CH 27
Since My Engagement has Been Annulled, I'm Going to Live Freely!
We held each other for a long time.
I was brimming with happiness. My melancholy had entirely been blown away.
Slowly, I lifted my face up, stared into his eyes, and smiled.
Eventually, his lips approached mine. When our lips met, my heart melted as its beat rushed.
After repeating the brief kisses a few times, I took a bit of distance to calm my uneven breathing.
ââ¦Hey, Ryan. I live upstairs. Letâs have a slow conversation there.â
I looked around the store with unease.
The store was also my domain, but it was still embarrassing. After all, it was still the place customers came and went. Moreover, if someone were to peer inside the window, they could easily see what was happening inside the store.
âNo, uhâ¦â
Ryan fumbled with his words.
Suddenly, I recalled something.
âOh, Iâm sorry, you mentioned that you have something to do after this. I completely forgot about that.â
âActually, I have no plansâ¦â
âIs that so? You were saying something about having to return soonâ¦â
âThatâs⦠I said that because I fully believed Iâd get rejected, thus Iâd have to go home shaken.â
Towards his words, I involuntarily laughed.
It seemed that he truly confessed while fully believing that he stood no chance.
âThen, please come upstairs. I still want to be with you.â
As expected, after I said that in a sweet tone, Ryan flushed instantly.
âI want to do that, too. But in my current state, it isnât a good idea to be alone with you in a private space.â
âWhy??â
I somehow understood what he was implying, but I still pretended to be oblivious.
Unaware of my pettiness, and after a brief period of confusion, he opened his mouth as if he had decided.
ââ¦Because Iâll end up treating you unscrupulously.â
For him to say that with a face as if he was about to jump off a cliff, heâs just too cute!
I couldnât help but burst out laughing. It was clear that Ryan was being serious.
I was grateful for his good intentions, but it was also a little frustrating.
Thus, I inched closer and gently kissed his lips once again.
âWell, Iâm inviting you to treat me unscrupulously.â
To Ryanâs embarrassment, I laughed.
Unlike me, Ryan was experiencedâor so I heard.
Of course, not from the person himself, but from a friend whom was eager to collect rumors. I wasnât jealous when I heard it. Because with his appearance and awesomeness, itâd be strange if he was inexperienced.
In fact, he seemed to have escorted a considerable number of women, each of them with their respective charm.
So, I was delighted at being able to make such an experienced man so flustered.
âIf thatâs your only reason, Iâll welcome you without hesitation.â
I kissed him once again, and closed the lock to the store entrance without waiting for a counter argument.
As I smiled, Ryan immediately lifted both of his hands with a troubled face.
For a humble daughter like me to take initiative towards a man who had experienced the battlefield, it must had been a rare occurrence.
In the meantime, I shall enjoy Ryanâs reaction.
ââ¦I see, do you hate someone who was formerly someone elseâs?â
ââ¦I could never hate you.â
Finally relenting, Ryan embraced me tightly.
***
With my eyes closed, his kisses began to descend upon me, over and over.
Our fingers entwined.
It was supposed to be a familiar place for me, but with Ryan being there, it had become a special place.
âFloresâ¦â
Towards his gentle call, my eyes fluttered open.
Ryan narrowed his eyes and pressed his forehead against mine.
âI still canât believe it⦠for me to be able to become your manâ¦â
To be honest, I was also a bit anxious.
To assure him that it was indeed reality, I kissed him again.
âI also feel like Iâm dreaming. What a strange feelingâ¦â
I could feel the sensation that came from intertwining our fingersâyet, at the same time, it still felt unreal.
My head, no, my entire body felt light. I might had become paralyzed from too much happiness.
If it was actually a dream, the moment I woke up, I wouldnât be able to live with the despair and emptiness that would follow.
Ryan touched my cheek.
His hands were so gentle, the place he touched tingled.
I so wanted to believe that it was real, but the way he gently caressed me, as if handling a glass sculpture, was as if he didnât want to shatter a dream.
âYou donât have to be so careful, I wonât break.â
With a bitter smile, Ryanâs expression became troubled.
âI donât want to be like a certain someone who ignored you and did whatever he pleased.â
His expression turned a bit unpleasant, and I quickly realized that he was talking about Ricardo.
Ryan didnât even want to mention his name.
âI will never let that person touch me, or do whatever he likes.â
I immediately denied it and touched his cheeks as if to calm him down.
âReally!?â
Ryanâs face shone briefly, but he soon became confused,
ââ¦I donât think youâll want to hear this, but how did you resist that manâs cunning hands? Or, was he the one who managed to endure well in front of Floresâ¦?â
Because it sounded as if he was praising Ricardo, I unintentionally retorted.
Certainly, Ricardo wasnât the poster boy for the word patience.
In fact, despite his clear intention about not desiring to marrying me, he tried seizing any opportunity he could to lay his hands on me.
In the first month after being forced into a relationship with him, his offenses exhausted me both physically and mentally.
âFufufu, which is precisely why Ricardoâs mother loathed me. For I, a lowborn, managed to tempt her cute son.â
When I recalled that, I laughed.
Even though Ricardo was a full-fledged swordsmanâ¦
â¦Well, that was usually the case with parents of high-ranking aristocrats. There was no way theyâd just let their son, who inherit their precious bloodline, just marry a woman without anything behind her name.
Even so, her way of scolding me was just terrible.
âHence, I pretended to be a straight and humble daughter. âI want to stay true to my love, so I want to protect my chastity until marriage. Please cooperate with me, mother.ââ
âI see, then she went along with your plan?â
I squinted happily as I caressed Ryanâs cheeks. As I did so, he seemed about to laugh.
âIndeed, every time I was forced to go with him on a date, she hired a watchman. Therefore, whenever he attempted something, the watchman was there to stop him.â
My chastity was largely safe because of that.
At that time, I merely refused because I didnât want to be touched by Ricardo. But as of the present, I was relieved at not having let anyone touch me.
After all, Ryan seemed pleased because of that.
âIâm grateful towards the Duchess of Sterling.â
âYes, me too.â
Although she was unusually strict and biased, she arranged for me to learn etiquette and manners to complement Ricardoâs lack of dignity. It was completely for the sake of appearance, but thanks to that, I could perform well in those fields.
At that time, I was tired of being treated so badly. But when I thought about it now, I owed my present livelihood to those days.
âMaybe those days werenât entirely bad.â
âIâm not sure how to feel about you talking fondly about your memories with him.â
Ryan said with a sulky face.
In front of his subordinates and colleagues, he had a stern face. But in front of me, he obediently showed various expressions.
Does he know how happy I am to hear that?
âYou fool, Iâm weighing the pros and cons. Those canât really be considered good memories. But thanks to them, I was able to meet you.â
I kissed his forehead to calm him down. The furrow between his eyebrows diminished.
âIâve never been so happy.â
ââ¦May I touch you?â
âYes, I have no objection at all. I want you to touch me.â
âButâ¦â
âIf you keep giving me all these excuses, Iâll be the one who pushes you down.â
As I laughed provocatively, Ryan made a frustrated look.
ââ¦Itâs a fascinating proposal, but that would dishonor my title as a knight.â
I smiled and dropped a kiss on his cheek.
âWell then, Sir Knightâmake me yours.â
As I caressed his nape to invite him, Ryanâs expression became passionate.
He kissed me deeply, and my head became numb.
I didnât have to say anything anymore.