Fifty Shades of Grey: Chapter 3
Fifty Shades of Grey (Fifty Shades, Book 1)
Kate is ecstatic.
âBut what was he doing at Claytonâs?â Her curiosity oozes through the phone. Iâm in the depths of the stock room, trying to keep my voice casual.
âHe was in the area.â
âI think that is one huge coincidence, Ana. You donât think he was there to see you?â
she speculates. My heart lurches at the prospect, but itâs a short-lived joy. The dull, disappointing reality is that he was here on business.
âHe was visiting the farming division of WSU. Heâs funding some research,â I mutter.
âOh yes. Heâs given the department a $2.5 million grant.â
Wow.
âHow do you know this?â
âAna, Iâm a journalist, and Iâve written a profile on the guy. Itâs my job to know this.â
âOkay, Carla Bernstein, keep your hair on. So do you want these photos?â
âOf course I do. The question is, whoâs going to do them and where.â
âWe could ask him where. He says heâs staying in the area.â
âYou can contact him?â
âI have his cell phone number.â
Kate gasps.
âThe richest, most elusive, most enigmatic bachelor in Washington State, just gave you his cell phone number.â
âEr⦠yes.â
âAna! He likes you. No doubt about it.â Her tone is emphatic.
âKate, heâs just trying to be nice.â But even as I say the words, I know theyâre not true â Christian Grey doesnât do nice. He does polite, maybe. And a small quiet voice whispers, perhaps Kate is right. My scalp prickles at the idea that maybe, just maybe, he might like me. After all, he did say he was glad Kate didnât do the interview. I hug myself with quiet glee, rocking from side to side, entertaining the possibility that he might like me for one brief moment. Kate brings me back to the now.
âI donât know who weâll get to do the shoot. Levi, our regular photographer, canât.
Heâs home in Idaho Falls for the weekend. Heâll be pissed that he blew an opportunity to photo one of Americaâs leading entrepreneurs.â
âHmm⦠What about José?â
âGreat idea! You ask him â heâll do anything for you. Then call Grey and find out where he wants us.â Kate is irritatingly cavalier about José.
âI think you should call him.â
âWho, José?â Kate scoffs.
âNo, Grey.â
âAna, youâre the one with the relationship.â
âRelationship?â I squeak at her, my voice rising several octaves. âI barely know the guy.ââAt least youâve met him,â she says bitterly. âAnd it looks like he wants to know you better. Ana, just call him,â she snaps and hangs up. She is so bossy sometimes. I frown at my cell, sticking my tongue out at it.
Iâm just leaving a message for José when Paul enters the stock room looking for sand-paper.
âWeâre kind of busy out there, Ana,â he says without acrimony.
âYeah, um, sorry,â I mutter, turning to leave.
âSo, how come you know Christian Grey?â Paulâs voice is unconvincingly nonchalant.
âI had to interview him for our student newspaper. Kate wasnât well.â I shrug, trying to sound casual and doing no better than him.
âChristian Grey in Claytonâs. Go figure,â Paul snorts, amazed. He shakes his head as if to clear it. âAnyway, want to grab a drink or something this evening?â
Whenever heâs home he asks me on a date, and I always say no. Itâs a ritual. Iâve never considered it a good idea to date the bossâs brother, and besides, Paul is cute in a whole-some all-American boy-next-door kind of way, but heâs no literary hero, not by any stretch of the imagination. Is Grey? My subconscious asks me, her eyebrow figuratively raised.
I slap her down.
âDonât you have a family dinner or something for your brother?â
âThatâs tomorrow.â
âMaybe some other time, Paul. I need to study tonight. I have my finals next week.â
âAna, one of these days, youâll say yes,â he smiles as I escape out to the store floor.
âBut I do places, Ana, not people,â José groans.
âJosé, please?â I beg. Clutching my cell, I pace the living area of our apartment, staring out of the window at the fading evening light.
âGive me that phone.â Kate grabs the handset from me, tossing her silken red-blonde hair over her shoulder.
âListen here, José Rodriquez, if you want our newspaper to cover the opening of your show, youâll do this shoot for us tomorrow, capiche?â Kate can be awesomely tough.
âGood. Ana will call back with the location and the call time. Weâll see you tomorrow.â She snaps my cell phone shut.
âSorted. All we need to do now is decide where and when. Call him.â She holds the phone out to me. My stomach twists.
âCall Grey, now!â
I scowl at her and reach into my back pocket for his business card. I take a deep, steadying breath, and with shaking fingers, I dial the number.
He answers on the second ring. His tone is clipped, calm and cold.
âGrey.â
âErr⦠Mr. Grey? Itâs Anastasia Steele.â I donât recognize my own voice, Iâm so nervous. Thereâs a brief pause. Inside Iâm quaking.
âMiss Steele. How nice to hear from you.â His voice has changed. Heâs surprised, I think, and he sounds so⦠warm â seductive even. My breath hitches, and I flush. Iâm suddenly conscious that Katherine Kavanagh is staring at me, her mouth open, and I dart into the kitchen to avoid her unwanted scrutiny.
âErr â weâd like to go ahead with the photo-shoot for the article.â Breathe, Ana, breathe.
My lungs drag in a hasty breath. âTomorrow, if thatâs okay. Where would be convenient for you, sir?â
I can almost hear his sphinx-like smile through the phone.
âIâm staying at the Heathman in Portland. Shall we say, nine thirty tomorrow morning?ââOkay, weâll see you there.â I am all gushing and breathy â like a child, not a grown woman who can vote and drink legally in the State of Washington.
âI look forward to it, Miss Steele.â I visualize the wicked gleam in his gray eyes. How can he make seven little words hold so much tantalizing promise? I hang up. Kate is in the kitchen, and sheâs staring at me with a look of complete and utter consternation on her face.
âAnastasia Rose Steele. You like him! Iâve never seen or heard you so, so⦠affected by anyone before. Youâre actually blushing.â
âOh Kate, you know I blush all the time. Itâs an occupational hazard with me. Donât be so ridiculous,â I snap. She blinks at me with surprise â I very rarely throw my toys out of the pram â and I briefly relent. âI just find him⦠intimidating, thatâs all.â
âHeathman, that figures,â mutters Kate. âIâll give the manager a call and negotiate a space for the shoot.â
âIâll make supper. Then I need to study.â I cannot hide my irritation with her as I open one of cupboards to make supper.
I am restless that night, tossing and turning. Dreaming of smoky gray eyes, coveralls, long legs, long fingers, and dark, dark unexplored places. I wake twice in the night, my heart pounding. Oh, Iâm going to look just great tomorrow with so little sleep, I scold myself. I punch my pillow and try to settle.
The Heathman is nestled in the downtown heart of Portland. Its impressive brown stone edifice was completed just in time for the crash of the late 1920s. José, Travis, and I are traveling in my Beetle, and Kate is in her CLK, since we canât all fit in my car. Travis is Joséâs friend and gopher, here to help out with the lighting. Kate has managed to acquire the use of a room at the Heathman free of charge for the morning in exchange for a credit in the article. When she explains at reception that weâre here to photograph Christian Grey CEO, we are instantly upgraded to a suite. Just a regular-sized suite, however, as apparently Mr. Grey is already occupying the largest one in the building. An over-keen marketing executive shows us up to the suite â heâs terribly young and very nervous for some reason.
I suspect itâs Kateâs beauty and commanding manner that disarms him, because heâs putty in her hands. The rooms are elegant, understated, and opulently furnished.
Itâs nine. We have half an hour to set up. Kate is in full flow.
âJosé, I think weâll shoot against that wall, do you agree?â She doesnât wait for his reply. âTravis, clear the chairs. Ana, could you ask housekeeping to bring up some refresh-ments? And let Grey know where we are.â
Yes, Mistress. She is so domineering. I roll my eyes, but do as Iâm told.
Half an hour later, Christian Grey walks into our suite.
Holy Crap! Heâs wearing a white shirt, open at the collar, and grey flannel pants that hang from his hips. His unruly hair is still damp from a shower. My mouth goes dry looking at him⦠heâs so freaking hot. Grey is followed into the suite by a man in his mid-thirties, all buzz-cut and stubble in a sharp dark suit and tie who stands silently in the corner. His hazel eyes watch us impassively.
âMiss Steele, we meet again.â Grey extends his hand, and I shake it, blinking rapidly.
Oh my⦠he really is, quite⦠wow. As I touch his hand, Iâm aware of that delicious current running right through me, lighting me up, making me blush, and Iâm sure my erratic breathing must be audible.
âMr. Grey, this is Katherine Kavanagh,â I mutter, waving a hand toward Kate who comes forward, looking him squarely in the eye.
âThe tenacious Miss Kavanagh. How do you do?â He gives her a small smile, looking genuinely amused. âI trust youâre feeling better? Anastasia said you were unwell last week.â
âIâm fine, thank you, Mr. Grey.â She shakes his hand firmly without batting an eyelid.
I remind myself that Kate has been to the best private schools in Washington. Her family has money, and sheâs grown up confident and sure of her place in the world. She doesnât take any crap. I am in awe of her.
âThank you for taking the time to do this.â She gives him a polite, professional smile.
âItâs a pleasure,â he answers, turning his gray gaze on me, and I flush, again. Damn it.
âThis is José Rodriguez, our photographer,â I say, grinning at José who smiles with affection back at me. His eyes cool when he looks from me to Grey.
âMr. Grey,â he nods.
âMr. Rodriguez,â Greyâs expression changes too as he appraises José.
âWhere would you like me?â Grey asks him. His tone sounds vaguely threatening. But Katherine is not about to let José run the show.
âMr. Grey â if you could sit here, please? Be careful of the lighting cables. And then weâll do a few standing, too.â She directs him to a chair set up against the wall.
Travis switches on the lights, momentarily blinding Grey, and mutters an apology.
Then Travis and I stand back and watch as José proceeds to snap away. He takes several photographs hand-held, asking Grey to turn this way, then that, to move his arm, then put it down again. Moving to the tripod, José takes several more, while Grey sits and poses, patiently and naturally, for about twenty minutes. My wish has come true: I can stand and admire Grey from not-so-afar. Twice our eyes lock, and I have to tear myself away from his cloudy gaze.
âEnough sitting.â Katherine wades in again. âStanding, Mr. Grey?â she asks.
He stands, and Travis scurries in to remove the chair. The shutter on Joséâs Nikon starts clicking again.
âI think we have enough,â José announces five minutes later.
âGreat,â says Kate. âThank you again, Mr. Grey.â She shakes his hand, as does José.
âI look forward to reading the article, Miss Kavanagh,â murmurs Grey, and turns to me, standing by the door. âWill you walk with me, Miss Steele?â he asks.
âSure,â I say, completely thrown. I glance anxiously at Kate, who shrugs at me. I notice José scowling behind her.
âGood day to you all,â says Grey as he opens the door, standing aside to allow me out first.
Holy hell⦠whatâs this about? What does he want? I pause in the hotel corridor, fidgeting nervously as Grey emerges from the room followed by Mr. Buzz-Cut in his sharp suit.
âIâll call you, Taylor,â he murmurs to Buzz-Cut. Taylor wanders back down the corridor, and Grey turns his burning gray gaze to me. Crap⦠have I done something wrong?
âI wondered if you would join me for coffee this morning.â
My heart slams into my mouth. A date? Christian Grey is asking me on a date. Heâs asking if you want a coffee. Maybe he thinks you havenât woken up yet, my subconscious whines at me in a sneering mood again. I clear my throat trying to control my nerves.
âI have to drive everyone home,â I murmur apologetically, twisting my hands and fingers in front of me.
âTAYLOR,â he calls, making me jump. Taylor, who had been retreating down the corridor, turns and heads back toward us.
âAre they based at the university?â Grey asks, his voice soft and inquiring. I nod, too stunned to speak.
âTaylor can take them. Heâs my driver. We have a large 4Ã4 here, so heâll be able to take the equipment too.â
âMr. Grey?â Taylor asks when he reaches us, giving nothing away.
âPlease, can you drive the photographer, his assistant, and Miss Kavanagh back home?â
âCertainly, sir,â Taylor replies.
âThere. Now can you join me for coffee?â Grey smiles as if itâs a done deal.
I frown at him.
âUm â Mr. Grey, err â this really⦠look, Taylor doesnât have to drive them home.â I flash a brief look at Taylor, who remains stoically impassive. âIâll swap vehicles with Kate, if you give me a moment.â
Grey smiles a dazzling, unguarded, natural, all-teeth-showing, glorious smile. Oh my⦠and he opens the door of the suite so I can re-enter. I scoot around him to enter the room, finding Katherine in deep discussion with José.
âAna, I think he definitely likes you,â she says with no preamble whatsoever. José glares at me with disapproval. âBut I donât trust him,â she adds. I raise my hand up in the hope that sheâll stop talking. By some miracle, she does.
âKate, if you take the Beetle, can I take your car?â
âWhy?â
âChristian Grey has asked me to go for coffee with him.â
Her mouth pops open. Speechless Kate! I savor the moment. She grabs me by my arm and drags me into the bedroom thatâs off the living area of the suite.
âAna, thereâs something about him.â Her tone is full of warning. âHeâs gorgeous, I agree, but I think heâs dangerous. Especially to someone like you.â
âWhat do you mean, someone like me?â I demand, affronted.
âAn innocent like you, Ana. You know what I mean,â she says a little irritated. I flush.
âKate, itâs just coffee. Iâm starting my exams this week, and I need to study, so I wonât be long.â
She purses her lips as if considering my request. Finally, she fishes her car keys out of her pocket and hands them to me. I hand her mine.
âIâll see you later. Donât be long, or Iâll send out search and rescue.â
âThanks.â I hug her.
I emerge from the suite to find Christian Grey waiting, leaning up against the wall, looking like a male model in a pose for some glossy high-end magazine.
âOkay, letâs do coffee,â I murmur, flushing a beet red.
He grins.
âAfter you, Miss Steele.â He stands up straight, holding his hand out for me to go first.
I make my way down the corridor, my knees shaky, my stomach full of butterflies, and my heart in my mouth thumping a dramatic uneven beat. I am going to have coffee with Christian Grey⦠and I hate coffee.
We walk together down the wide hotel corridor to the elevators. What should I say to him? My mind is suddenly paralyzed with apprehension. What are we going to talk about?
What on Earth do I have in common with him? His soft, warm voice startles me from my reverie.
âHow long have you known Katherine Kavanagh?â
Oh, an easy questions for starters.
âSince our freshman year. Sheâs a good friend.â
âHmm,â he replies, non-committal. What is he thinking?
At the elevators, he presses the call button, and the bell rings almost immediately. The doors slide open revealing a young couple in a passionate clinch inside. Surprised and embarrassed, they jump apart, staring guiltily in every direction but ours. Grey and I step into the elevator.
I am struggling to maintain a straight face, so I gaze down at the floor, feeling my cheeks turning pink. When I peek up at Grey through my lashes, he has a hint of a smile on his lips, but itâs very hard to tell. The young couple says nothing, and we travel down to the first floor in embarrassed silence. We donât even have trashy piped music to distract us.
The doors open and, much to my surprise, Grey takes my hand, clasping it with his long cool fingers. I feel the current run through me, and my already rapid heartbeat accelerates. As he leads me out of the elevator, we can hear the suppressed giggles of the couple erupting behind us. Grey grins.
âWhat is it about elevators?â he mutters.
We cross the expansive, bustling lobby of the hotel toward the entrance but Grey avoids the revolving door, and I wonder if thatâs because heâd have to let go of my hand.
Outside, itâs a mild May Sunday. The sun is shining and the traffic is light. Grey turns left and strolls to the corner, where we stop waiting for the lights of the pedestrian crossing to change. Heâs still holding my hand. Iâm in the street, and Christian Grey is holding my hand. No one has ever held my hand. I feel giddy, and I tingle all over. I attempt to smother the ridiculous grin that threatens to split my face in two. Try to be cool, Ana, my subconscious implores me. The green man appears, and weâre off again.
We walk four blocks before we reach the Portland Coffee House, where Grey releases me to hold the door open so I can step inside.
âWhy donât you choose a table, while I get the drinks. What would you like?â he asks, polite as ever.
âIâll have⦠um â English Breakfast tea, bag out.â
He raises his eyebrows.
âNo coffee?â
âIâm not keen on coffee.â
He smiles.
âOkay, bag out tea. Sugar?â
For a moment, Iâm stunned, thinking itâs an endearment, but fortunately my subconscious kicks in with pursed lips. No, stupid â do you take sugar?
âNo thanks.â I stare down at my knotted fingers.
âAnything to eat?â
âNo thank you.â I shake my head, and he heads to the counter.
I surreptitiously gaze at him from beneath my lashes as he stands in line waiting to be served. I could watch him all day⦠heâs tall, broad-shouldered, and slim, and the way those pants hang from his hipsâ¦Â Oh my. Once or twice he runs his long, graceful fingers through his now dry but still disorderly hair. Hmm⦠Iâd like to do that. The thought comes unbidden into my mind, and my face flames. I bite my lip and stare down at my hands again not liking where my wayward thoughts are headed.
âPenny for your thoughts?â Grey is back, startling me.
I go crimson. I was just thinking about running my fingers through your hair and wondering if it would feel soft to touch. I shake my head. Heâs carrying a tray, which he sets down on the small, round, birch-veneer table. He hands me a cup and saucer, a small teapot, and a side plate bearing a lone teabag labeled âTwinings English Breakfastâ â my favorite. He has a coffee which bears a wonderful leaf-pattern imprinted in the milk. How do they do that? I wonder idly. Heâs also bought himself a blueberry muffin. Putting the tray aside, he sits opposite me and crosses his long legs. He looks so comfortable, so at ease with his body, I envy him. Hereâs me, all gawky and uncoordinated, barely able to get from A to B without falling flat on my face.
âYour thoughts?â he prompts me.
âThis is my favorite tea.â My voice is quiet, breathy. I simply canât believe Iâm sitting opposite Christian Grey in a coffee shop in Portland. He frowns. He knows Iâm hiding something. I pop the teabag into the teapot and almost immediately fish it out again with my teaspoon. As I place the used teabag back on the side plate, he cocks his head gazing quizzically at me.
âI like my tea black and weak,â I mutter as an explanation.
âI see. Is he your boyfriend?â
Whoa⦠What?
âWho?â
âThe photographer. José Rodriguez.â
I laugh, nervous but curious. What gave him that impression?
âNo. Joséâs a good friend of mine, thatâs all. Why did you think he was my boyfriend?â
âThe way you smiled at him, and he at you.â His gray gaze holds mine. Heâs so unnerving. I want to look away but Iâm caught â spellbound.
âHeâs more like family,â I whisper.
Grey nods slightly, seemingly satisfied with my response, and glances down at his blueberry muffin. His long fingers deftly peel back the paper, and I watch, fascinated.
âDo you want some?â he asks, and that amused, secret smile is back.
âNo thanks.â I frown and stare down at my hands again.
âAnd the boy I met yesterday, at the store. Heâs not your boyfriend?â
âNo. Paulâs just a friend. I told you yesterday.â Oh, this is getting silly. âWhy do you ask?ââYou seem nervous around men.â
Holy crap, thatâs personal. Iâm just nervous around you, Grey.
âI find you intimidating.â I flush scarlet, but mentally pat myself on the back for my candor, and gaze at my hands again. I hear his sharp intake of breath.
âYou should find me intimidating,â he nods. âYouâre very honest. Please donât look down. I like to see your face.â
Oh. I glance at him, and he gives me an encouraging but wry smile.
âIt gives me some sort of clue what you might be thinking,â he breathes. âYouâre a mystery, Miss Steele.
Mysterious? Me?
âThereâs nothing mysterious about me.â
âI think youâre very self-contained,â he murmurs.
Am I? Wow⦠how am I managing that? This is bewildering. Me, self-contained?
No Way.
âExcept when you blush, of course, which is often. I just wish I knew what you were blushing about.â He pops a small piece of muffin into his mouth and starts to chew it slowly, not taking his eyes off me. And as if on cue, I blush. Crap!
âDo you always make such personal observations?â
âI hadnât realized I was. Have I offended you?â He sounds surprised.
âNo,â I answer truthfully.
âGood.â
âBut youâre very high-handed,â I retaliate quietly.
He raises his eyebrows and, if Iâm not mistaken, he flushes slightly too.
âIâm used to getting my own way, Anastasia,â he murmurs. âIn all things.â
âI donât doubt it. Why havenât you asked me to call you by your first name?â Iâm surprised by my audacity. Why has this conversation become so serious? This isnât going the way I thought it was going to go. I canât believe Iâm feeling so antagonistic towards him.
Itâs like heâs trying to warn me off.
âThe only people who use my given name are my family and a few close friends.
Thatâs the way I like it.â
Oh. He still hasnât said, âCall me Christian.â He is a control freak, thereâs no other explanation, and part of me is thinking maybe it would have been better if Kate had interviewed him. Two control freaks together. Plus of course sheâs almost blonde â well, strawberry blonde â like all the women in his office. And sheâs beautiful, my subconscious reminds me. I donât like the idea of Christian and Kate. I take a sip of my tea, and Grey eats another small piece of his muffin.
âAre you an only child?â he asks.
Whoa⦠he keeps changing direction.
âYes.â
âTell me about your parents.â
Why does he want to know this? Itâs so dull.
âMy mom lives in Georgia with her new husband Bob. My stepdad lives in Montesano.â
âYour father?â
âMy father died when I was a baby.â
âIâm sorry,â he mutters and a fleeting troubled look crosses his face.
âI donât remember him.â
âAnd your mother remarried?â
I snort.
âYou could say that.â
He frowns at me.
âYouâre not giving much away, are you?â he says dryly, rubbing his chin as if in deep thought.
âNeither are you.â
âYouâve interviewed me once already, and I can recollect some quite probing questions then.â He smirks at me.
Holy shit. Heâs remembering the âgayâ question. Once again, Iâm mortified. In years to come, I know, Iâll need intensive therapy to not feel this embarrassed every time I recall the moment. I start babbling about my mother â anything to block that memory.
âMy mom is wonderful. Sheâs an incurable romantic. Sheâs currently on her fourth husband.â
Christian raises his eyebrows in surprise.
âI miss her,â I continue. âShe has Bob now. I just hope he can keep an eye on her and pick up the pieces when her harebrained schemes donât go as planned.â I smile fondly. I havenât seen my mom for so long. Christian is watching me intently, taking occasional sips of his coffee. I really shouldnât look at his mouth. Itâs unsettling. Those lips.
âDo you get along with your stepfather?â
âOf course. I grew up with him. Heâs the only father I know.â
âAnd whatâs he like?â
âRay? Heâs⦠taciturn.â
âThatâs it?â Grey asks, surprised.
I shrug. What does this man expect? My life story?
âTaciturn like his stepdaughter,â Grey prompts.
I refrain from rolling my eyes at him.
âHe likes soccer â European soccer especially â and bowling, and fly-fishing, and making furniture. Heâs a carpenter. Ex-army.â I sigh.
âYou lived with him?â
âYes. My mom met Husband Number Three when I was fifteen. I stayed with Ray.â
He frowns as if he doesnât understand.
âYou didnât want to live with your mom?â he asks.
I blush. This really is none of his business.
âHusband Number Three lived in Texas. My home was in Montesano. And⦠you know my mom was newly married.â I stop. My mom never talks about Husband Number Three. Where is Grey going with this? This is none of his business. Two can play at this game.
âTell me about your parents,â I ask.
He shrugs.
âMy dadâs a lawyer, my mom is a pediatrician. They live in Seattle.â
Oh⦠heâs had an affluent upbringing. And I wonder about a successful couple who adopt three kids, and one of them turns into a beautiful man who takes on the business world and conquers it single-handed. What drove him to be that way? His folks must be proud.
âWhat do your siblings do?â
âElliotâs in construction, and my little sister is in Paris, studying cookery under some renowned French chef.â His eyes cloud with irritation. He doesnât want to talk about his family or himself.
âI hear Paris is lovely,â I murmur. Why doesnât he want to talk about his family? Is it because heâs adopted?
âItâs beautiful. Have you been?â he asks, his irritation forgotten.
âIâve never left mainland USA.â So now weâre back to banalities. What is he hiding?
âWould you like to go?â
âTo Paris?â I squeak. This has thrown me â who wouldnât want to go to Paris? âOf course,â I concede. âBut itâs England that Iâd really like to visit.â
He cocks his head to one side, running his index finger across his lower lipâ¦Â oh my.
âBecause?â
I blink rapidly. Concentrate, Steele.
âItâs the home of Shakespeare, Austen, the Brontë sisters, Thomas Hardy. Iâd like to see the places that inspired those people to write such wonderful books.â
All this talk of literary greats reminds me that I should be studying. I glance at my watch.
âIâd better go. I have to study.â
âFor your exams?â
âYes. They start Tuesday.â
âWhereâs Miss Kavanaghâs car?â
âIn the hotel parking lot.â
âIâll walk you back.â
âThank you for the tea, Mr. Grey.â
He smiles his odd Iâve got a whopping big secret smile.
âYouâre welcome, Anastasia. Itâs my pleasure. Come,â he commands, and holds his hand out to me. I take it, bemused, and follow him out of the coffee shop.
We stroll back to the hotel, and Iâd like to say itâs in companionable silence. He at least looks his usual calm, collected self. As for me, Iâm desperately trying to gauge how our little coffee morning has gone. I feel like Iâve been interviewed for a position, but Iâm not sure what it is.
âDo you always wear jeans?â he asks out of the blue.
âMostly.â
He nods. Weâre back at the intersection, across the road from the hotel. My mind is reeling. What an odd questionâ¦Â And Iâm aware that our time together is limited. This is it. This was it, and Iâve completely blown it, I know. Perhaps he has someone.
âDo you have a girlfriend?â I blurt out. Holy crap â I just said that out loud?
His lips quirk up in a half-smile, and he looks down at me.
âNo, Anastasia. I donât do the girlfriend thing,â he says softly.
Ohâ¦Â what does that mean? Heâs not gay? Oh, maybe he is â crap! He must have lied to me in his interview. And for a moment, I think heâs going to follow on with some explanation, some clue to this cryptic statement â but he doesnât. I have to go. I have to try to reassemble my thoughts. I have to get away from him. I walk forward, and I trip, stumbling headlong onto the road.
âShit, Ana!â Grey cries. He tugs the hand that heâs holding so hard that I fall back against him just as a cyclist whips past, narrowly missing me, heading the wrong way up this one-way street.
It all happens so fast â one minute Iâm falling, the next Iâm in his arms, and heâs holding me tightly against his chest. .I inhale his clean, vital scent. He smells of fresh laundered linen and some expensive body-wash. Oh my, itâs intoxicating. I inhale deeply.
âAre you okay?â he whispers. He has one arm around me, clasping me to him, while the fingers of his other hand softly trace my face, gently probing, examining me. His thumb brushes my lower lip, and I hear his breath hitch. Heâs staring into my eyes, and I hold his anxious, burning gaze for a moment or maybe itâs forever⦠but eventually, my attention is drawn to his beautiful mouth. Oh my. And for the first time in twenty-one years, I want to be kissed. I want to feel his mouth on me.