Chapter 42: Chapter 42

Liviana’s POV

I felt tired.

And I just wanted to rest.

If I could, maybe forever.

A lot of things has happened in such a short span of time.

But this….

This might just be the end of it.

I’m upset.

I’m upset of myself.

For being in this situation.

If I die, my pack will lose their Alpha.

That’s right.

My pack.

They need me.

I gasped for air as my eyes opened.

I took in my surroundings.

Where am I?

It was a beautiful flower field.

I have not seen this place before.

It looked surreal.

I got up and my eyes wandered.

“Liviana”

I turned to look at who called my name and my eyes widened immediately before I bowed my head in respect.

“Moon Goddess” I said.

“My child” she said and I carefully looked at her.

She gave me a warm smile before making her way to me.

I kept my head in a bow.

Am I really dead?

“Look at me, my child” she said and I looked up as she said.

“Do you know where you are?” she asked. I shook my head slightly.

“Am I dead, goddess?” I asked carefully. The goddess chuckled and even her chuckle sounded unreal.

“No, my child. Not yet at least” she said and I almost sighed in relief.

I still have a chance, I think.

“Do you remember what happened?” she asked again. I carefully nodded.

Of course.

“Why did you do it, Liviana? Everyone had warned you to be careful. Yet, here you are” she said clearly not pleased with my reckless behavior.

“I’m sorry. I only wanted to help” I said guilty.

But then again, helping isn’t bad.

“I know, my child. But you keep putting yourself in the worst possible situations” she scolded me.

I bit my lower l*p guilty as I lowered my head like a child.

The goddess sighed.

Then she lightly held my chin and made me look at her again.

“Do you wish to live up to your fate?” she suddenly asked.

I froze in place.

Do I want it?

Do I want to be the heir to Lunar and Halo?

Do I want to rule both territories?

Do I want to be mated to a prince?

Do I want to be the first female Alpha?

Do I?

Suddenly, a tear escaped my eye.

Why does it have to be so hard.

I never complained once to anyone before how hard it was to grow up being trained for combat.

I never complained once when I had to take over the Alpha duty when my dad left.

I always had to put up a front.

Like I was the perfect Alpha.

Like nothing can hurt me.

Like how superior I was.

But in reality, I’m still an 18 year old she-wolf who wish to have had a chance to live a normal life.

Sure, I loved being able to lead my pack.

I loved helping others in need.

But it’s draining.

I could only give so much when I have nothing left.

When every piece of me is missing.

“I don’t know” my voice broke. The moon goddess pulled me closer to her hugging me.

“Oh child” she said and I burst into tears.

“It’s so hard” I sobbed.

I’ve really been crying a lot these days.

“I know. I know” she cooed as she caressed my hair.

“And it will get harder. But know that all of this will help you get stronger” she said.

“I chose you for a reason, Liviana” she told me.

“You have something in you that no other wolf has” she said.

“What is it?” I asked curiously. The goddess gave me a small smile.

“You’ll what it is by yourself soon enough” she told me.

“For now, do you wish to go back?” she asked. I gulped.

“May I please stay a little longer?” I asked carefully.

The moon goddess nodded with a small smile.

“Okay, my child” she said before kissing my forehead then disappeared into thin air.

I sighed.

I walked for a little while until I reached a long river.

I sat beside it and looked up at the sky.

It was beautiful.

For a moment, I wanted to just stay.

To never come back.

But all the memories of the people I cherished flashed through my mind.

My dad, Dimitri.

Edmond.

Theresa.

El.

Ellie.

Alex.

Dante.

Blake.

Katie.

And Luan…

Then there’s also my real father whp I’ve never met before.

King Kale.

How would he feel when he finds out that his daughter died after he had desperately saved me years ago?

I stood up.

I want to go back now.

I’m not sure of the rest yet.

But I want to go back.

I want to meet my father.

“Are you ready to go back now?”

I turned to look at the moon goddess and nodded.

“Yes, goddess” I said. She smiled then came closer to me.

“The place where you will find yourself when you wake up is the place where you can meet me. I am here for you, my child. Always” she said before planting a k**s on the top of my head.

Then there was a bright light.

My eyes widened as I swam to the top and I gasped for air when I was finally out of the water.

I looked around frantically.

I was in an unknown place.

It had a waterfall and it was surrounded with trees still.

I swam to the edge and climbed up the rock as I stared at the beautiful place.

Then I looked at myself and saw that I was only wearing a hospital gown.

My brows furrowed.

If I was in the hospital earlier and now I’m not….uh-oh.

Everyone is going to freak out.

But that’s the least of my worries right now.

I still have so much going on in my mind.

Like if I actually wanted all of this.

I sighed.

I reached for my back to touch the spot where I was pierced through with the silver knife.

But there was no sign of any wound again.

No scar either.

But I could still remember the pain.

Yet, it felt less than how I feel when I think about leaving the people I cherish.

And not being able to see my dad again and my father for the first time since I was hid in almost 18 years.

And not being able be with Luan, my mate.

I almost couldn’t tell him how thankful I am of him still.

That no matter how annoying he was, I still appreciated him so much.

And that for the first time in my life…

I started liking a guy.