Livianaâs POV
I stared into the distant as my mind wandered off somewhere.
âLiviâ
I snapped back to reality.
âAre you okay?â Blake asked worried. I gave him a smalk smile.
âIâm goodâ I lied.
Itâs been almost a month since I ârejectedâ Blake and told him how I felt about Luan.
And itâs also been almost a whole month since I havenât seen him.
Not even a glance.
Nothing.
He wasnât in school anymore.
Atleast thatâs what I heard.
He left.
After I went all through the trouble of figuring out what I felt about him and how even rejecting Blake, he left.
Without a single goodbye.
I tried to reach out to him a couple of times for the first two weeks that he was gone but he completely shut me off.
Even Amaris couldnât get hold of his wolf because Luan is preventing him from Amaris.
I felt pathetic like I was trying to chase after him desperately.
So I stopped.
I didnât care anymore if he cut us off.
I know now.
I shouldnât have felt the way I did.
I shouldnât have developed feelings for him.
Thatâs my fault.
And Amarisâ for being the btch that she is.
I sighed.
âLiviâ
I looked up to see Cassandra.
âCan I please talk to you?â she asked. Blake and Katie looked at me for a moment.
âOkayâ I simply said, stood up and excused myself.
We walked out of the cafeteria.
âWhat do you want to talk about?â I asked blankly. Cassandra looked at me with worry.
âHow have you been?â she asked softly. I raised a brow at her.
âWhy are you asking my this?â I said. She sighed.
âWell, itâs been almost a month since Luan left without telling any of us. Not even you; his mateâ she said almost apologetically.
I chuckled in disbelief.
âI donât even care. He can do what he wants with his life and he does not need to tell me anything about what heâs doing with his life like I donât need to tell him whatâs happening in mineâ I said with a blank expression.
âBut youâre matesâ she said. I sighed.
âNot all mates need to be together. Luan and I can live both our lives separately. Itâs not a big dealâ I said and she sighed.
âLivi, donât say that. I know very well how much you mean to Luan and how much he wants to be with you. I donât know what suddenly came to him that he left but please be patient with himâ she said hopeful.
âLetâs not talk about this anymore, Cassandraâ I said and gave her a pat on the back.
Lunch ended and our afternoon classes started.
I couldnât focus as I spaced out over and over again.
Amaris has been whining and whimpering without Luan.
I can feel her pain.
She feels upset and lonely because of our mate.
A rejection wouldâve been better at this point.
Except it was already too late.
We canât reject him now.
Chances are we both die because of it since we already spent so much time together.
If only I had rejected him a long time ago.
Class ended and I went home to the pack house in my motor bike.
I arrived there in no time and did my usual routine of showering then going to my office to deal with paperworks.
There was a knock on the door and Dante came in with a tray of food in his hands.
âHey, princessâ he greeted and put down the tray on the table on the side then gave me a k**s on the top of my head.
âEat dinner first before you continue all of thisâ he said and took the papers from my table.
I couldnât complain because this was already a normal occurrence at this point.
I refused to go down to have dinner because I just wanted to be buried in work to distract myself from unnecessary thoughts.
Thoughts that had to do with Luan to be exact.
Dante sat down in front of me as I lazily ate my food.
âThat brat seems to be missing in action these daysâ he suddenly said.
I raised a brow at him.
âYour so called mateâ he said and I frowned.
âSo what if heâs not here. I actually prefer it that way anywayâ I lied. He chuckled.
âWhatâs wrong, Liviana? Did he do anything? Do you want me to snap his neck for you?â he said sounding a bit too serious.
âNo. He didnât do anythingâ I said bitterly.
Dante looked at me with a raised brow.
âI donât want to talk about itâ I said as I avoided his gaze.
âOkayâ he simply agreed.
I finished my food and Dante left with it to leave me to do my job again.
Again, I distracted myself with work and didnât even keep track of time.
It was already midnight when I finished and got back to my room.
I plopped down my bed and stared at the ceiling.
Thereâs no use.
I canât even sleep much.
I havenât had any proper sleep since Blake confessed and after I asked Luan for space.
I thought I would be able to sleep after Blake and I settled our friendship.
But no.
Luan really had to give me a reason to continue being insomniac.
Great.
Just great.
I tried to fall asleep.
Then I saw myself in the meadow where I usually meet the moon goddess.
âLivianaâ
I turned to see the moon goddess and I bowed to her as she approached me.
âHow are you doing, my childâ she asked but I only gave her a small smile.
âI guess your reaction means something is wrongâ she stated although we both already know that she knew the answer to that question before she even asked.
âIs the absence of your mate bothering you?â she asked.
âNo, of course notâ I said defensively making the moon goddess chuckle. I blushed embarrassed.
âI donât know what his problem is. We were okay when we last talked but nowâ¦.now weâre a mess againâ I said as my heart clenched.
The moon goddess gave me a hug.
âIt will be okay, my child. Maybe like you, your mate also needs spaceâ she tried to comfort me. I sighed.
âGoddessâ I said.
âYes, my child?â she said and looked at me.
âIâve been meaning to ask. Why did suddenly you mark me?â I asked as politely as I could.
âIf I didnât mark you, you wouldâve died Liviana. I had no other choice. My mark can and will protect you from future harmâ she said as she lovingly caressed my hair.
I nodded in understanding.
âNow, now letâs not change the topic so quicklyâ she said and I g*****d in response making her chuckle.
âIf you donât want to talk about it with me, then I have an alternativeâ the moon goddess suddenly said.
My brows furrowed.
Alternative?
She turned her head to where the forest is and suddenly a familiar black wolf got out of the bushes.
I frowned.
Luanâs wolf.