I nod and smile as he walks down the sidewalk.
âItâs cold out here,â Hardinâs voice says behind me, scaring the shit out of me.
I huff and walk past him back into the bar. The table that I was sitting at is now taken by a bald man and his supersized mug of beer. I grab my purse off the stool next to him, and he just gives me a dead-eyed look. Or rather, gives my breasts one.
Hardin is behind me. Again. âLetâs just go, please.â
I step over to the bar area. âCan I just get two feet of space? I donât even want to be around you right now. You said some pretty hateful things to me,â I remind him.
âYou know I didnât mean them,â he answers, defending himself, attempting to make eye contact with me. Iâm not falling for it.
âThat doesnât mean you can say them.â I look over at the girlâLillianâs girlfriendâwhoâs watching Hardin and me from the bar. âI donât want to talk about it right now. I was having a nice night, and you arenât ruining it.â
Hardin steps in between us. âSo you donât want me here?â His eyes flash with hurt, and something in their green depths makes me backtrack.
âIâm not saying that, but if youâre going to tell me that you donât love me or how you use me for sex again, then you need to go. Or I will.â Iâm trying my hardest to keep my bubbly, giggly attitude instead of sinking down and letting the pain and frustration take over.
âYou are the one who started all this shit when you came here with himâdrunk, might I add . . .â he begins.
I sigh. âHere we go.â Hardin is the king of double standards. His latest one is walking toward us now.
âJesus, would you two shut up. Weâre in a public place.â The beautiful girl that Hardin was sitting with interrupts us.
âNot now,â Hardin snaps at her.
âCome on, Hardinâs obsession. Letâs take a seat at the bar,â she says, ignoring him.
Sitting at a table toward the back of the bar and having a drink brought to me is one thing; sitting at the bar top and ordering my own is another. âIâm not old enough,â I inform her.
âOh, please. With that dress on, youâll get a drink.â She stares at my chest, and I pull the front up slightly.
âIf I get kicked out, itâs your fault,â I tell her, and she tips her head back in laughter.
âIâll bail you out of jail.â She winks, and Hardin stiffens next to me. He watches her with warning in his eyes, and I canât help but laugh. He tried to make me jealous with Lillian all night, and now heâs jealous of Lillianâs girlfriend winking at me.
All of this juvenile back-and-forthâheâs jealous, Iâm jealous, the old lady at the bar is jealous, everyone is jealousâitâs annoying. Slightly entertaining, especially now, but still annoying.
âMy name is Riley, by the way.â She takes a seat at the end of the bar. âIâm sure your rude-ass boyfriend isnât planning on introducing us.â
I glance back at Hardin, expecting him to cuss her out, but he only rolls his eyes, which is pretty restrained for him. He tries to sit at the stool between us, but I grab the back, then place my hand on his arm to help myself get up onto it. I know I shouldnât be touching him, but I want to sit here and enjoy my last night of this minivacation-turned-disaster. Hardin has scared away my new friend, and Landon is probably already asleep by now. I donât have any other options except sitting alone in the room back at the cabin. This seems better.
âWhat can I get you?â a copper-haired bartender in a jean jacket asks me.
âWeâll have three shots of Jack. Chill them first,â Riley answers for me.
The woman scans my face for a few seconds, and my heart begins to race. âComing up,â she says finally, and pulls three shot glasses from under the bar and places them in front of us.
âI wasnât going to drink. I only had one before you came,â Hardin leans over and says into my ear.
âDrink what you want; I am,â I say without looking at him. Still, I silently pray that he doesnât get too drunk. I never know how heâll act.
âI can see that,â he says by way of scolding me.
I look at him with scorn, but end up staring at his mouth instead. Sometimes I just sit and stare at the slow movements of his lips when he talks; itâs one of my favorite things to do.
Perhaps noticing Iâve softened somewhat, he asks, âAre you upset with me still?â
âYes, very.â
âThen why are you acting like you arenât?â His lips move even slower. I really need to find out the name of that wine. It was really good.
âI already told you, I want to have fun,â I repeat. âAre you mad at me?â
âI always am,â he replies.
I laugh a little. âIsnât that the truth.â
âWhat did you say?â
âNothing.â I smile innocently and watch him rub the back of his neck with his hand, pinching the top of his shoulders between his thumb and forefinger.
A shot of brown liquor is placed in front of me seconds later, and Riley raises her shot glass to Hardin and me. âHereâs to dysfunctional, borderline-psychotic relationships.â She smirks and tilts her head back to take her shot.
Hardin followers her lead.
I take a deep breath before welcoming the cool burn of whiskey down my throat.
âONE MORE!â Riley cheers, sliding another shot in front of me.
âI dunno if I can,â I slur. âIâve never b-been this drunk, never never.â