45.Breakdown

Sometimes you do wish for someone to hurt so badly just like that person had hurt you but why didn't you feel satisfied after seeing them hurt?

Why you feel the pain as if you're the one who is hurt? The person who has given me the unbearable pain is in the bed surrounded with doctors and medical unit yet I'm not happy to see him in pain.

"Mam, please take a sit." The lady in a nurse outfit told me as I was standing at the middle of the room gawking at the person lying unconscious in the bed.

When I had received the call informing me about the Shaub's car accident and was told that he is being taken to his penthouse for the checkup, for a second I stop breathing and all sorts of negative thoughts clouded on my mind. The whole ride here I was praying that he would be okay and the accident is not so major.

On my arrival I met the policeman and he told me that Shaub had crashed his car near the pole and he was found unconscious in his car with smoke coming out from his car engine.

The first person in his favorite list was me so they had called and informed me. After doing his checkup and giving necessary medicine the doctors and medical unit left the place saying that he had just hit his head in the stirring wheel so there is no major injuries just a small wound on his forehead where they had put the bandage and he would be up in few hours.

When I was walking out the room I heard his phone ring and the caller was Len. So I accepted the call recounting the whole incident and he asked me to take care of him as he was out of the country and Nicho and Nessy were on the vacation.

I so wanted to denied but remembering the days Shaub had taken care of me I felt selfish to go back. So I told Len that he doesn't need to worry and it's better that we don't inform Nicho and Nessy as Shaub is not hurt badly and they would worry a lot.

After looking at Shaub for the last time I get out the room walking towards the kitchen to cook him some healthy food.

Even though we had dinner at my home, it wasn't like normal dinner so I take the ingredients from the cabinet to prepare soup. I looked around to find someone such as maid but there was no soul around.

He lives here all by himself? But I have never seen him cook or maybe I have when he had made pizza in the mansion. And I must say it was delicious and he is a good cook while I lack the cooking skills.

After the soup was prepared I pour it in the blow and covered it with a plate. Then I took it to his room and saw him lying awake on the bed while holding his head with his hands.

The sound of the spoon moving in the tray made him look at me and I just gave a small smile sitting near him and forwarded the tray.

"Here. Take this. It will help you to feel good." I said placing the tray in the side and gave him the bowl of soup.

And he have it without speaking a word while looking intensely at me as if he was searching something inside me with his penetrating gaze.

I couldn't withstand his deep ocean blue eyes staring directly into my soul so I picked up the tray and was about to get up when he hold my wrist and made me to sit down.

"Shalifa! I a-" He was about to say something but I cut him off.

"How are you feeling Shaub? Are you feeling light headed? Does your head hurt?" I questioned looking at his forehead.

"I'm fine now and thanks for the soup. But you have over cooked it." Shaub said drinking the water and I feel embarrassed that I couldn't cook even at my age.

I'm a horrible cook.

"Don't be sad love. I appreciate that you at least try to make it." He gave me a genuine smile and I get lost in his hypnotic eyes.

"I'm sorry Shalifa. I know I somehow used you but it wasn't my intention to hurt you. Yeah! At first I thought I would make you fall in love with me and then leave you broken-hearted to see that asshole broken but when I got to know you, spend time with you all thoughts flies out my mind. Since I was a little boy I hated woman so much as I think they are like my mom who only think about themselves and wanted me for my fame and luxury but you...." He trailed off looking at me and caressed my hand slowly with his thumb.

"I never thought that it would hurt you when you would find out that I manipulated you to marry me and play with your feelings. But that day when you came and slapped me telling me that it's the end of the unfortunate marriage, I then realized that I fucked up. That day I was planning to tell you everything and ask for your forgiveness but that piece of shit destroyed everything. And truth to be told I didn't like you from the first day I had met you and that's the reason why I pull that act. I know my reasons are childish but my mom had hurt me so much emotionally that I couldn't think rationally. I became so blind to take revenge that I didn't care of anyone." His voice crack and he looked at me with a guilt filled eyes.

"You should have think Shaub. You had hurt not only me but my family too. You had manipulated us and played with our feelings. My mom had treated you like her son and my brother, whom you have used as a pawn in your revenge. You didn't feel ounce of guilt to betrayed them? For your sadistic pleasure you made my life miserable for a year. A whole year I was tied to you and you know how many time I had been mentally hurt. You're a selfish bastard and here you're asking for a forgiveness. Will you forgive me if I had hurt you? No. You even hadn't forgiven your mother and you're wanting others to forgive you. You're pathetic...." I gave an accusing gaze and looked away from him.

"I'm pathetic Shalifa. I tired forgiving her and you know I did forgive her." Shaub said gripping my hand tightly and I turn towards him.

"You forgive her?" I asked looking bewildered as I couldn't believe that the jerk had let all his frustrations and anger to subside.

"I-I forgive her as you have told me that it's better to forgive than to hold the grudge and if we forget our past and live our present then it will easier to live. And that's the reality of life. I know you hate liars and still do but can you consider me? The day you have left me I have become a drunken mess and I don't know when I will..." I placed a finger on his lips to stop him from saying further and then we stare at each others eyes while drowning in them.

Then he cupped my cheeks caressing them with his thumb and looked intensely at me which made heat to spread on my body.

His face came dangerously closer to mine and slowly he pressed his lips on mine, making my heart to beat abnormally.

It was a passionate kiss not too slow nor fast but the kiss to heal the pain he had given me. This time I didn't protest nor my mind told me to shove him away. It was like the right thing to do when he was the one whom I was yelling at the moment ago.

The kiss made me breathless and he pulled away to let me catch my breath then again place his lips were on mine making me moan in delight.

He pulled me towards his torso and trailed kisses down my jaw to my neck. He then found my sensitive spot and suck it and place kisses making me to place my hand on his hair and he groan flipping me on my back.

"S-Shaub..." I moan his name while pulling his hair and tilted my head to give him more access.

He trailed kisses from my neck to my cleavage and I tightly gripped his hair when it was more than I could take. He placed a kiss on top of my cleavage and then my senses came back to me.

Am I really ready for this? Have I forgiven him? Moreover, will I regret it?

As if sensing my discomfort he stopped placing kisses and looked at my eyes for a moment. His ocean deep blues eyes were so mesmerizing and there were full of lust and want.

I have never gone this far with anyone before and I hadn't thought I will let Shaub do this but something about him made me to believe him and I do what is right at the moment.

I pulled him to my level and kissed him like my whole world deepen on him. At first I find him surprised by my sudden blunt act but later he too kissed me with same intensity.

That moment I let all the rational thoughts to fly away and let the moment to take the lead. The kiss and his touch awoke something inside me which made me to enjoy the moment of pleasure even if it's for a while.

"Shalifa I ca-" Shaub was about to say something while taking long breath as the kiss had made us both gasp for breath but I stop him.

"Mm..I'm feeling sleepy. Just go to sleep." I mumbled snuggling with my new pillow which is his chest and listened to his soft intake of breath.

"Good night, my love." Shaub said pecking my forehead and a smile formed on my face.

"Good night, my jerk." I mumbled drifting to dream land while draped on his arm.

The night turns tout to be passionate with the heated kisses but the next morning....

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Tanit💕

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