not working.

And now I feel stuck in the middle I LOVE Pop but I'm also developing feelings for John.

I mean we already in too deep with John so it's no backing down now.

I'm meeting his kids his kids are meeting my kid.

We're getting more serious he's taking me on a date.

I have no choice but to stay with John I can't just ditch him because I have feelings for him.

And I'm just scared that Pop is just saying this then when he goes out of jail he's gonna do the stiff all over again.

I just can't trust him like I used too.

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Welp.

Y'all need to chill in the comments just because the book ain't going the way y'all want it to go y'all is too invested chile I'm just tryna build it up just wait but I know y'all don't mean no harm so that's fine just don't be annoying about it I be cracking up low key don't act like ion be seeing it I see everything 💙😂

Sometime I be getting just a little annoyed when ppl be like update or I need a update when I JUST gave y'all one but I know y'all intentions so I'm not tripping

Bottom line y'all are spoiled as hell.

And if y'all want updates back to back y'all need to comment I don't really care about votes but comment please or I'm not gonna update this book as much then y'all gonna want to comment.

But poor Nunu she's torn.

And I don't care I'm on team NUNU fight me about it.

AND NO SHE IS NOT UGLY I SAW THAT SHIT.

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