Mamma and I sit with my archenemy at the kitchen table, watching in silence as he devours his pasta.
Iâve never seen a man eat like this. He fell on his plate and started inhaling the tagliatelle with meat sauce like heâd been adrift at sea in a raft for six months.
Iâm equal parts fascinated and disturbed.
âMmmpf,â he mutters around a mouthful, rolling his eyes heavenward and chewing lustily. âGod almighty. Mrs. Caruso, this is the best bloody food Iâve had in my entire life.â
âLooks like the food youâve had in your entire life. And thank Reyna, sheâs the cook.â
He stops eating long enough to glance at me in surprise. âYou made the meal?â
As if he wasnât sitting right in that damn spot watching me the entire time.
âFrom scratch,â Mamma supplies when I only sit there glaring daggers at him. âThe pasta, the Bolognese, the focaccia. And that Caesar dressing on your salad is homemade, too. Reyna does all the cooking for the family. Once my husband died, I hung up my apron for good.â
Quinn grunts.
Somehow, it encapsulates his disbelief that Iâm able to put together an edible meal along with an acknowledgment of my fatherâs passing. Though I shouldnât be surprised, considering most of his vocabulary is probably composed of such nonverbal expressions.
Barnyard animals arenât known for their witty discourse.
I take another swig of the pinot from my glass. My plate of food remains untouched. My stomach is unsettled and my armpits are damp, and I canât wait for him to finish his supper so I can smash his plate with a hammer and dump it into the trash, ensuring no civilized person can ever eat from it again.
That fork heâs using will have to go, too.
There isnât enough bleach in all the world to clean his germs off it.
Tearing into a piece of focaccia bread with his teeth, Quinn says, âDoes Lili cook?â
Mamma glances at me, waiting to hear how Iâll handle the question.
I go with a neutral-sounding âYes.â
âThis well?â
I hesitate, not wanting to admit that Lili has been banned from the kitchen for starting not one but fires, one in the microwave and one on the stove.
âSheâs learning. Iâm sure in time sheâll master it. If you recall, sheâs only a teenager.â
I say the last part acidly. Iâm gratified to see it gives Quinn pause.
He looks at me steadily for a moment, a lump of bread bulging in his cheek, then chews and swallows, wiping his mouth with his napkin.
He sits back in his chair, takes a swallow of wine, then says somberly, âAye.â
Then he exhales heavily, as if heâs troubled by her age.
Mamma shoots me another wordless glance, her eyebrows raised.
Before I can pounce on the opportunity to shame him for wanting to marry a child, he says to me suddenly, âHow old are you?â
Mamma cackles. âAh, , you have a death wish, ?â
Setting my wineglass down carefully on the tableâso I donât break itâI hold his penetrating gaze and say, âWhat charming manners you have, Mr. Quinn.â
âNearly as charming as yours, Ms. Caruso.â
âIâm not the one asking impolite questions.â
âWhy is it impolite to want to know my future auntâs age?â
âAunt-in-law,â I correct, wanting to wash my mouth out with soap just hearing it. âAnd itâs impolite to ask a womanâs age.â
âAs impolite as it is to shower a new relative with suchâ¦â He regards my withering gaze and my stiff posture. âWarmth and hospitality?â
Mamma says, âDonât take it personally, Homer. She doesnât like anyone.â
âI like some people just fine!â
She looks at me. â
. Name two.â
The Irishman grins, leaning over his plate and setting his elbows on the table. He props his chin in his hands and says, âThirty-eight.â
My inhaled breath is sharp and loud. âI am thirty-eight years old.â
He pauses to take a leisurely, half-lidded inventory of my face and chest. âThirty-six?â
I say flatly, âThat butter knife can also be used as a carving tool.â
âFive? Four?â
âI think itâs time we called it an evening, Mr. Quinn.â I shove my chair out from under me and stand.
He lounges back in his chair and smiles, folding his hands over his stomach and stretching out his legs, the very picture of the lord of the manor at ease.
âBut we havenât had dessert yet.â
Mammaâthe traitorâseems to find the entire exchange highly amusing. In fact, she seems to find Mr. Quinn himself highly amusing, something that outrages me.
Sheâs the one who said the Irish are despicable!
I grit out, âWe donât have any dessert.â
âExcept for that panna cotta you made this morning,â says Mamma. âThereâs some tiramisu left, too.â
Quinnâs smile blossoms into a huge grin. He flashes all those nice white teeth at me, not knowing or caring that heâs in mortal danger.
I glare at my mother. âHow of you to remember, Mamma. Isnât it time for you to go to bed?â
She looks out the kitchen window, then back at me. As itâs only six thirty and the middle of August, itâs still light outside. But since sheâs chosen the wrong side of this fight, she needs to leave.
She stands. Quinn stands, too.
âIt was lovely to meet you, Mrs. Caruso,â he says.
His smile appears to be genuine. Not the shit-eating, fuck-you smile heâs always gifting me.
Mamma says, âNice meeting you, too, .
Good luck.â
She hobbles out of the kitchen, chuckling to herself.
Smug, Quinn looks at me. âTook to me like a duck to water, donât you think?â
I say flatly, âItâs the dementia.â
âNo, lass, your motherâs as sharp as a tack.â
âWhich is why she kept calling you a goofy rooster.â
âAdmit it. She likes me.â
âShe likes maggot cheese, too.â
He grimaces. âWhat the bloody hell is maggot cheese?â
âLook in the mirror and find out.â
He gives me a sour look, then takes his seat again and glances pointedly at the refrigerator.
âMr. Quinn, Iâm not serving you dessert. Please, go now.â
âWhy would I want to leave when weâre having so much fun?â
âYouâre as much fun as gangrene.â
âOuch.â
He pretends to be serious, but I can tell heâs trying not to laugh.
I grab my plate of uneaten pasta, stride over to the sink, and dump it down the drain. I run the water and the garbage disposal at full blast, hoping the racket will deafen him.
He leans over the table, picks up my empty glass, and refills it with pinot. Over the din of the garbage disposal, he shouts, âIâll try the panna cotta the tiramisu. And I love mango ice cream, if youâve got it.â He smirks. âIf not, Iâm sure you could whip up a batch, since youâre such a walloping good cook.â
I turn off the water and the disposal, grip the edge of the sink, close my eyes, and take a deep breath, praying for strength and for the ceiling to give way and collapse onto his head.
When I open my eyes, Quinn is staring at me with such burning heat, my heart flip-flops.
âAre you afraid to be alone with me, lass?â
âDonât be ridiculous.â
âYou sure? You look a bit flustered.â
âThis is how I always look before I throw up.â
He pulls his lips between his teeth. His eyes sparkle, and his chest starts to shake.
Heâs laughing at me again.
What a big fucking surprise.
âMr. Quinnââ
âSpider.â
I glare at him, heat burning my cheeks and my heart pounding. âI will never call you that stupid nickname. Now please.
.â
He tilts his head and examines my expression. His eyes are still hot, but thereâs something soft in them, too. Somethingâ¦unexpected.
He points at my empty chair and orders, âSit.â
My back stiff, I answer through clenched teeth. âI donât respond to commands. Iâm not a dog.â
âGod knows youâre not,â he says hotly. âNow get your fine arse in that chair, woman. Donât make me tell you a third time.â
That sounded distinctly like a threat. I snap, âOr what?â
He growls, âOr Iâll take you over my knee and teach you some bloody manners.â
My heart takes off into a thundering gallop. My hands start to shake. My breath is shallow, and thereâs a high-pitched ringing in my ears.
I canât remember the last time I was this furious.
Oh, wait. Yes, I can.
The last time he was in my house.
I glance longingly at the wooden block of sharpened kitchen knives on the counter.
Quinn says softly, âReyna.â
I look at him. Big, masculine, and handsome, taking up all the space in the room. His gaze like a forest fire and the faintest hint of a smile hovering on his full, sculpted lips.
Suddenly, I canât wait to get out of here.
But I already know enough about the Irishman to realize that the only way that will happen is if I give him what he wants first.
So I sit.
I grab my glass of wine and guzzle it.
Then I look at him in nervy silence, waiting.
He sits there and smolders back at me, a whirlwind of unspoken questions in his eyes.
Iâm about to jump back up and run out of the room when he says abruptly, âWhy do you live with your brother and niece?â
âWhy do you have a spiderweb tattoo on your neck?â
Itâs out before I can stop it. I had no idea I was curious about that stupid tattoo until just now.
He sets his forearms on the table and leans closer. âIâm the one asking the questions.â
âI know you think youâre in charge of everyone in the universe, Mr. Quinn, but youâre deluded.â
âIâm not in charge of everyone in the universe. Only everyone in this house.â
God, how I hate him for that. How I hate his dominating confidence and his pathological maleness, his assumption that heâand only heâis the one in control.
I hate it more than anything that heâs right.
Because in our world, men are in charge.
And alpha males like him are the very top of the food chain.
âI wonât hurt her,â he says suddenly, startling me.
âWhat?â
âI said I wonât hurt her. I know youâre worried about that, but Iâve never laid a hand on a woman in my life.â He laughs softly. âWell, not in anger.â
I look away, unnerved that he can read my mind so easily, and also by the vivid image my mind unhelpfully provided me of him on top of a naked woman, thrusting between her spread thighs as she arches and cries out in ecstasy.
My face flushes hot again. It seems to be happening with concerning frequency.
âLetâs try again. Why do you live with your brother and your niece?â
I flatten my hands on the tabletop and stare down at them as I gather the necessary mental armor to answer.
âWhen my husband died, Iâ¦â I stop to clear my throat. âIâd never lived alone before. I went straight from my fatherâs house to Enzoâs. After the funeral, I went home to that big, empty house, and I couldnât stand it. The awful silence.â
âSo I packed a bag and came here. Iâve been here since. Iâll get a place of my own eventually. I justâ¦havenât yet.â
âHow long have you been a widow?â
âThree years.â
I notice my hands shaking, so I pour myself the last of the wine from the bottle and gulp it down. Quinn watches me silently, his gaze intense.
âHow long were you married?â
âToo fucking long.â
âAnd how long is that?â
I draw a steadying breath and glance at the ink on my ring finger. Itâs black and comforting, a visual reminder of the promise I made to myself that no man would ever own me again.
âFourteen years.â
âThatâs a long time.â
Aloud, I say, âIt felt longer.â
Neither of us speaks after that for a while. Then he says, âTell me about the rest of the family.â
âLike what?â
âLike how many of you are there?â
âItâs just me, Mamma, Lili, and Gianni.â
âNo grandparents?â
âAll dead.â
âCousins?â
âThereâs no one. Just us.â
âI thought all Italian families were big.â
âI thought all Irishmen were drunks.â
He chuckles. âYou have a smart comeback for everything, donât you?â
âItâs easy to win a war of words when your opponent is a donkey.â
Surprised by how viciously that came out, I look up at Quinn. âIâm sorry. That was rude.â
But he doesnât seem offended at all. Heâs chuckling again, shaking his head.
âWhy are you laughing?â
âIâve been called a lot of things, but a donkeyâs a first.â
Iâm taken aback by his reaction. If Enzo were sitting in his place, my jaw would already be broken.
âWellâ¦itâs not that itâs untrue. I just shouldnât have said it.â
He laughs harder.
Despite my utter hatred for him, I smile.
My smile fades when he rises from his chair, crosses to the wine fridge, and removes another bottle.
âWhat are you doing?â
âWhat does it look like Iâm doing?â
âLike youâre going to open another bottle of wine.â
âAye. And here I thought you were nothing but a pretty face and a forked tongue. You can actually make correct assumptions, too.â
Something about the familiar way heâs teasing me, the way heâs smiling at me from under his lashes and especially the thing about my pretty face, sets my teeth on edge all over again.
âHow about my assumption that youâre going to make my nieceâs life hell? Is that correct?â
He pauses before saying softly, âNot every marriage is awful, lass.â
I scoff. âReally? What fairy tales have you been reading?â
He grabs the corkscrew from the counter, peels off the top of the label from the bottle, and opens it with swift efficiency. Then he crosses to the table and refills my glass.
Standing over me, heâs all heat and muscle, a powerfully potent male presence in a black Armani suit.
âDonât know how many times Iâll have to repeat this, but Iâm not your dead husband.â
I glance up at him. His expression is serious. His hazel eyes are soft and warm.
My mouth goes dry. My mind goes blank. I canât think of a single thing to say to him.
He picks up the wine and hands it to me. âHere. Drink this. Itâll give you something to do with your mouth other than spit venom at me.â
He glances at my mouth and licks his lips.
This is when I realize Iâm at eye level with his crotch.
And that enormous bulge straining the seam of his trousers.
Breaking out in a sweat, I grab the wine from him and drink the entire glass in one go.
He drawls, âDo I make you nervous, wee viper?â
I cough violently, my eyes watering. âYou make me wish for a stroke.â
âWhy do you dislike me so much?â
âBecause you have the personality of a festering wound.â
His lashes lower. He considers me in blistering silence for a moment, then leans down and murmurs into my ear, âLiar.â
He inhales deeply against my neck, raising goose bumps all along my arms.
I stiffen. He exhales, making a low sound of pleasure deep in his throat.
Then he straightens and stares down at me.
âTell Lili Iâll be back tomorrow at five oâclock. Or would you like me to go up to her bedroom and tell her myself?â
Startled, I glance up at him to find his smirk back in place and his hazel eyes mocking.
Without another word, he turns on his heel and walks out of the kitchen, leaving me sitting alone at the table with my heartbeat throbbing and a million questions swimming in my head.
The most important one being that if he knew Lili was in the house all along, why did he stay and eat supper with me?
âOh my God,â I say aloud, horrified. âDoes that son of a bitch think heâs getting a two-for-one special?â