jittering with a mixture of fear and triumph. All in all, I handled myself as well as I could have. I entered the enemyâs lair and got out not only unscathed but with something I wanted.
Getting two afternoons away from school a week is exactly the chance I needed. Evanâs house is on the outskirts of Fernwell. If I manage to find a job there, I could begin saving money.
A complete win-win for me: getting away from Evan and getting a job. Two birds, one stone.
My instinct leads me to the café where I saw the sign during the holidays. Itâs very quiet now half-term is over. Inside, itâs warm and cosy, with big felt armchairs and lots of plants. Soft jazz and the smell of coffee and pastries mingle in the warm air.
A girl about my age is standing behind the counter, a cup of tea in one hand, her phone in the other. She has brown hair dyed purple at the ends, and delicate piercings all along her ears.
When I approach the counter, she looks up with a polite smile.
âOh, hi! What can I get you?â
âIâm here because of the sign?â I point, a little awkwardly, to the sign still stuck to the window.
âOh!â she says again. âOne sec.â She walks to the door behind the counter and pops her head in to call out, âFreddy!â
A boy a couple of years older than me appears, carrying a box of coffee filters. He looks like the male version of the girl, with soft brown hair and grey eyes, piercings in his ears and a big woolly jumper. I canât remember the last time I met a boy who doesnât go to Spearcrest, a boy whoâs normal and nice, and my heart skips a beat when he looks up with a smile.
âHi! How can I help?â
âSheâs here about the job,â the girl says, hopping up to perch herself on the counter behind her.
âOh, right,â Freddy puts the box down and pulls a notepad out of his back pocket, a pen stuck in the coil. âThe job youâd be applying for is actually Jessâs job,â he points at the girl. âShe needs to drop her hours to focus on her studies, so we just need someone to fill in for her.â
âI can only do Tuesday and Thursday afternoons, and maybe school holidays,â I say with a wince.
It feels rude to be applying for a job and already making demands, but I donât have a choice. Freddy doesnât seem fazed at all though, just casts a questioning look towards the girlâJess. She shrugs. âSure, whatever, I could make that work.â
âDo you have any work experience?â Freddy asks me.
âNo,â I admit. I hesitate, but something about his friendly smile and soft grey eyes feels trustworthy. âIâm not really allowed to apply for a job.â
Freddy frowns. âHow old are you?â
âAlmost eighteen!â I say quickly. âBut I go to⦠the school I go to doesnât allow students to get jobs.â
Jess narrows her eyes. âYou go to Spearcrest?â
âOnly because my parents work thereâ I hurry to explain. âIâm not⦠uh, I definitely could do with a job.â
For some reason, I am completely embarrassed: embarrassed I go to Spearcrest, embarrassed Iâm not rich, embarrassed Iâve never had a job.
âWell, itâs not like this job is rocket science,â Jess says to Freddy. She turns back to me. âI could teach you how to make coffee and work the till, but apart from that, thereâs nothing much to it.â
âIâm a fast learner,â I say quickly.
Freddy is smilingânot smirking or sneering. Heâs genuinely, openly smilingâsomething the boys at Spearcrest are far too cool to do.
âWe could give it a go, couldnât we?â I canât tell whether heâs speaking to me or Jess, but we both nod. âWhy donât we start Thursday? Come in and Jess will show you the ropes, then you can see how you feel about the job.â
I nod, flooded with relief. Itâs hard to believe my mission is going so well, that things are going so smoothly for me.
âI would love that,â I say, smiling back at him. âThank you so much.â
âDonât be so quick to thank us,â Jess says. âThe pay is shit.â
âJess!â Freddy exclaims, more amused than scandalised. âSheâs not wrong,â he says to me. âWeâre not exactly raking it in over here, so weâre all pretty much on minimum wage.â
âThatâs more than Iâm earning right now,â I say.
They both laugh, and Freddy passes me his notepad and pen. âHere, write down your name and number and weâll stay in touch. Are you sure itâs going to be ok with your school?â
âIâm just going to try and make sure they donât find out.â
âSo long as Iâm not signing up for something illegal,â Freddy says.
âNo, no, of course not.â I quickly write down my name and phone number and hand him his notepad back.
He glances down at it and looks up at me. âNice to meet you, Sophie. Iâm Freddy, and this is Jess, my little sister.â
She gives a little wave and I canât help the big goofy smile on my face. They feel so welcoming and⦠normal. Just nice people who donât live in massive villas and travel around in Bentleys and private jets.
People like me.
âNice to meet you both.â
After I leave, I make my way back to the school, walking on clouds. Each footstep is lighter, the weight on my shoulders suddenly lifted. I left school crushed by anxiety, but Iâm returning and I donât have to worry about Evan (for now) or about finding a job (for now), and thatâs a victory.
That night, I treat myself to a rare evening off and cuddle up on the common room couches with Audrey and Araminta. I am extra careful to check nobody is around when I tell them about the events of the day and my new job at the café.
âA café job!â Audrey laughs. âCould you be any more wholesome?â
âIâm sure it wonât be as cute as the movies make it out to be,â I say. âBut it beats having to tutor Evan.â
âI still canât believe you made a deal with him,â Audrey says. âLike making a deal with the devil. You sure you know what youâre doing, Sophie?â
âI think itâs kind of hot,â Araminta says. âTwo deadly enemies turned reluctant allies. You know whatâs next, donât you?â
âI wouldnât call us allies,â I interrupt quickly. âIâm just lucky my plans happen to fit in with his laziness.â
âStill, though,â Audrey says. âBest be careful. I wouldnât be surprised if he tried to lock you up in his house and torment you or something. You know, torture you for his own amusement or whatever gets him off.â
I wince. âWell, heâs making me do his Lit work for him, so itâs not like heâs doing any of this out of the kindness of his heart.â
âIâll never understand it,â Araminta says. Sheâs in her satin pyjamas, absent-mindedly pulling on strands of her long black hair. âItâs like he hates you, but heâs obsessed with you at the same time.â
âHardly.â I try to shake my head, but Audrey forces me to stay still. I am sitting at the foot of her armchair while she pulls my hair into two French braids. Despite her firmness, itâs strangely soothing, so I donât mind her manhandling me a little. âHe wouldnât give me half as much shit if I was rich.â
âI donât knowâ¦â Audrey says dubiously.
âYouâre wrong,â Araminta curtails the conversation. âEvan Knight would find a way to crawl his way under your skin even if you were the bloody queen of England.â
âIâd have him thrown in the Tower of London,â I mutter darkly.
âYou wonât need to anymore,â Audrey says lightly from behind me. âYouâve got sexy Freddy to protect you now.â
Heat rises to my cheeks and I turn to glare at her. âDonât be childish, Audrey. Heâs not even sexy.â
âDid she,â Audrey says to Araminta as she pushes my head away to continue braiding my hair, âor did she not spend at least half an hour describing how âstylishâ and âkindâ and âsweetâ Freddy seems?â
âA crush on your boss, Sophe?â Araminta says with a suggestive waggle of her eyebrows. âMy my, such scandalous behaviour.â
âI blame myself,â Audrey sighs dramatically. âI didnât think my summer fling would have such a profound influence on the poor girl.â
âYouâre all a right pair of idiots!â I say, my cheeks ablaze. âSo immature.â
âAlright, alright, weâll stop teasing if you answer one question,â Audrey says, and her evil grin already tells me sheâs looking for trouble. âWhoâs hotter? Freddy or Evan? You have to be honest, though.â
I think about it. Evanâs height and gold skin and broad shoulders. His dangerous grin and summer sky eyes. Those big arms, that mop of loosely-curled fair hair. His long strides, easy laughter and pretty teeth. Evan is gorgeous like heâs from a movie, gorgeous like he knows it and feels no shame, with a sort of laid-back arrogance.
Where Evan is like the ultimate American rich kid cliche, Freddy is comfortingly British. Brown hair, grey eyes, big jumper. A kind, open smile. Not good-looking in the captivating, electrifying way Evan is, but⦠normal. Warm.
Safe.
If I had to be honest, I know whose name I would have to say to Audrey. But I donât want to be honest. So I donât give an honest answer.
Instead, I give the answer that feels right.
âItâs Freddy.â