Chapter seven

Why should I have been different???

Why couldn't Mason see through me and know what I wanted???

I wanted us to feel like a real family and it all didn't help without me feeling so unsecured.

I feel I'd lose him soon, and that's what I'm afraid of the most.

I have given him everything, my time, my youth, almost seven years of my life and two kids.

If I lose him, how do I start over again?

Where do I begin from?

Who do I start all over with?

That's all I thought of as Mason drove us home.

"Hey!" Mason called as he placed his hand on my hand which brought me back to reality.

"You're so quiet, are you sure you're fine?" he asked me.

I stared at him and took my stare away almost immediately.

"Avey" he had called out to me at the next traffic stop as he turned to look at me.

"Avey" he called again, this time shaking me as he brought me back to reality.

"What Mason, what?" I asked almost screaming.

"What's wrong with you?" he questioned.

"I'm fine. Since you can't take my behaviour as a cue, I'm fine" I yelled at him.

The rest of our drive home was quiet. No words spoken.

But it was tense.

One could tell.

I had not noticed it, but later on I did. He was angry at me. Mason was.

*****

As we got into the sitting room, Josi was waiting there, for us and the moment she saw us, she got up as she turned to us smiling.

"Hope you both had fun?" she asked.

"Yeah. It's pretty late, you should get going" Mason said faking a smile.

"I'll make a transfer to your account this midnight..." he added.

"Ok, thank you"

"The kids?" Mason asked.

"They're both asleep" she replied as Mason walked off.

"Thank you so much Josi for watching over them" I appreciated.

"It's my pleasure" she said smiling.

"Is everything alright?" she added.

"Yes, sure, no problem" I told her.

"You should get going before it gets too late. It's not going to be safe"

"Alright, bye" she said as she picked up the tote bag she comes with all the time as she walked off.

"Goodnight"

*****

"Hey, babe, wait a minute" Mason called as he trailed after me from behind.

We had argued till now since we got back.

I had gotten in bed when he said it, said he was disappointed in me.

What could he have meant by that?

He had caught up to me and stopped me from going out the room.

"Hey, hey, hey" he called amid our struggle.

"What?" I screamed facing him.

"What do you want? Tell me, please" he quietly said.

"Taking me to their parties, is it just cause you want me to feel stupid?" I asked him.

"Make me your wife, that's what I want Mason. After seven years, I deserve it. You deserve a better family too. Our kids deserve a complete family" I told him in tears.

He paused for a moment staring down at me.

"I'm sorry" he apologized.

"Don't apologize to me, try to make things right" I told him trying to push him off.

But instead, he maintained his posture.

"Come here!" he quietly called kissing me.

It was passionate, soft, something made it different, the tense mood.

'I'm sorry' he whispered in between kisses.

Our kiss heightened as he stopped in between kisses to catch  his breath.

We stopped kissing finally for a moment as he picked me up, above the floor as he walked us over to the bed.

He laid me on it with a deep sigh as I just watched him take off his tank top as his both knee dug into the bed with my body laying in its middle.

"I'm sorry" he whispered in my ear kissing it.

That very action, it sent shivers down my spine as he continued with it.

He stopped as he helped me take off my night gown.

I laid properly staring at the ceiling waiting for him to act.

Finally, I felt it, the warmth of  his hand on one of my breast while his warm breath fell on the other. Now,  his mouth was on one of my beast while his hand gently squeezed the other.

Finally, he stopped as he found my lips claiming it. I spread my legs properly giving one of his hand way as his fingers found its place.

I bit my lips to stop that moan from finding its way out.

Finally, he got into me and that sound I had kept in got out as a soft moan. He began gently thrusting as he moved in and out of me.

That feeling of being made love to by Mason made me forget about all our fights and I could hardly believe it. This happened all the time, our argument about being a true couple, then the love making and then it all stops till another time.

It has its complete cycle.