Chapter 37// "I don't stare I was just appreciating your masculinity"
Stay in there and don't come out ' I tell my boobs a stuff them back in to my Wonder woman top. I shuffle the red and gold colored top upwards and let out a sigh. I put on the tiny blue short and fit them so you couldn't see half my ass.
I loved Halloween, it was one of my favorite seasons in the year, but I say that for every festive time in the year.
I throw my hair bring my back and place the crown on my head. My hand comes back looking black. That's what happens when you use cheep Claire's non-permanent hair dye.
I walk over to the speakers connected to my phone and turn the soft hum of music right up. I grab my cool curlers and begin to sing along to my spotify playlist. I flip my hair form side-to-side trying to act sexy keeping with the beat of the music.
"Looks like the Cheerleader has some moves" Call s a voice form not too far away. For a second I thought there was someone standing in my door frame but there wasn't anyone standing there. I turn around to face my window.
Conner stood there in only a pair of skinny jeans his arms crossed across his chest. I don't even try and stop myself form letting my eyes run for his eyes down to his v-line. I couldn't let them go any further.
I knew my face was bright red; even the amount of foundation I was wearing right now couldn't cover that up. I raise my head slightly too look back in to his cold blue eyes. One of his blonde eyebrows rose like he was questioning me.
"It's rude to look in to your neighbor house" I tell him; he looked like a model leaning against his window frame as he continued to look at me.
"I was just wondering where the source of the screaming was coming from"
I roll my eyes and kick some of my clothes aside trying to actually see the floor, I pull my shorts down and flick my hair behind my back. I was trying to act confident when really I was melting on the inside but who wouldn't have you seen Conner. Damn.
"Shouldn't... shouldn't you get a shirt on' I ask him. "It's kinda breezy"
He purposely flexes his muscles. "Why can't keep you eyes of me"
I snap my eyes back to look at him feeling even more embarrassed. I stand there wordlessly, knowing I should walk away but not wanting to.
"Are you going to Aiden's Halloween party?" His voice was low and soft. Growing up I thought this would only be the voice I could ever love. Every time he used to talk to me it would make my thought run all sorts of places, now he was just inches away form me.
"Yeh, you know why else would I be wearing this" I point at my costume. He gives me a once over only to look back at me, still keeping his composed facial expression.
"I was to busy looking in to your eyes"
Excuse me but are we in some sort of parallel universe because I think I just heard the bad boy Conner Ryder flirt with me?
"Don't do that" I tell him.
He furrows his eyebrows slightly so he was frowning "Do what"
"Use your bad boy charm on me, it won't work"
"Bad boy?" He asks me tilting his head ever so lightly but nevertheless his blonde hair flips to the side in a messy fashion.
"Well you fit the job description, the bad reputation, the motorcycle, and the sexy..." I clamp my mouth shut, my mouth was running faster then my thoughts. I see the ghost of a rare smile play on his lips.
That's when I begin to think about Elliott, he always let a faint smile play on his lips when I did something embarrassing. Then he would wrap around me and tell me no matter what I said and did her would love me all the same. What a load of bullshit!
I wipe away thoughts of him and concentrate on Conner.
"Give me a lift to Aiden's" He tells me. He doesn't ask.
"And why would I do that' I ask him when actually I was thanking god for giving me this opportunity of this moment. Come on this is Conner Ryder we're talking about.
"You owe me" he replies calmly his tone never changing, always that deep sexy voice. "So how a bout it Cheerleader, we'll be even"
I roll my eyes at him sighing like this is the most boring moment of my life, when in actual fact I wanted to do a cartwheel over my bed.
"Sure I guess, I know most guys can't stay away form me anyway"
And that's when he does the one thing in the world I would never expect. This boy was a bloody ninja.
It was s0 fast that it was practically impossible for me to see but the sudden shock of him practically flying out his window and landing on my window sill made me loose my balance.
I was ready to hit the ground due to the shock. I put my hands behind me ready to fall.
But instead I feel a sly hand place itself at he ball of my back. I tense up, my eyes were squeezed shut. This was not happening to me against. I wasn't usually this danger prone.
I open my eyes wide, his grayish eyes were so close to mine and his body was hovering over me and a single hand holding me up.
My thoughts were completely scattered as I could help but look away form his gaze. His face was completely empty of emotion.
I glance downwards to realize the upper half of his body was still uncovered. There go my cheeks flaring up as usual. I take a sudden step back from him.
He looks away from me and stands up straight completely unfazed by our little encounter.
"I'm not one to make sexual jokes, but you really need to stop falling for me blondie, your taking this whole Head cheerleader and Football Captain thing too seriously"
Oh if only he knew how I used to feel about him.
"Yeh I know ever Head cheerleader and Football Captain don't need to hook up"
"Aribella and me have never hooked up" He tells me as he causally begins to look around my room.
I try not to look shocked but I was doing a very good job at it. Around a year ago Aribella was parading around the fact that her and Conner slept together.
"I don't believe you" I tell him honestly.
I see him slowly reach for something. Of all things that had to catch his eye.
"Cute " he says reading the front of my harry potter bra. Why you may ask do I own one of these. Because only my best friend Emily would buy me one of these. On the front it said 'I solemnly swear I'm up to no good'.
"An E cup that's a achievement for a small thing like you"
I was done with this boy.
"Shouldn't you get a shirt on' my voice came out as a squeak but I quickly compose my self standing up straight trying to hide the embarrassment in my eyes.
He holds up a light grey nike jumper in his left hand.
"Can I use your bathroom" he ask but before I can even answer I hear the sound of the door lock. I stand there for a minute completely dumbfound. Conner Ryder just climbed in to my house. No he flew in to my house, like a freaking bird.
I was tempted to slap myself to see if I was imagining all this.
I go over to my mirror quickly and fix my messy hair, flattening out the curls that was until I hear a slightly girlish squeal.
That's when I see Conner running out my bathroom, like he'd seen a ghost. I didn't know my bathroom was that messy?
'There's a fucking animal in there" His voice was slightly breathless; he points in to my bathroom.
I raise my eyebrow at him, look at him like he was being ridiculous. I walk in to the bathroom.
There was a shadow of something moving behind my shower curtain. For some reason it looked like a huge beast. I could hear it's tiny feet making loud clawing sounds.
I pull back the curtain and lift up Vincent who had got himself in a slight tangle with one of my towels.
I pick him up laughing. I carry him out the room and stand in front of Conner.
"This is Vincent" I tell him.
"Now I know why I thought he was scary, look at the size of him" Conner was trying to cover up for his sudden outburst.
"Don't ever call my cat fat' my voice had a slight warning behind it. Vincent lets out a little grown agreeing with me.
"Sorry Garfield" He says.
"His name is Vincent"
"Same thing" With that Vincent scrambles out my grip and runs over to my bed to my bed to stretch himself out on the right side of it. As I usually slept on the left.
That's when I realize that he probably thought Conner was going to place.
We leave my room Conner leading the way. I hated how all of Elliott's friends lived in this house like it was they're own.
"Oh hello dear, how did you get in the house" my mom asks very confused as she see Conner.
"Your one of Daniel's friends aren't you" she continues.
"Good Afternoon Mrs Dawson" He replies.
"Oh dear, I'm not a Mrs Dawson' she laughs.
"He was watching me form his window which is next to mine and jumped form his window, to my room. He practically broke in to our house" I tell my mum. Her mouth changes to an 'O' shape.
"Well I'm just happy that your moving on" She replies quietly, walking out the living rom. I frown. That's not the reply I was looking for.
I grab my car keys form the counter; I bit my lip as I slip on my heels. The last time I had sit in front of the steering wheel of a car was when I was trying to stop Elliott form leaving.
Inside the car Conner casually sits next to me wordlessly. I nervously place the key in the car.
"You seem a little nervous" He tells me as he look down at my shaking hand.
I try and bite down on my tongue to stop myself form giving a sarcastic reply but I couldn't hold it back.
"Very observant aren't we tonight" I reverse out the driveway on to the busy street.
"You look better as a blonde" he tells me "Know I can't call you blondie or I'll look like a idiot"
"You already look like a idiot"
Yeh a gorgeous idiot.
"Is that why you keep staring at me" He asks.
Have you ever imagined what it would be like to sit a few inches away form your crush in a enclosed area, where there are no people around? If not then have a good think about it because it is one of the most embarrassing moments of your life.
"I don't stare I was just appreciating your masculinity"
"If you want you can call it that but it doesn't change the facts"
"Don't get cocky with me" I playfully tell him off.
"Then you don't get sarcastic with me" he snaps back playfully.
"Ah well I run on caffeine, sarcasm and inappropriate thoughts about attractive boys"
"And do I come under your list of 'attractive boys" he cocks an eyebrow at me.
'Of course not'
More like hell yes.
"You know awesome things will happen to you tonight if you choose not to look like a miserable cow' I tell him suddenly.
"What do you mean by that" he asks. Okay I don't think my words were meant to come out lime that.
"I mean you need to smile a little, a smile is the prettiest thing you can wear'
With that he raises an eyebrow at me like I was some sort of idiot.
*
The party was like every other party, loud, and filled with drunken hormonal teenagers.
I lean against the wall drinking out a red cup watching different couples hook up who would regret it in the morning
"Don't you think they should just hook up already' a voice comes form behind me, I turn to see Conner standing behind me.
I could smell form his breath that he had definitely been drinking.
"Winter and Daniel, please they hate each other, they're always arguing. I wouldn't be surprised if one murdered the other" I observe form my brother and best friend who were arguing in the corner of a room.
"There's a thin line between love and hate blondie" He gives me a boyish smile, which he would never do if he was sober; he was always so closed off.
"How cliché" I scoff.
"Really, because that's what everyone saw between you and Elliott, always arguing and then one day he fell in love with you"
I think about it for a moment and then look back at Winter and Daniel. They were just like us.
"So why aren't you hooking up with anyone" I ask trying to change the topic.
He lets out a sigh "Maybe because I crave your company instead. Your quite funny you know that and you don't throw yourself me"
I give him an unimpressed look but instead he lets a smile play at his lips and I swear seeing him smile finally made my whole night.
"Look who it is, pretty little Crescent. I like your skimpy outfit" My eyes snap to see Ryan, I glare at him and hope the ground swallows him up. His blonde hair was swept aside in an attractive fashion; his clothes were tight against him showing off his muscles. Everything about him was attractive.
But he disgusted me the sight of him made me feel sick and I really did hate him.
"Go way Ryan" I spit out his name like it was a bad word.
"Getting all feisty are we, I bet that's what Elliott liked about you in bed"
Everyone was looking at me like I was about to snap at him.
"Come on Crescent, why not give me a little kiss' he coos, I step away from Ryan in disgust. I hated the way he said my name. I imitate being sick to how much I didn't want him near me.
"Wow you really suck at this whole getting girls to like you thing, " Conner points out causally. I didn't expect him to step in.
Ryan ignores him and continues to look at me "You just can't get over my brother can you. You think he's going to come back to you" His tone was mocking and I could feel myself hating him more and more each second. I despised this boy.
"Well guess what he's got himself a new girl form what I heard and he's forgotten all about you. You'll sit here for years waiting for him to come back as he gets married and has kids, not that I expect Elliott to ever actually fall in love"
I either wanted to cry right now or punch Ryan.
"Ryan are you infected with stupidity hoe many times do I have to tell you I don't care about Elliott'"
I wanted to do something that changed everyone's perception of me. I didn't want to look like the sad broken girl I really was. I wanted to be bold and brilliant.
I never thought about what I did, I always jumped in to things without a second thought.
I turn around so that my back was leaning against the wall and I see Conner give me a mysterious look as he ad no idea what I was going to do.
Without another though I snake my hand behind his neck and pull his head down to mine until our lips touch.
I heart the whole room gasp.
Conner tense up in surprise and shock and for a moment I think about what would happen if he pulled away.
You can have a crush on a guy for years, he can smile at you everyday but you know deep down you never ever would really imagine that you would ever kiss him.
You know deep down that you would never touch them.
But he doesn't pull away. I move my lips slightly against his pressing forward slightly and Conner does what I don't expect him to do.
He forcefully kisses me back.
I open my closed eyes in surprise; never had I imagined he would kiss me back. We gently move our lips together and I see his brows furrow slightly like he was confused.
His body relaxes in front of mine and I feel my back press against the wall. I place my hand on his shoulder. My whole body was burning up under his presence.
The kiss was heated and passionate though there was no emotion attached on to it. I didn't expect to feel anything on the inside when I kissed him but instead it felt like fireworks were going off in my head.
I was kissing a bad boy, who did bad things to people. Who had been in jail more times than I could tell you and the boy who had a motorcycle.
His lips were ever so slight chapped which created fiction between the two of us and the kiss was fast, I knew one of Conner's hands were up against the wall, because some of my hair was caught in his grip.
Conner was the first one to pull away and as I open my eyes, I briefly see him looking across my face. His expression changes when he sees my brown eyes. His eyes were glowing slightly as the shone brightly.
His cologne was all I could smell, a strong musky scent. I open my mouth to say something but he takes a step back form me.
I look around me to see everyone looking at the two of us shocked. Properly dumbfound.
And that's when Winter drags me away.
*
Winter drove me home seeing as she was one of the only people who weren't drunk at the party; probably because she was busy arguing with Daniel abut who knows what the whole time.
As she stops the car in front of my house she turns to look at me.
"You know I've never seen a girl kiss Conner" she tells me.
'Have you ever seen him kiss a guy" I ask her. She looks surprised at my question.
"I have never seen Conner kiss anything"
"Oh" was all I could say. I couldn't believe I did that, in a way I was embarrassed but I could also feel a light buzz in my veins.
Though I was happy that I kissed Conner, come on this is Conner Ryder we're talking about but something in my head was eating me up. It felt like I was cheating on Elliott. I try and push the thought out my mind, he's probably kissed so many girl by now.
"Do you like him, the way you liked him before you Elliott" she asks me.
Do I still have that same crush on Conner?
"Yes" I reply quietly.
"But what about Crelliott" She asks me sadly; I turn my head slightly confused.
You know Crescent and Elliott..." she whispers his name as if it was a bad word.
I let out a sigh "Winter, he left me. If there was ever a day when he came back, I would never be allowed to take him back. I don't think I could ever do that to myself "
Elliott still had my heart wherever he was but if he was to ever comeback I couldn't take him back, because I wasn't that low of a person. I was better than that.
"Anyway he's probably somewhere in New York right now; wasted. With 2 girls in his bed that are prettier than me. I need to move on form him"
She gave me a sad nod.
"Cress you know if Ryan ever fucks with you again, you r gong to need to hold one of my high heels for me"
"Why just one" I ask her.
"Because I'm going to use the other to kill him" This makes me laugh.
I exit her car walking towards the house in my bare feet and holding my shoes in my hand.
When I enter the house I hear voices coming from the living room. I follow the sound of the voices to see my mom and Elliott's mom talking.
"Mrs Grayson" I say surprised. He looks shocked when she sees me. God she must hate me, I was the reason her son moved to a completely different state.
"Crescent how are you dear" She looks at me with sad eyes.
"I'm okay" I reply.
There was a awkward moment of silence.
"Ill go make some more tea" my moms says as she gets up and out the room.
When my mom leaves Mrs Grayson reaches in to her pocket to pull out a white envelope.
"He gave this to me the night before he left, you wont understand the number of times I wanted to open this"
She was talking about Elliott.
"He told me to give it to you 4 months after he left" she puts it forward for me to take. There was nothing written on the envelope.
"I don't blame you one bit Crescent but you need to understand you brought out a side to my son that no one's ever seen before and now he's so closed of. Don't know where my son is going to end up when he's older but I do know that the greatest mistake he will ever make was letting you go"
"Elliott is he... will he ever comeback my voice was a whisper of pain. She shakes her head. I back out the door, saying I needed to go to bed.
I ran up to my room and quickly checked my shoes aside and then I stop as I look at the letter.
My hand was shaking as I try and open it. The thing that scared me the most was that I knew it was Elliott's letter because it smelt just like him. My breathing was loud as I pull the white piece of paper out.
I unfold it and look at it. It was filled with his boyish handwriting and instantly I feel bad about tonight because I was still in love with Elliott but I just wanted it to stop. The pain that I felt while he was gone.
I force my eyes to glance at the first few words trying to not let tears slip out my eyes
Dear Dawson, my sexy Crescent...
Author note:
Oooh cliff hanger !!! I actually really like this chapter! But it probably has so many errors sorry
Well were any of you expecting that kiss.
Also I wonder what Elliott's letter has to say, in the letter what do you think?
So I have began writing the chapter from Elliott's prov and Omg it's so sad, hopefully I upload it before hmmm.... Chapter 50 haha X