ITâSÂ three twenty-two in the morning and Iâm lying in bed, thinking about her. Missing her.
I build a lot of residential projects, create a lot of homes for people, but the home I found with Vicky was beyond anything even I couldâve dreamed up.
Now itâs rubble.
And not the cool kind you can turn into furniture. Itâs toxic and twisted up with unbearable loss, not to mention anger with myself.
And every time I see a griffin, or that ice cream she likes, or a mime, or a hundred other stupid things, that rubble pile gets deeper. And every time I get the urge to tell her some interesting news or a funny realization, I remember I canât.
And the pile gets deeper.
Why did I listen to her when she told me not to go after her that day?
Well, I know why. I wanted to give her a little space. I wanted to respect her in a way that the world hadnât.
Fool move.
I underestimated the trauma that sixteen-year-old Vonda endured, underestimated how deeply it burned.
A day later it was too late. She and Carly were gone. Vanished. When Vicky vanishes, she doesnât mess around.
I got the company, just like she said I would. I got it backâfull control. Cold comfort.
I pour myself a scotch and wander out onto my veranda where she fed me cookies and joked about tea cozies. I know what they are now. I looked it up.
The night is mild for late October. I stare up at the moon, wondering if she might be looking at it this very moment. A cliché.
Itâs unlikely sheâs moongazing. Itâs probably daytime where she is; thatâs what our PI thinks. He had a lead for Hong Kong. A few continental European cities. Nothing panned out.
In the dark of the veranda, I open up my laptop. Before I even check my email, I click to a section of bookmarks thatâs all jewelry. Itâs a morbid ritual, perusing the latest debut designer collections of high-end boutiques around the world. I also look at solo designers.
She wouldnât be so stupid to start up her sequined dog bowtie business again. And she probably wouldnât create that Smuck U line I so loved and hated, either, but she has to do something.
Sheâs a makerâitâs in her bonesâand womenâs jewelry was her passion.
She told me so many things. I couldâve told her about the hearing and the good cop thing, explain that Iâd abandoned it. Was some little part of me holding all that back to protect my advantage? Covering my ass? Needing to arrange things to come off perfect to her? Not wanting to rock the boat of our time together? Not trusting her to understand?
I click through collections. Itâs not the names Iâm looking at; itâs the pieces. I feel sure Iâll see a necklace or a pin or something, and Iâll recognize her vision in it, her sense of humor, her spiritâsomething essentially her bubbling up out of the pages of baubles, unmistakable as a fingerprint.
I stay out there until dawn, clicking through the images. Then I switch to coffee and get ready to deal with the world.
Over the next few weeks, Latrisha completes the cool-as-hell furnishings for the Moreno, and we collaborate on the installation and interior finishes. I make sure the website is updated with plenty of pictures, just so Vicky can see.
Or should I call her Vonda? I donât know, but what I do know is that sheâll check. She wonât be able to help herself.
I throw myself into the Ten redesign. It feels good to do the place right. The neighbors are excitedâweâre experimenting with bringing them into limited sections of the process. Maybe itâs arrogant, but I have this idea that one of these days, Vicky will pull up the website for that, too.
I want her to see it. I want her to see that beautiful things can be real. Or maybe that real things can be beautiful.
Not everything I do that autumn is noble. I have enough anger to go around, and my sights also happen to be set on Vickyâs mother and the Woodruffs.
The New York Nightly Reports I-team is excited about the idea that I brought them for a news-hour segment about what really happened with Vonda OâNeil. Getting the salacious truth of the story. The mindfuck that everyone was wrong about her, and the opportunity to shame the true villains on camera.
Thatâs how I find myself flying up to Deerville the week before Thanksgiving with a stack of cashâa hundred thousand, to be exact.
I got the idea for this whole thing after Brett told me that he thinks the mother still has evidence. He figured it out from something Denny said to him about the Woodruffs having to keep her quiet.
This little nugget doesnât put him back in my good graces, but itâs a start.
Maybe.
The news crew is made up of Marv Jenkins, the on-camera personality, two camera operators, and a tech guy. The address they got for Vickyâs mother, Esme OâNeil, is wrong, but we track her down to a trailer park and then follow the bread crumbs from there to a poorly lit local bar.
I recognize her right away, down at the end.
Sheâs the skinny woman drinking alone, hair dyed red, skin wrinkled beyond her fifty-something years. She looks bewildered and angry when the lights and cameras fire upâitâs an ambush and a half.
Newscaster Marv buys her a drink and coaxes her into repeating the lies on camera. My blood boils as she tells the world how surprised she was that her own daughter lied. Sheâd believed the girlâhow would she know her own daughter turned out to be a liar? Itâs a well-worn speech, calibrated for maximum sympathy.
Her voice wavers when she meets my eyes. Does she feel my rage? Does she sense itâs the end of the road for her story?
The cameras go off when sheâs done. I step up and slap the cash onto the scratched wooden bar. Bundles of fifties. The Woodruffs were paying her, but probably in the low five figures. My money adds up to more.
âNow youâll tell the truth,â I say. âAnd after that, youâll deliver the evidence youâre holding back. We know you have it.â
She protests, but her gaze doesnât leave that money. When she looks up at me, thereâs defeat in her eyes, I know sheâll bite. Sheâll take that money. Sheâll sell herself out.
Maybe I should have some compassion.
She lost the love of her life and couldnât cope.
I get it. Iâve been there.
I live there.
The footage they gather is insane. Esme OâNeil takes us to a safety deposit box where she has the shirt and a nanny camâstill inside a bear. Thereâs a cop along to keep the chain of evidence right. The footage inside the bear is Papa Woodruff and Denny bargaining with her for the shirt.
We fire it up on a tablet. Itâs captured perfectly. The money exchange is clear as day. âHelloooooo,â Marv says, sounding like a mustachioed, bathrobe-wearing porn star greeting his bedmate. âAnd with this, the story goes national.â
They get Esme being sorry. They get actual lab shots of the shirt testing. Itâs like one of those hidden treasure shows or something.
The Woodruffs got a mayo-spattered shirt, as it turns out. You can never trust a drug addict.
The news feature crew does a Denny ambush at a black-tie galaâthey actually hold everything under wraps just to surprise him at the gala. They make him repeat the lie about how Vonda must have fixated on him, and how he doesnât blame her for the lies.
They run the footage on a phone for him. They get it on camera, him watching himself standing behind his dad in the sad OâNeil living room all those years ago, paying Vickyâs mother for the shirt.
He calls it fake news and storms out of there, lawyering up soon after.
Thereâs a simultaneous confrontation with the Woodruffs on their doorstep that nightâthe same doorstep they stood in when they announced they forgave Vonda and that theyâd drop the charges.
Thereâs nothing the public loves better than liars getting caught on camera.
Marv and the I-team make it onto a sixty-minute news show, with the new material spliced up with old Vonda footage.
The statute of limitations has run out on Dennyâs crime as well as the cover-up, but thereâs no statute of limitations in the hearts of the public.
The story rips like wildfire through social media. Dennyâs friends and client base dry up overnight. The Woodruffs are ostracized by all but the hugest assholes.
Who knows, maybe theyâll try to sue Esme OâNeil. But sheâs in rehab. Itâs more than she deserves.
She turned on her own child. A beautiful, honest girl who deserved love. Still does.
She has itâfrom me. My love for her bounces uselessly off the moon.