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Ye ishq nahi hai Asaan!

Time passed and Sidharth's feelings started Growing more and more!

Every time he used to look at her , he used to feel peace. Every time she used to smile , he used to feel happy. From childhood, he always loved her but now the love is changing he feels, it's not the love which best friends usually have. His heart is slowly falling with that kind of love with her. And he is scared of losing his best friend because of his feelings.

From childhood, sidharth was a overthinker. He was thinking that she doesn't feel for him in that way. What if he will tell her about his feelings and she will leave him!

They promised to be each other's best friend until eternity but he never thought suddenly one day, his heart will fall in love with his shehnaaz!

His heart had another kind of story to say. Maybe he always loved her, from the day she was born, from the day he first saw her. Maybe he was in love from the very beginning but could never understand. Maybe she is his first love, which he could never realize and now when he feels he has a certain kind of different feelings for his shehnaaz, his heart automatically says that she is his last love too.

Because he won't be able to love someone truly if he has already fallen in love with shehnaaz so deeply.

She always loves his attention. She loves to blabber about her whole day with the confidence that he will listen. She tells him every secret of her which she never tells anyone else.  He knows her better and she trusts him blindly. Before taking any kind of decision in her life, she always tells him. He is scared to lose the bond, the friendship, the comfort because of his feelings .

He won't be able to live with peace if she ignores him because she is a piece of his heart.

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His thoughts broke as shennaaz sat in his lap and cupped his face with her small hands.

Sana: kya soch raha hai tu?

Sid: kuch nahi baby. Tu kaab aayi?

Sana: bas abhi abhi aayi. Maine na tere se kuch bolna tha!!!

Sid: haan baby bol.

Sana: pehle tightly hug kar.

He smiled and hugged her tightly.

Sid: aab bol .

Sana: umm aaj College mein meko mere crush , raaj ne propose Kiya hai. Sab k saamne!! I am so happy.

As soon as she uttered those worlds. His lips trembled, his hands which were holding her tightly became loose.

He broke the hug making her confused.

Sana: kya hua? Meko jhappi daal k rakhna tha. Aa jaa hug kar.

He looked at her and very slowly whispered...

Sid: What was your answer to his proposal?

Sana:  ye bhi koi puchne ki baat hai? Obviously haan hi bolungi na sidhaaarth? Mera crush tha wo , crush propose kare toh koi bhi maana thodi e karta hai?

Sid: shehnaaz....you ....you are having a relationship now?

Sana: abhi relationship start nahi hua waise. Bas unhone propose kiya aur Maine haan kiya. Pehle ek dusre ko acche tareeke se janna parta hai buddhu. But ek tareeke se relationship ki shuruwaat toh ho hi gyi. I am not single anymore aur mai teko bhi aab single nahi rehne dungi. Tere liye ladki dhoondungi.

Sidharth kept looking at her, he didn't know what to say. He really didn't know. His heart was broken into pieces. As soon as he realized his love , she fell in love with someone else. What can be more tragic than this?

She kept blabbering about her crush who is now her boyfriend and he had just one thing to do, that was stare at her blankly.

Next morning, without meeting her, he went out of town , with an excuse of having an important meeting. Because he knew he would never be able to see his shennaaz with someone else. From childhood, he never could see her making another male friend. He was her only best friend but today she loves someone, and he is too coward to express his own feelings. He is helpless. He is scared. For a overthinker it's not easy to deal with these kind of emotions.

She came in his house to meet him but got to know that he is not at home,he has gone out of the town for a meeting. It made her sad because this was the first time he went somewhere without telling her.

Her eyes were filled with tears . She called him but he didn't pick up as he was not in a state of talking to her. With a heavy heart, he switched off the phone because he knew he won't be able to ignore her calls for a long time .

She went to his bedroom and hugged his pillow...

Sana; mai bohot naraj hoon sidhaaarth. Iss baar mai tere se bohot hurt hui hoon. Tu mere se mile bina kaise Chala gya? Meko forehead kissi de k bhi nahi gya hamesha ki Tarah. Kyun kiya aisa tune?

She cried until she slept in his room. Rita ji came with food but saw she was sleeping. She had no idea that Sidharth didn't meet sana before going Because Sidharth always used to meet her , give her a forehead kiss and a long hug before going somewhere. Rita ji thought that she is just sad because of Sidharth's absence.

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Here Sidharth was missing her so much. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to go back as he knew she must be crying. His baby, his shehnaaz will cry because of him , this thought made him upset .

He thought about going back home the next morning ..he was in a restaurant when he met his college friend mona .

Mona: oh my god sid!! What a pleasant surprise! How are youuu?

Sid: What's up mona! Nice to meet you!!!

Mona wanted to hug him but he just did a formal handshake because his best friend had warned her, " mere bina kabhi kisi ladki ko jhappi nahi dalega"!!!!

Mona:  yaha kya kar raha hai tu?

Sid: meeting tha ek. Bas kal jaa raha hoon wapas..

Mona: ohh! Sunna mujhe bhi le k jaa tere ghar.. I want to meet ritaaaaa aunty. Kaab se nahi dekha Maine unko .  Mai yaha waise bhi ek vacation pe aayi thi. Aab vacation khatam ho gya but maan nahi bhara. So please don't mind and take me to your home.

Sid: umm ok..I will pick you tomorrow from your hotel, cool?.

Mona: yeah absolutely..see youuu!!!

And she hugged him, then left. While he just stood there, with a poker face.

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The whole night he was only thinking about her, his best friend....

He knew she would be very angry with him. But he will have to take every punishment for hurting her. How could he just leave her like that.? It was not any solution .

Next morning when he reached home with mona, rita ji welcomed them .

Mona told rita ji that she met Sidharth in a restaurant and requested him to bring her here as she wanted to meet rita ji..

Rita ji smiled and made her sit in the sofa, then started talking.

Sidharth just wanted to meet his shennaaz as soon as possible.  He thought to change his clothes first and then he will go to meet her..

Sid: mom mai fresh ho k aata hoon .

Rita ji noded..

He was about to go to his room but he noticed sana who had come downstairs. Her eyes were swollen and red. She was looking pale. His heart started beating in an uneven pace after seeing her like this..

Rita ji: bohot accha hua mona beta ki tum yaha aa gyi. College mein tum Sidharthh ki bohot acchi dost thi. Khushi hui tumhe yaha dekh k.

Mona: college mein toh we were best of friends aunty!!! College k baad paata nahi aap ka beta kaha gayeb ho gya!! But see I found him again. Kehte hai na jinka kismaat mein milna hota hai wo mil hi jaate hai?

Sana took a deep breath. She never liked mona as she was Sidharth's friend in college days. Though she knew nobody can take her place but she was like that. She didn't want him to be with any other friend except her and he never really spent time with this Mona, that's what she knew till now.

But now mona seems very close to Sidharthh and his family. It pinched her heart.

She looked at him and her tears rolled down. He became worried and was about to hug her but she ran and left the house.

Rita ji: sana betaaa tujhe bukhar hai. Khana aur medicine kha k jaa baccha. Sanaaa!!!

But sana already went to her house and closed the door of her room.

Sidharth was shocked.

Sid: usko bukhar hai?.

Rita ji: haan beta kal raat se.

Sid: mom apne mujhe baataya kyun nahi?

Rita ji: maine call kiya tha beta. Tera phone switched off tha. Mujhe laga tu meeting mein hoga..

Sid: shit ....

He ran and went to her house. Pammi ji saw him ..

Pammi ji: beta aa gya tu? Meeting kaisi thi?

Sid: aunty i will talk to you later.

Pammi ji nodeed and went to the kitchen for making something for sidnaaz.

Here Sidharth started knocking sana's door.

Sid: baby please open the door. I am sorry. Please meri jaan darwaza khol.

She was crying and crying...

Sana: wo mona Teri best friend hai? Toh fir mai kya hoon! Tu usko ghar laane k liye out of town gya tha? Mere se mile bina kaise Chala gya tu? Mere calls bhi nahi uthaye tune .

Sid: please baby maat ro. Shennaaz mera dil baitha jaa raha hai. Please ek baar darwaza khol . Fir tujhe jo saja deni hai tu de dena . Please.

Sana:. Nahi maine nahi kholna. Meko tere se koi baat nahi karni sidhaarth.

Sid: sana darwaza khol tujhe meri kasam .

He had to use this word kasam because he knew she would surely open the door now. All he wanted to do was hug her tighly and cure all her pain .

She opened the door. He entered inside and hugged her tightly...

Sana: I am sorry baby.

She cried and he cupped her face. Her body was burning in fever. He freaked out and took her in his arms.

He sat on her bed, took her in his lap and covered themselves with the quilt.

She was angry with him but didn't stop him from doing all this because she knew he has the rights.

Hugging her tightly, he was trying to give her all the warmth .

Sid: baby itna bukhar kaise ho gya tujhe?.

She looked at him with teary eyes.

Sana: tu mil k nahi gya tha .... forehead kissi bhi nahi di thi. Teko paata hai na tu nahi hota toh mai bimar ho jaati hoon? Fir tune mere se ek baar call pe bhi baat nahi kara..

She cried loudly while his heart cried with her.

He just hates her tears.

He kissed those precious tears and kept kissing her head, hugging her tightly .

Sid: I am so sorry meri jaan. Aage se kabhi aisa nahi hoga!! Mai promise karta hoon kuch bhi ho jaye tujhe bina baataye kahi nahi jaunga. Aur Mona Meri best friend nahi hai. Mona kya, tere ilawa koi aur mera best friend nahi hai. Tu meri sab kuch hai.

She looked at him with a pout, her eyes were still teary.

Sana: promise?

Sid: promise my baby!!!

She snuggled in his warmth making him smile. Gosh he was freaking out when she was not talking to him .

Sid: baby mai tere liye khana aur medicine le k aata hoon .

Sana: nahi thodi der aise hi rehna hai meko. Tightly hug kar k rakh meko.

He hugged her as tightly as he could. She had a high fever and he could feel that too because of the hug..

They were lost in each other's warmth when suddenly Sana's phone rang.

Sidharth saw raaj was calling. His hold became tight around her waist.

Sana: kon hai?

Sid: um ..raaj.

Sana: oh. Tu nahi tha yaha pe toh mai usse bhi baat nahi kar rahi thi. Phone utha k speaker pe rakh.

Sid: nahi tu baat kar le. Mai khana le k aata hoon.

Sana: idhar hi baith. Meko accha lag raha hai . Phone utha k speaker pe rakh le. Tere saamne mai kisi se bhi baat kar saakti hoon. Chahe wo mera boyfriend hi kyun na ho..

His jaw was clenched and heart was angry with that particular " boyfriend" word but he obeyed her and kept the call on speaker after picking it up.

Raj: hello darling....phone kyun nahi utha rahi thi tum?

Sid fisted his palms.

Sana: meko bukhar tha raj. Issliye sorry.

Raj: arey bukhar kaise ho gya tumhe babe? Acchaaa aram karo...mai tumhare favourite flowers aur choclates bhej raha hoon..

Sana smiled and said ...

Sana: thik hai.

Raj: take care babe. Love you.

Sana: Love....

Sidharth held her chin harshly making her shut and then cut the call.

She looked at him confusingly and said...

Sana: kya hua?

Sid: kya bolne jaa rahi thi tu?

Sana: um.. love you too.

Sid: nahi bolegi tu usko love you.

Sana: kyun?

Sid; kyun ki mai bol raha hoon .

He said possessively and for the first time she noticed a different emotion in his eyes.

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Zubi 🐦