: Chapter 3
The Risk (Briar U)
âWhere have you been? I called you three times, Brenna.â
My dadâs brusque tone never fails to raise my hackles. He speaks to me the way he speaks to his playersâcurt, impatient, and unforgiving. Iâd like to say that itâs always been this way, that heâs been barking and growling at me for my entire life. But that would be a lie.
Dad didnât always snap at me. My mother died in a car accident when I was seven, which thrust my father into a maternal role as well as a paternal one. And he was good at both. He used to speak to me with love and tenderness on his face and in his voice. Heâd pull me onto his lap and ruffle my hair and say, âTell me how school was today, Peaches.â His nickname for me was âPeaches,â for Peteâs sake.
But that was a long time ago. Nowadays, Iâm just Brenna, and I canât remember the last time I associated the words âloveâ or âtendernessâ with my father.
âI was walking home in a downpour,â I reply. âI couldnât pick up the phone.â
âWalking home from where?â
I unzip my boots in the cramped corridor of my basement apartment. I rent it from a nice couple named Mark and Wendy, who both travel quite a lot for work. Add to that my separate entrance, and I can go weeks without having any interaction with them.
âFrom Dellaâs Diner. I was having coffee with a friend,â I say.
âThis late?â
âLate?â I crane my neck toward the kitchen thatâs even tinier than the hallway and glance at the clock on the microwave. âItâs barely ten oâclock.â
âDonât you have your interview tomorrow?â
âYes, so? Do you think me getting home at nine thirty means Iâm going to sleep through my alarm?â I canât keep the sarcasm out of my tone. Sometimes itâs difficult not to snap at him the way he snaps at me.
He ignores the taunt. âI spoke to someone at the network today,â he says. âStan Samuelsâhe runs the master control booth, solid fellow.â Dadâs voice becomes gruff. âI told him you were coming in tomorrow and put in a good word for you.â
I soften a little. âOh. That was nice of you. I appreciate that.â Some people might feel awkward about calling in favors to get ahead, but I have no problem using my fatherâs connections if it helps me secure this internship. Itâs hyper competitive, and although Iâm more than qualifiedâIâve worked my ass off to beâIâm at a disadvantage because Iâm female. Unfortunately, this is a male-dominated field.
The broadcasting program at Briar offers official work placements for students in their senior year, but Iâm hoping to beat everyone to the punch. If I can land a summer internship at HockeyNet, thereâs a fair chance Iâll be able to continue working there for my senior placement. That means an advantage over my peers and a potential job when I graduate.
My end-game has always been to become a sports journalist. Yes, HockeyNet is only a decade old (and the originality coffers mustâve been running low the day they chose their name), but the network covers hockey exclusively, and when it launched, it filled a deep void in the sports coverage market. I watch ESPN religiously, but one of the major complaints about it is its lackluster hockey coverage. Which is egregious. I mean, in theory, hockey is the fourth major sport in the country, but the bigger networks often treat it as if itâs less important than NASCAR or tennis orâshudderâgolf.
I dream of being on camera and sitting with those analysts at the big boysâ table, breaking down highlights, analyzing games, voicing my predictions. Sports journalism is a tough route for a woman, but I know my hockey, and Iâm confident Iâll slay my interview tomorrow.
âLet me know how it goes,â Dad orders.
âI will.â As I cross the living room, my left sock connects with something wet, and I yelp.
Dad is instantly concerned. âYou all right?â
âSorry, Iâm fine. The carpetâs wet. I must have spilled somethingââ I stop when I notice a small puddle in front of the sliding door that opens onto the backyard. Itâs still raining outside, a steady pounding against the stone patio. âCrap. Thereâs water pooling at the back door.â
âThatâs not good. What are we dealing with? Runoff directing water into the house?â
âHow would I know? Do you think I studied the runoff situation before I moved in?â He canât see me rolling my eyes, but I hope he can hear it in my voice.
âTell me where the moisture is coming from.â
âI told you, itâs mostly around the sliding door.â I walk the perimeter of the living room, which takes about, oh, three seconds. The only wet spot is near the door.
âAll right. Well, thatâs a good sign. Means itâs probably not the pipes. But if itâs storm-water runoff, there could be several culprits for that. Is the driveway paved?â
âYeah.â
âYour landlords might need to consider drainage options. Give them a call tomorrow and tell them to investigate.â
âI will.â
âI mean it.â
âI said I will.â I know heâs trying to be helpful, but why does he have to use that tone with me? Everything with Chad Jensen is a command, not a suggestion.
Heâs not a bad man, I know that. Heâs simply overprotective, and once upon a time he mightâve had reason to be. But Iâve been living on my own for three years. I can take care of myself.
âAnd youâll be at the semifinals on Saturday night?â Dad asks briskly.
âI canât,â I say, and Iâm genuinely regretful about missing such a vital game. But I made these plans ages ago. âIâm visiting Tansy, remember?â Tansy is my favorite cousin, the daughter of my dadâs older sister, Sheryl.
âThatâs this weekend?â
âYup.â
âAll right, then. Say hello for me. Tell her I look forward to seeing her and Noah for Easter.â
âWill do.â
âAre you spending the night?â Thereâs an edge to the question.
âTwo nights, actually. Iâm going up to Boston tomorrow, and heading back Sunday.â
âDonât doââ He halts.
âDonât do what?â This time, itâs my tone taking on that sharp edge.
âDonât do anything reckless. Donât drink too much. Be safe.â
I appreciate that he doesnât say, âDonât drink at all,â but thatâs probably because he knows he canât stop me. Once I turned eighteen, he couldnât force me to abide by his curfew or his rules anymore. And once I turned twenty-one, he couldnât stop me from having a drink or two.
âIâll be safe,â I promise, because thatâs the one assurance I can give with confidence.
âBren,â he says. Then stops again.
I feel like most conversations with my father go like this. Start and stop. Words we want to say, and words we donât say. Itâs so hard to connect with him.
âDad, can we hang up now? I want to take a hot shower and get ready for bed. I have to wake up early tomorrow.â
âAll right. Let me know how the interview goes.â He pauses. When he speaks again, itâs to offer some rare encouragement. âYou got this.â
âThank you. Night, Dad.â
âNight, Brenna.â
I hang up and do exactly what I told himâtake a scalding-hot shower, because the twenty-minute walk in the rain chilled me down to the bone. Iâm redder than a lobster when I emerge from the cramped shower stall. My little bathroom doesnât have a bathtub, which is a shame. Hot baths are the absolute best.
I donât like sleeping with wet hair, so I do a quick blow-dry and then rummage around in my dresser in search of my warmest PJs. I settle on plaid pants and a thin long-sleeve tee with the Briar University logo on it. Basements tend to be cold as a rule, and my apartment is no exception. Iâm surprised I havenât come down with pneumonia in the seven or so months Iâve lived here.
As I get under the covers, I pop my phone out of its charger and find a missed call from Summer. I have a feeling sheâll call again if I donât respond, probably five seconds after I fall asleep, so I preemptively ring her back before she can ruin my good nightâs sleep.
âAre you mad at me?â is how she greets me.
âNo.â I curl up on my side, the phone balanced on my shoulder.
âEven though I set you up with Jules and vouched for him?â Her voice ripples with guilt.
âIâm an adult, Summer. You didnât force me to say yes.â
âI know. But I feel terrible. I canât believe he didnât show.â
âDonât worry about it. Iâm not the least bit upset. If anything, I dodged a bullet.â
âOkay, good.â She sounds relieved. âIâll find someone even better to hook you up with.â
âYou most certainly will not,â I say cheerfully. âYouâre officially relieved of your matchmaking dutiesâwhich you bestowed on yourself, by the way. Trust me, babes, I have zero issues when it comes to meeting men.â
âYes, youâre good at meeting them. But dating them? You suck at that.â
Iâm quick to protest. âBecause Iâm not looking to date anybody.â
âWhy not? Having a boyfriend is awesome.â
Sure, maybe when your boyfriend is Colin Fitzgerald. Summer is dating one of the most decent guys Iâve ever met. Intelligent, kind, astute, not to mention hot as fuck.
âAre you and Fitzy still obsessed with each other?â
âSo obsessed. He puts up with my crazy, and I put up with his dorkiness. Plus, we have the best sex ever.â
âI bet Hunter loves that,â I say dryly. âI hope youâre not a screamer.â
Hunter Davenport is Summer and Fitzâs roommate, and he was recently rejected by Summer. She agreed to go on a date with him, only to realize her feelings for Fitz were too strong to ignore. Hunter didnât take it well.
âGod, you have no idea how hard it is to try to be quiet when Fitz is doing his magical magic to my body,â Summer says with a sigh.
âMagical magic?â
âYes, magical magic. But if youâre worried that Hunter is lying in bed listening to us and weeping inconsolably, donât be. Heâs got a different girl over here every night.â
âGood for him.â I snicker. âI bet Hollis is green with envy.â
âIâm not sure Mikeâs even noticed. Heâs too busy mooning over you.â
âStill?â Dammit. I was hoping he was done with that.
I briefly close my eyes. Iâve committed some asinine acts in my life, but hooking up with Mike Hollis is high on that list. We were both drunk out of our minds, so all we did was share a sloppy make-out session and I fell asleep while giving him a hand job. It definitely wasnât my finest moment, nor was it all that memorable. I have no idea why heâd want a repeat.
âHeâs smitten,â Summer confirms.
âItâll pass.â
She giggles, but the humor dies quickly. âHunter is being a jerk to us,â she admits. âWhen heâs not screwing anything in a skirt.â
âI guess he was really into you?â
âHonestly? I donât think itâs about me. I think itâs about Fitz.â
âI can see that. He wanted to fuck Fitz,â I say solemnly. âI mean, who doesnât?â
âNo, you brat. Fitz straight up lied when Hunter asked if he had a thing for me. Hunter views it as a betrayal of the bro code.â
âThe bro code is holy,â I have to concede. âEspecially among teammates.â
âI know. Fitz says thereâs a lot of tension at practice.â Summer moans. âWhat if affects their performance in the semifinals, Bee? That means Yale will move on to the finals.â
âMy dad will straighten them out,â I assure her. âAnd say what you will about Hunter, but he likes to win hockey games. He wonât let a beef over some girlâno offenseâdistract him from winning.â
âShould Iââ
A buzz in my ear mutes her question.
âWhat was that?â
âText message,â I explain. âSorry, keep going. What were you saying?â
âI was wondering if I should try to talk to him again.â
âI donât think itâll make a difference. Heâs a stubborn ass. But eventually heâll put his big-boy pants on and get over it.â
âI hope so.â
We chat for a while longer, until my eyelids grow heavy. âSummer. Iâm going to sleep now, babes. Iâve got that interview in the morning.â
âOkay. Call me tomorrow. Love you.â
âLove you, too.â
Iâm about to turn off the bedside lamp when I remember the text. I click the message icon and narrow my eyes when I see McCarthyâs name.
Hey, B. Itâs been really awesome chilling with you, but I need to take a step back for a while. At least till playoffs are over. Gotta focus on the game, you know? Iâll give you a call once everything settles down, k? xo
My jaw falls open. Is this a joke?
I read the message again, and, nope, the content doesnât change. McCarthy actually ended it.
It appears that Jake Connelly just declared war.