me I would be getting tutoring and had no choice in the matter, I was more than a little pissed off. But as soon as I found out I was allowed off campus to receive the lessons, I felt a whole lot better.
Two afternoons a week, I could leave school and chill in our big, empty house. My parents spend their time divided between the US and their international offices. They only ever really stay in this house when they want to get the whole family together.
The rest of the time, itâs gloriously empty. The cleaners and gardeners only visit once a week to maintain the property. It would be ideal if I wasnât stuck at Spearcrest. Now though, all I have to do is placate whichever sucker signed up to be my mentor and I have two afternoons a week just for myself.
Iâm in the middle of checking out the wine cellar for stuff I think my dadâs not going to notice has gone missing when I hear the intercom. Frowning, I check my watch.
Six oâclock exactly. Almost rudely punctual.
I tuck a bottle under my arm and make my way back upstairs to open the door. I know everyone in the year group, and Iâm not about to ruin my reputation as a loveable party boy.
When I open the front door, I freeze for a second.
Spikes of adrenaline stab through my skin.
Saying I havenât fantasised about having Sophie Sutton to myself in the comfort and privacy of my own home would be a complete lie. Still, I never imagined she would come of her own volition, a lamb leading itself to the slaughter.
I stand in the doorway and take in the sight of her from head to toe.
I donât even care that Iâm being shamelessly obvious.
Sheâs still wearing her uniform, of course. So am I, except Iâve loosened my tie, untucked my shirt and thrown my blazer over the back of an easy chair in the lounge. But Sophie wouldnât be caught dead with her uniform looking anything less than impeccable.
So sheâs wearing her tie straight, tucked into her sweater vest, and her skirt is the appropriate mid-thigh length over her black tights. Her blazer is spotless, those pretentious pins shining over one lapel. Her hair is tied back in a low ponytail and her face is free of makeup. The picture-perfect image of the Spearcrest student.
Itâs immediately clear that she doesnât want to be here. She canât even bring herself to glare at me. Her shoulders slump in downward slopes, her cheeks and lips are pale.
She looks fucking miserable.
And yet I canât stop the pure elation surging through me. I greet her with a shit-eating grin plastered across my face.
âWell , Sutton. What brings you here today?â
A flash of anger crosses her face and is quickly stifled. She answers tightly, âYou failing English Lit.â
âAnd youâre the best Spearcrest could come up with?â
Itâs a harmless jab, but it doesnât have the intended effect. A new expression passes over Sophieâs face. Not hurt or anger, something else. Something like hope.
âThen complain,â she says. âOr better yet, get your parents to complain.â
I stare at her with some surprise. âWhat, get you fired as my mentor?â
âExactly.â She points her chin over her shoulder. âI can turn and leave right now and you could have a new mentor in no time if your parents throw a fit.â
I shake my head. Obviously, she doesnât want to be here. I guess I just didnât realise quite how much she wants to be rid of me. Getting rid of my mentor was exactly my intention, so why do I feel an itch of irritation deep under my skin?
Sophie doesnât get rid of .
get rid of Sophie.
âWell, youâve come all the way here,â I say, standing aside to free the doorway. âItâd be rude of me not to invite you in for a drink.â
She hesitates and looks over her shoulder at the big open courtyard where the taxi must have dropped her off. Her reluctance is palpable. I roll my eyes. âCome in already. Iâm not going to bite you.â I hold up the bottle of wine in my fist and shake it. âLetâs negotiate over a drink.â
That gets her attention, and she finally follows me inside. I swing the door shut after her and lead her into the big open-plan kitchen. She stands stiffly by the marble-top kitchen island and watches me as I grab two wine glasses from a cupboard and pour us drinks.
Iâve never particularly liked wine, but Iâm more nervous than I want to be, and I could do it with some liquid courage.
I gesture at a stool. âDonât be so fucking awkward. Sit. Drink.â
I slide one of the glasses across the kitchen island âIâm not going to drink,â she snaps, throwing a scornful look at the glass.
Sophie might look down on all the posh rich kids at our school, but the truth is that sheâs the most stuck-up person I know in Spearcrest.
âI should have known you donât drink,â I say with a sneer. âPerfect prefect Sutton. Too scared of losing control to ever let loose.â
She perches on a stool, her back straight, her chin stuck out. âI donât drink around people I donât trust.â
I canât tell whether sheâs implying that she doesnât trust me, or that she doesnât trust anyone. The only thing I can tell is that I suddenly find the prospect of getting Sophie tipsy has become my most urgent goal in life. Sheâs so tightly wound, so rigidly in control of herself.
The thought of pulling on a loose string and unravelling her sounds delicious.
But she sticks to her guns and never even glances at the wine. I donât let her judgemental expression bother me. I hop onto the counter, sitting cross-legged in front of her, letting her crane her head back to look up at me.
She leans back, putting distance between us, and frowns imperiously. âI thought I was here to negotiate?â
âLetâs.â
âThen Iâm going to just go ahead and be honest,â she says, crossing her arms. âI donât think you care at all whether or not you pass English Literature, and I donât want to be tutoring you. So you should tell your parents Iâm a bad tutor, or that you donât like me, or literally whatever you want to tell them, I donât care. Then I donât have to come here anymore, and you can do whatever you want.â
I stare at her as she speaks. In Year 9 she used to be so animated, with a big goofy grin and chaotic hand gestures. But now, she is poised and still and almost expressionless. Robotic.
I watched this change happen over the years, and I always expected her to change so much she would be a completely different person. Maybe then I could be indifferent towards her.
But if anything, this change is having the reverse effect. The more she retreats inwards, the more I want to chase her down. The more walls she builds between herself and everyone else, the more I want to tear them apart.
I covet every emotion she swallows back, every truth she hides deep within herself.
Everything she covers up, I want to strip bare.
âWell? What do you think?â she asks, voice pinched with impatience.
âI donât think itâs a good idea,â I finally answer, taking a sip of wine. âIf I complain about you and they send me someone else, then Iâll still be in the same situation. As things stand, we both have a common goal: to get away from these stupid tutoring sessions. So letâs work together and both get what we want.â
âWhat is it you want?â she asks warily.
Her distrust is tangible but unsurprising.
âYouâre right, Sutton: I donât give a shit about passing Lit or getting tutored, but I do want to get away from the school. You could come over, pretend to tutor me, but we just donât do the work.â
âThat sounds like a good bargain for ,â she says. âWhat do get out of it?â
âWell,â I lean down, closing some of the space between us, âwhat is it want, Sutton? A wire transfer? Money in a suitcase?â
She throws me a look of pure disdain. Then she looks away, thinking in silence. Her fingers tap her arm, her teeth tug at her bottom lip. I watch her, alcohol and excitement burning in the pit of my stomach.
Itâs so easy to dislike her when sheâs so fucking stuck-up, so fucking serious. A total buzzkill. Itâs so easy to fantasise about bringing her low, making a mess out of her.
She speaks up finally, interrupting my thoughts.
âAlright, I think we could do something like that. The taxi drops me off at yours so the school thinks Iâm here, but Iâm going to leave. Then you get your time to yourself, and we both win, just like you said.â
I frown. âWhere are you going to go?â
âTown.â
âWhy? Where?â
She lifts an eyebrow. âItâs none of your business.â
âWonât it be weird if we go back to the school separately?â
She shrugs. âI doubt anybody will notice.â
âThe taxi is going to come here, so what if I come to pick you up on the way back?â
She hesitates. âI might stay longer in town.â
âHow long?â
âIâm not sure yet.â
I hop off the kitchen island, standing right in front of her to peer into her face. âSuch secrecy, Sutton. What are you up to?â
Colour rises in her cheeks but she holds my gaze. âItâs none. Of your. Business.â
âYouâre not scared Iâm going to rat you out?â
She narrows her eyes. â
you going to rat me out?â
âWhatâs my incentive not to?â I say lightly, more to wind her up than anything else.
âAre you really trying to blackmail me?â she asks witheringly. âWhat are you going to do, shake me down for my lunch money? Force me to carry your school books? Make me lick your boots?â
She looks pretty confident given Iâm standing so close to her. None of the cowering Iâm so used to, the darting escapes away from me. It makes the heat in my stomach flare, flames rising in my chest.
Iâve never ever had the urge to get physical with Sophie beforeâI donât hurt women and I can hurt her plenty with my words. But right now I have the urge to touch her, grab her, make her realise Iâm the one with the power.
Iâm the one with the power.
âItâs not your lunch money I want,â I say, taking her chin gently in my hand.
My voice comes out rougher than I expected, but Iâm past caring. I have the irresistible urge to bend her to my will. To make her do what I want.
To make her mine.
Itâs not like Iâm Sophie. Iâve worked hard to ensure I never would be.
No, this is more like the obsession a fighter might have over a formidable opponent. The desire to defeat, to conquer.
It probably feels different today because weâre alone, and the wine is clouding my brain and my senses are filled with the sweet smell of her, like warm vanilla or molten sugar. And her cheeks are smeared pink and her big brown eyes are wide as they stare up at me.
I have her at my mercy. Isnât this what I wanted?
Anything past this would be sheer indulgence.
Time to get a hold of myself.
âI donât want you to lick my boots, Sutton, or anything else youâre thinking of,â I say with a smirk, letting go of her face. âI want you to do my Lit assignments for me.â
She looks furious, and her fury is more satisfying than if Iâd grabbed her and kissed her full on the mouth. Blood instantly rushes to my cock.
âYou want to blackmail me into doing your homework for you?â she says, voice shaking with anger.
I shrug and lean back against the kitchen island.
âItâs in your interest to do so. Otherwise, everybodyâs going to realise pretty quickly weâre lying about the tutoring.â
She glares at me but doesnât say anything.
âFine,â she finally grinds out. âIâll write your essays.â
âGood girl.â I pat her head, her hair soft as silk under my fingers. âMake sure they donât sound too much like you wrote them, alright? Weâd both get in trouble if we got caught.â
She smiles mirthlessly, pulling away from my hand. âDonât worry. Iâll make sure they are still underwhelming, lacking in perception and riddled with errors.â
âWhy must you try to hurt my feelings?â I ask, tilting my head. âPlay nice, Sutton. Weâre making a deal and helping each other out, after all. Letâs shake on it.â
She hesitates but sticks out her hand in a comically formal gesture. I take it in mine. Itâs surprisingly cold, but Iâm more surprised at how strong her grip is.
âYou have my back, and Iâll have yours,â I say, peering deep into her eyes and seeing nothing even close to trust there. âAlright?â
âRight,â she says, a slight curl of derision on her mouth. She tries to pull her hand from mine, but I keep holding on, pulling her closer.
âAllies?â I ask sweetly.
As if. Being allies with Sophie Sutton is like trying to pet the wolf youâve kept caged and starving for years.
âSure,â she snaps.
My mind scrambles for an excuse to keep holding on to her hand, to keep her close, to keep her in my house. But she gives me nothing, she just watches me blankly as she waits for me to release her.
âAnything else you want?â she snaps.
âMm, no, Suttonâwhy? What are you offering?â
She rolls her eyes, but doesnât take the bait. âIf you donât want anything, then can you let me go, please?â
I donât need Sophie knowing how much I like keeping her close. Sheâs already unbearable enough as is, she doesnât need any sort of ammunition against me.
So I let her go, follow her to the front door, and watch her leave. As soon as sheâs disappeared down the long drive, I slip my hand down the front of my pants. Iâm not as hard as I was before, but Iâm semi-hard.
I shrug. Maybe Iâll spend this precious alone time jerking off.
Jerking off to the thought of Sophie Sutton on her knees on my kitchen floor, licking something other than my boots.