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NUNU

"You sure you wanna do this?" Dasani asked me as I was about to walk up t where he was at.

"Yes I'm sure I wanna be the bigger person and at least be cordial with him I don't want to do the whole awkward stuff" I explained.

"I mean if you say so good luck and let us know if it goes well and give us the signal if you need help to jump him" Ari said.

"Girl bye I'm not gonna play with you" I said walking away.

I went up to him and as closer as I got to him the more and more nervous I got its like I was going up to my crush for the first time and also I felt scared as shit too.

What if he dosen't even wanna give me the time of the day.

"Hey...Do you wanna talk for a minute?" I asked him.

"Fosho cause you got a lot of explaining to do" Pop said getting up and following me upstairs to my room.

"So this is where you and M is staying at?" Pop asked me looking around at my old childhood room.

"Yeah for now until I get me a place for me and M stay" I said straightening my cover out that had a wrinkle with my hand.

"A twin bed? Both of y'all sleeping in here?" He asked.

"Well Malaysia sometim-"

"It's a Yes or No question are y'all both sleeping in here?" He said getting irritated.

It looks like his temper has gotten even worse I knew he wasn't gonna change all that "I'm gonna marry you" stuff for nothing.

And I was dumb enough to fall for it.

"Yes, Shar we're both sleeping in here anything else you want to criticize me about I ain't come in here to talk about where my daughter is sleeping at she got a roof over her head doesn't she?" I said crossing my arms.

"Aight bro make it quick I wanna celebrate my daughters birthday since I already missed so much plus I wanna get some thing off my chest" He said finally sitting down.

"Ok so what is this" I said pointing between us.

"What does it it look like we ain't together are we? You just my baby moms and that's it point blank" He said shrugging his shoulder.

"That's fine, can we at least be cordial though I don't want it to be awkward between us that shit is dead to me" I said.

I guess he caught me by surprise because I don't think he would expect me to say that of be so blunt about it.

No he know how it feels.

"You saying that now but if I was to bring a girl around or something you gonna feel some type of way and start being extra trying to put me on child support or some shit" He chuckled.

"If you're gonna be here for our child why would I feel the need to put you on child support Bashar?" I asked him because I honestly don't know where he's pulling this out of.

His ass maybe?

"Bro Deajahnai I know you dawg" He said looking up at the ceiling.

"Well obviously you don't know me as much as you think you do cause I'm not that type of person to even be petty to the point I'm putting our child in our mess" I said scrunching my face up.

"You right I don't k ow you as much as I thought I did. You got that bum ass nigga outside holding my child and letting her sit on his lap" He scoffed

"Listen I'm with John of course he's gonna be around and plus his kids and Malaysia are like best of friends so of course she's gonna be attached to him she has no choice really" I responsed back.

"Wowww you let him bring his kids around her too! When was this and why you ain't say shit till now?" He snapped?

"First of all lower yo-"

"No you lower yo fucking tone! All I did was take care of yo ass! I bought you all these fucking Chanel bags, Gucci, Louie, Prada etc and all I ask you was to hold me down while I was in the joint and you still dare to have the same bags I bought you sitting in yo closet now?!" He said standing up getting all up my face.

"Hold you down?! I've been holding you down before you got in jail! Staying up late with a newborn by MYSELF while you go party at clubs and half of the time you didn't even have any shows you just wanted to go out and get drunk!" I yelled back.

"Yes I messed up and I can admitted two rights don't make a wrong but the only reason why I did what I did id because you did it to me first! And I felt like you didn't care about our relationship so I stopped caring but of course when I do it blows up into this big problem that caused from the jump right?!" I said.

"I never said you did though did I ever say that shit!" Pop said.

"What you mean you've been trying to shame me and call me out about everything I do just because it doesn't involve you so what do you mean!" I yelled.

I was beyond pisses all I've been doing was taking his bulshit over and over again.

"You've Shamed me for being a stripper you called me out my name for I don't know how many times you diseespected me and are relationship plenty of times but the one time I'm caught having a DRINK with a nigga you go crazy you threaten to take my child and I most definitely didn't forget about you BEATING ME" I said.

"You hit me first what the fuck!" He screamed.

"The very first time that I hit you did I EVER hit you first no I didn't you hit me because you have a problem and because if something that you THOUGHT had happen by was to DRUNK to even let me explain!" I clapped back.

"Ok but those other time-"

"Other times nigga that happened about once so what are you talking about?!" I said.

"And even if I did hit you first you have every right to defend yourself you do but you had to beat the living shit out of me when I just gave you a lick what sense does that make" I said.

"And how many have I said sorry?" he expressed

"And how many times you said sorry then turned around and still did the same thing?!" I said putting my hand on my hip.

He sighed as he rubbed a hand down his face.

At this moment I'm not gonna lie to you he was looking pretty fine under distress.

His muscles got bigger and he got buffer he looked like he went to the barber today and got his haircut too.

Tempting.

"Listen if you just called me up here just to scream at me I understand you mad if you don't care about me no more then just say that yo"He said.

"First off I'm going to need you to stop trying to play the whole " I'm the victim"act and second of I don't care about you really?"I said as my voice cracked.

"Bashar of I didn't care about you I would've told the court that you had beat me in our relationship" I said as tears rolled down my cheek as I went into my drawer to grab something.

"This.THIS IS WHAT I WAS GONNA SHOW THE JUDGE WHAT YOU DID TO ME BASHAR!" I said holding up a folder full of pictures of the bruises that were still on my body at the time.

"I did care about you and I still do I did that to protect you and for our daughter you didn't deserve that but I did it anyway because I cared about you...and loved you despite all the horrible things you did to me!" I breaking down.

"I'm stressed Shar from being between you and John from Malaysia getting suspended from daycare my parents don't think I'm not being a good parent and me trying to find an apartment in just wat too stressed and I have yet to do my dream job when I had the money I couldn't even buy the venue I wanted my hair salon to be in because of the whole shooting situation so I have to use that money to buy a place to stay" I said crying harder.

"I know I say this a lot D put I'm sorry what do you want me to do I'll do it and I'm sorry can we just go to counseling or something to mend our relationship I need to go to personal counseling too whatever it takes I'll do it I don't want to go through this no more this shit is draining me yo" He said as he shed a couple tears.

Seeing Shar cry was a RARE site to see I couldn't even grasp at what was happening.

"I agree I think it's what's best for our mental health and for M I don't want her to grow in an environment knowing her mom and dad cant stand each other" I confessed.

"So yeah we can try" I said.

"As long as you're gonna try then I'm gonna try too" Pop said.

After that we starred at each other and gave each other a long passionate...

Hug.

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HAI.

Aww they finally agreed to get better.

Better hope John is ok with them going to therapy together.

T

The end of M's birthday is next chapter I was gonna do this chapter but it's late and Zoe just posted messy Monday so.

Yeah

I didn't proofread so excuse mistakes