CH 85.1

TL: Hua

Shi Yunnan looked into Luo Lingsheng’s eyes and slowly confirmed the truth of his words.

With the rising tipsiness, he couldn’t help hugging Luo Lingsheng for a second, two seconds, three seconds… until Luo Lingsheng felt a warm wet feeling on his neck and shoulders.

“Yunnan?”

“I thought…” The humble and low whisper was full of grievance, “Even you don’t want me anymore.”

Luo Lingsheng’s heart was severely pierced by these words. All he wanted to do was lock his lover in his arms forever, “How could I not want you?”

Shi Yunnan felt the strength of Luo Lingsheng’s hug and couldn’t stop crying, “Then why didn’t you tell me before?”

“I just don’t want to take this matter lightly, much less guilt-trip you with my love……”

Luo Lingsheng’s palm caressed the back of Shi Yunnan’s neck. His tone was one of patience, doting, and self-blame.

“In the past, I didn’t think my legs would fully heal. Even if I knew you didn’t care, I still couldn’t let it go. Yunnan, I don’t want to be a burden to you.”

“Later, when I finally saw the turning point, I thought I would wait… because…”

“I want to stand in front of you with a healthy posture, protect you in times of danger, and hold your hand for the rest of my life.” Luo Lingsheng kissed Shi Yunnan’s hair, “You have to believe me.”

If he had known that Shi Yunnan’s accidental intrusion into the study and the items he saw would lead to such misunderstanding and despair, Luo Lingsheng wished he could turn back time and express his feelings.

Shi Yunnan responded sullenly and honestly, “…… I almost wanted to pack my bags and run away.”

If the “white moonlight” that Luo Lingsheng was thinking of was really Wen Yibei, then Shi Yunnan didn’t have the confidence to win against the other party. Rather than wait until the final truth was revealed, he might as well just walk away before his self-esteem was completely shattered and his inferiority completely exploded.

But he was reluctant.

He couldn’t let go of Luo Lingsheng, Little Goldfish, and this family.

Shi Yunnan didn’t realize until the decision was in front of him that his dependence had already taken root over time, and there was no possibility of him getting out.

“Escape to where?”

Luo Lingsheng asked, and while he was afraid, he was extremely glad that everything wasn’t too late. He slightly withdrew his body, allowing Shi Yunnan in his arms to easily meet his gaze.

The tips of their noses lightly brushed against each other. Luo Lingsheng said in a soft but firm voice, “Shi Yunnan, listen, when we first got together, I gave you three chances to leave, but it’s you who chose to stay.”

“Since you insisted on not leaving when my legs were bad, it’s even more impossible for me to let you go now and in the future.”

“Wen Yibei may be excellent in the eyes of others, but in my eyes, you are the one and only, and no one can replace you.”

The one and only?

No one can replace you?

Shi Yunnan’s mind was completely occupied by these words. After enduring for a long time, he still failed to hold back tears and finally shed them.

From the beginning to the end, he just wanted to be firmly chosen. That’s all.

Luo Lingsheng wiped those teary eyes with his fingers and continued to pacify him, “Don’t cry, you’ve drank so much and haven’t eaten. Does your stomach hurt?”

Shi Yunnan shook his head. All the suffering was over.

Compared to the muddled waiting time before, he now only wanted to let go of everything to enjoy and indulge in the love given by Luo Lingsheng.

“Wait a minute, I’ll pour you some warm water and get you something to eat.”

Luo Lingsheng explained, but before he got up, he was pulled by his lover.

“Don’t go.”

Shi Yunnan trapped Luo Linghsheng’s arm with his own. He approached the other party while trying to force the dizziness away and tentatively kissed the corner of his lips, “…husband.”

His voice was drunken and whiny. He sounded softer than usual because of the muddle-headedness.

“Hm?”

Luo Lingsheng responded with a sound from his throat, and his breath was easily aroused by his love.

Shi Yunnan absentmindedly greeted his warm breath, “I want you.”

“Later.”

Luo Lingsheng took a deep breath and tightened his arms around Shi Yunnan, “Eat first. You drank so much wine, your empty stomach will be uncomfortable.”

The lips of the two seemed to be sticking together, and the extreme heat was floating around.

“I don’t want to wait…”

Shi Yunnan hummed softly and seductively, indulging in the love that had been deeply rooted in his bones.

He raised his head and kissed Luo Lingsheng’s eyebrows, his blurred expression looking particularly beautiful in the dim light.

Luo Lingsheng was defeated in the end, and he licked his lover’s lips forcefully.

“Um–”

The lingering voices all fell into a tantalizing monotone.

The tipsiness was belatedly swirling around, and the indescribable palpitation encased the two of them in a mess.

Shi Yunnan’s reason got all confused. All he could do was cling to Luo Lingsheng’s arms, letting his senses empty again and again in this deep kiss.

Time passed without them noticing. Shi Yunnan felt his body being lifted into the air, and the momentary sense of weightlessness made him subconsciously tighten his arms around Luo Lingsheng’s shoulders.

“What, what’s wrong?” Shi Yunnan narrowed his eyes and hummed.

Luo Lingsheng kissed his thin lips and explained with his remaining rationality, “The door to this bedroom was just kicked down by Yuan Meng. Let’s move to another place.”

With that said, Luo Lingsheng weighed Shi Yunan slightly, and for the first time in his life, he could feel his lover’s weight so clearly.

Sure enough, he didn’t have much weight and was on the lean side, so he would have to feed him more in the future.

Luo Lingsheng thought to himself and hugged the person in his arms tighter, “Baby, hold on tight, I’ll take you back to the next room.”

………

Shi Yunnan was woken up by Luo Lingsheng in his sleep. The burning pain in his stomach made him groggy.

He raised his eyelids laboriously, and groaned, “Lingsheng.”

“I’m here.”

Luo Lingsheng took the almost paralyzed Shi Yunnan into his arms and patiently persuaded him in a coaxing tone, “I know you are sleepy, but you must get up and eat something to cushion your stomach before going to sleep.”

As soon as Shi Yunnan finished digesting this sentence, the warm water cup was handed to his lips.

Shi Yunnan’s throat was so dry that it was about to burst into flames, so he followed his instinct and gulped it down.

The warm water went down his throat.

It instantly warmed his stomach and awakened some of his clarity.

Shi Yunnan tilted his head and nestled against Luo Lingsheng’s arms, but within a few seconds, he could smell the delicious aroma of fish porridge. It made him feel hungry.

Luo Lingsheng saw Shi Yunnan’s cute appearance with his nose cocked by the smell of the food, and patted his cheek as a reminder, “Why don’t you eat some before going to sleep?”

Shi Yunnan didn’t move, and hummed, “I don’t have the strength.”

Luo Lingsheng instantly understood what he meant and chuckled, “Okay, I’ll feed you.”

After receiving the answer from his lover, Shi Yunnan simply closed his eyes again, just waiting for Luo Lingsheng to feed the moderately heated porridge into his mouth bit by bit, as if taking care of kindergarten children.

The burning pain in his stomach finally subsided. Shi Yunnan looked at Luo Lingsheng with half-closed eyes, “What time is it? I still want to sleep for a while longer.”

“It’s only eight in the morning, and you only slept for four or five hours.”

Not long ago, everything was so out of control. They hugged and loved each other as if nothing could separate them but death.

Luo Lingsheng knew that Shi Yunnan was still sleepy, so he didn’t force him to do anything to digest the food. He just accompanied him to lie down on the bed again, “Go to sleep; it’s okay to sleep until afternoon or night.”

Shi Yunnan subconsciously felt for Luo Lingsheng’s slender fingers and clasped them before muttering contentedly, “…husband.”

“Hm?”

“When we wake up, let’s buy a pair of rings. Don’t wait for me to design it. Xie Keyue was using this reason to pick on me…”

Shi Yunnan’s voice was still soft and mushy, “The more I think about it, the more angry I get.”

Outwardly he appeared tough and unyielding, but internally he was obedient and sometimes unreasonable. He was obviously sleepy, but he wouldn’t let go of this matter.

There was a hint of laughter in Luo Lingsheng’s eyes. He kissed his lips and said, “Yeah, let’s talk about it when you wake up.”

Shi Yunnan was so tired that he didn’t answer any more, and when Luo Lingsheng saw this, he also closed his eyes to rest.

The two of them embraced each other and slept.

When they woke up again, the sunset outside the window had already dyed half of the sky red.

Shi Yunnan was just about to stretch slightly, but in the next second, the comfort on his face turned into inexplicable pain.

His whole body was sore and swollen.

Luo Lingsheng rubbed his back and laughed, “Stop moving, I’ll rub it for you.”

Shi Yunnan took a deep breath and silently looked at Luo Lingsheng beside him.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”

“Thinking about what you said before.” Shi Yunnan replied.

In less than two days, too many things had happened to him. The mood swing and emotional roller coaster left his mind in a disorderly state.

Luo Lingsheng asked in a low voice, “Can you still remember? You forget a lot when you’re drunk.”

His words contained some other meanings.

“…..”

Shi Yunnan snorted and gave Luo Lingsheng the right to speak.

“Then talk about it, talk about…” he stopped to clear his throat and pointed out shyly, “Tell me about the white moonlight you’ve hidden in your heart.”

Luo Lingsheng teased him deliberately, “Didn’t you say you don’t care?”

—What white moonlight? You think I’m jealous?

—What am I jealous of? Do you think I care?

Shi Yunnan vaguely remembered this conversation, and his ears quickly dyed crimson.

Can you blame him for this?

He didn’t know in advance that the white moonlight would actually be him.

Alright now, all the jealousy, both overtly and secretly, has come back to him? It’s funny and bizarre.

“Are you going to tell me or not?”

“Alright.” Luo Lingsheng originally thought about returning to China and confessing everything, so now he naturally followed Shi Yunnan’s wishes, “I’ll tell you everything you want to hear.”

Shi Yunnan raised his eyebrows in satisfaction and took the initiative to ask curiously, “At my eighteenth birthday party, I met you when I was drunk, didn’t I?”

“Yes.”

“Then what happened?” Shi Yunnan continued to ask.

He had heard he was drunk, so he didn’t have the heart to look deeper into this first meeting, “… I wasn’t a good drinker at that time. You liked me because of my appearance, didn’t you?”

Luo Lingsheng chuckled, “I was dragged in by Yu Shuo that day. Later, I felt too bored, so I ran to the backyard to get some air, and ended up meeting a little drunkard.”

Luo Lingsheng recalled, “That was a person who, while drunk, said, “You’re so good-looking” and then rushed up to take my first kiss, only to vomit on the floor the next second.”

“cough.”

Shi Yunnan choked and stammered a little”W-was that the first time we met? That was it?”

“There’s more. Later, you even hugged me and cried so hard, saying you wanted to celebrate your birthday alone too.”

“I finally found a decent slice of cake, brought it to you and said ‘Happy Birthday’, and then you started crying after a few bites.”

Eighteen-year-old Shi Yunnan was really spoiled after being drunk.

“…..”