"Hello", I croak in the phone. I sit up in my bed and I can't help but groan loudly. We did a EMDR session this morning and I was exhausted after, so I went straight to bed. My headache is even worse than this morning. It feels like I've been hit by a truck.
"Julie.. finally", I hear Fabio's voice in my ear.
"Oh, hi! What time is it?", I ask, rubbing my eyes.
"It's 5. I've been trying to reach you the whole afternoon. You didn't answer my texts or calls", he tells me. His voice a little worried.
"I've been sleeping, sorry. Is something wrong?"
"No, I was just worried about you. I wanted to know how it went this morning", Fabio says, I hear voices in the background before it's quiet again.
"It went good. It seriously really helped, but I was exhausted after and had a bad headache, so went straight to bed again", I tell him. I hear more voices around him. "Where are you?"
"That's good. Hope you feel better now. I'm actually at Fred's. We are working on a sick design for my gloves and boots for Misano", his voice shifts from worried to happy and excited.
"Wow, really? I can't wait to see", I say enthusiastic.
"Hey, I was thinking", Fabio starts, "I'm having dinner with Fred, Ralph, Estelle, Tom and Mathilde tomorrow. Would you like to join us?"
"Hmm.. Shit. I would love to, but I'm having a doctors appointment Wednesday morning. So that's not possible, sorry", I tell him a little disappointed. "I can come after that Wednesday in Nice or Andorra, wherever you will be"
"Wait.. doctors appointment?", Fabio asks confused.
"Yeah, but nothing important. Just um.. female stuff", I try to dismiss. It's not really sexy to tell your boyfriend, you're gonna have an ultrasound inside you to check on your uterus and cervix because of heavy bleeding.
"Okay, so Wednesday? What time can you leave?", Fabio asks, changing the subject back to our plan on spending a few days together.
"Well my doctors appointment is at 9. And it's in Groningen. So right after"
"So, plane around 10? I can arrange it to go to Nice first and then we can go to Andorra together. I was planning on leaving Wednesday as well, so for me that would be perfect", I can hear him smile through his words.
"Sounds perfect for me as well, babe", I dare to say. I normally don't really use nicknames, but I like this one, especially for Fabio.
I hear Fabio make a little surprised sound. "Babe? Really?"
"Yeah, I like it", I smile.
"Hmm.. okay", I hear him chuckle softly. "I'll let you know about the details. Can't wait for Wednesday. Miss you, Ma Chérie"
"See you soon, ciao"
The call ends and I fall back on the bed. I need to pack some things for Andorra and for Italy. I don't have anything left in Andorra anymore. I took everything with me last time. Last time I left I felt so different. I'm more steady right now. My emotions aren't all over the place and I feel much calmer. I hope I can really enjoy my stay in Andorra this time.
Tuesday is filled with matching outfits, trying them on and packing. I want to take some of my new clothes. I'm wearing clothes my own size again and trying to wear anything I like. Not thinking about what other people will think about it. I'm not always succeeding but I'm really trying.
Wednesday I put everything in my car and drive to the hospital first. The ultrasound isn't as bad as I imagined. The woman is sweet and she gives me medicine to stop the bleeding immediately. She can't really see anything because of the amount of blood, but tells me it's most likely an inflammation. I get medicine for that as well and she makes me promise not to have sex for another week.
I feel the need to jump Fabio as soon as I see him, so I am really disappointed. But at the same time I'm really glad it's not something bad.
I rush to the airport and get to the plane, ready to see my boyfriend again.
It's a small private plane and it's amazing. I ask the flight attendant for some privacy and quickly change into something else. It's hot outside and I'm still wearing long warm jeans. So I change in a white top and some brown shorts and slippers.
My necklace falls in my cleavage and its really beautiful. I've bought a new necklace for myself, a white gold one with a small heart. It's hanging a little higher around my neck. I bought Fabio a new necklace as well. It's a small gift. He was complaining about his cross necklace, because the clasp is almost broken. So I bought a new one in white gold. I hope he likes it and it's not too cheap or anything.
Before I know it, I need to sit and fasten my seat belt again. We are almost in Nice! I instantly feel a little nervous, but also excited. Just by the though of Fabio, butterflies erupt in my stomach.
The plane lands and as soon as the doors open, Fabio gets in. Only a small leather bag in hand, his sunglasses on his nose, he looks so attractive like this.. A smile instantly comes on my face and I immediately stand up to hug and kiss him. He smiles when he sees me and walks towards me, dropping his bag to the floor and pulling me in his arms.
Although it only were three night, I really missed him. I breath in his wood like, minty scent.
"Hi", I whisper softly, "I missed you"
"I missed you too. Happy to spend the next few days with you", he slowly let's go of me, so we can sit down.
We sit and fasten our seat belts and Fabio nods to the flight attendant, indicating that we're ready. The plane roars to life immediately.
"You look beautiful. Is that a new necklace?", Fabio's eyes are on me again, his hand holding mine and a smile on his face. He looks really happy and content.
"Yeah. Bought it yesterday. I actually have something for you as well", I blush a little. With my free hand I search my bag for the small gift.
"It's not much.. and if you don't like it, I can return it for something else. It's probably not what you're used to, but it's the most I could afford. If you want something more expensive, I can save some more money, before buying you something else. I don't know, it's stupid, I should just return it. Sorry, at the moment I thought it was a good idea.. I should've known better", I ramble. Fabio has the box still closed in his hands, looking at me with furrowed brows.
"So can I open it?", he asks. I reluctantly nod, looking out of the window. I don't have to see the disappointed look in his eyes. It's quiet for a few moments.
"So.. you bought me a white gold necklace with a cross pendant and you think I wouldn't want it?", He asks slowly. I look at him, to see him holding the card that's inside with information about the white gold and the necklace. "How spoiled do you think I am?"
"You only wear jewellery with diamonds. But you were complaining about the clasp of you cross necklace, and this was the next best thing I could afford..", I look down. Who could've thought white gold is so expensive.
"Well, it's way too much. You know, this necklace", pulling out his cross necklace from under his shirt, "it's just simply steel. And although I like it, a lot, it's way too much. You didn't have to buy me something so expensive", he tells me carefully.
Oh.. now I made a fool out of myself, by suggesting he's spoiled.
"I don't think you're spoiled. I just think you can afford the best things in the world. And I can't, but I want to buy you a gift every now and then", I tell him my insecurities.
"You know you don't have to get me any gifts.. but I am just as happy with normal stuff, instead of expensive stuff. I know I spend a lot, but I don't really need it. I would gladly throw it all away, if it means I could spend my entire life with you", he says, pulling me in a soft kiss. It's so sweet, I feel butterflies and tingles everywhere.
"Thank you. I love it", he mumbles against my lips.
I pull away a little, to look at him, "I know you are Christian, so I took it to the church, where I was baptised when I was a baby. And I got it consecrated", I blush a little when I tell him.
"You did that? For me?"
"Yeah. When I'm home on a Sunday, I actually go to church. I like it and it gives me some peace", I say with a small smile and a blush. I like going there. People don't really know me and I don't have any contact with the priest or anything, outside of the consecration he did for me. But it gives me some peace, just sitting there, praying, thinking about the past few days or weeks.
"That's really special, thank you", he takes my hands and kisses both of them. "I would be honoured to wear it"
He pulls off his other cross necklace, not caring if it breaks completely and carefully puts this one on. It's a little longer, so he can pull it over his head as well if he wants.
When you see it, you don't see something special, but to me it is. And it looks so damn sexy.
I pull him a little towards me and close the space between our lips. It's a heated, sloppy kiss. Fabio pulls my leg over his and tries to pull me on his lap. I break the kiss, we still are in public.
"You wanna join the mile high club with me?", Fabio whispers in my ear. It sounds so sexy, it gives me goosebumps and shivers down my spine.
"Shit.. no I can't. The doctor told me no sex for a week", I groan and slumb back in my seat. "I've got some antibiotics because they think the blood is coming from a inflammation". I still feel embarrassed, talking about it. Plus, I'm letting him down. We have like five days together and we can't do any of that. Yeah, I can help him out, but that's it.
"I thought it wasn't serious?", his voice and face has concern all over it.
"It isn't, really. It's just because of the hormone medicines. It happens. They told me I most likely couldn't get a period for the next six months and if I started bleeding I needed to come check it out. So I did", I explain, "but can we please change this subject? I feel disgusting already and this doesn't make that any better"
Fabio nods. "But you'll tell me if anything is wrong right? We can talk about this stuff", he's still looking concerned.
"Fabio, trust me. I am good. If something is wrong with my health or anything, you are the first to know. Please stop worrying about me. All my scans look good. But I don't really want to talk about this disgusting thing, with my boyfriend, who really needs to think that I'm sexy and not disgusting", I tell him blushing.
"You are definitely sexy. Especially in these clothes. You know I can never contain myself", he tells me, brushing a few strands of hair out of my face. "Je t'aime, Ma Chérie"
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Hello everyone,
Another update from me.
Hope you're still liking it.
I've decided to end the book by the end of the season. I don't know if I keep the results as they are or change some things from the real life results.
What do you think about a sequel?? Thoughts? Yes? No?
Please tell me.
xxx