Toni's POV
I woke up to a pounding headache, pretty ironic seeing as I just had brain surgery.
I felt something in my hand and look down and saw someone sleeping against the bed holding my hand. They felt me move and woke up and looked at me and grinned. She looked familiar but I couldn't place a name to the face.
Her smile was absolutely stunning, and I got butterflies in my stomach. She turned around and I followed her gaze. It was my parents, she woke them up and they were so grateful to see me awake. They called for a doctor to come in and check up on me.
"How are you feeling my darling?" The girl asked, "I've got a headache but other than that I'm good,"
"Toni do you know who she is?" My dad asked me pointing to the girl holding my hand. "She looks very familiar but I can't think of her name," I replied looking at her. She looked like she was going to cry, oh my. Please don't tell me I was the one who made her cry she's to precious. We must of been close.
"This is your wife darling," my mum said to me. Makes sense why she was going to cry. I shook my head a little, "No way this gorgeous thing is mine," I said, she looked at me with a hint of sadness in her eyes and kissed my cheek.
The next day I was awoken by the nurse coming in to give me breakfast. She looked over at my "wife" whose head was lying on the bed and she was holding my hand (which she must of taken when I had fallen asleep) and smiled sweetly. "She's a keeper that's for sure," the nurse said to me, I looked at my "wife" and smiled which I'm not sure why but it made my heart swell just seeing her lying there, "so I've been told," I replied.
A while later my "wife" woke up, I've been meaning to ask her name because I didn't get told it yesterday. She looked up at me and smiled and I got butterflies.
There's something in the pit of my stomach that I just can't work out, like I'm missing something but I don't know what!
"Can I ask you something?" I asked the girl in front of me, "of course!"
"I hope I don't upset you in anyway because I don't want too, but what's your name?" I asked gingerly.
"Serena," I could see the pain and hurt in her eyes as she replied. She got up and grabbed something from her bag, it was her phone. She pulled up photos of us. As I was going through them one caught my eye and a memory from that day flooded my mind.
We had gone out on a date, roller skating and she had fallen over so many times. Every time she did I would try not to laugh as I helped her up, it was one of my favourite days. All of a sudden I knew who she was and remembered everything about her, and remembered our wedding and the very first day I met her, bloody hell I was so lucky.
She got up to leave and I panicked, "please don't go Serena," I said grabbing her wrist, "really?" She turned around all excited. I smiled because she was smiling, it was so infectious. "Yes my baby," I replied, she leaned in to hug me without hurting me but I pulled her in tighter.
"I remember everything and our wedding and everything," I whispered into her ear and she kissed me then relaxed into me, and now I knew what I was missing that whole time, it was her. My wife.
A week later I was able to go home. Serena has spent the whole week with me and didn't leave my side even when the nurses tried to make her go home. Though they couldn't actually do anything seeing as we're married. I'm so thankful for her. I know it was hard for her especially when I didn't know who she was. Mum was telling me about it and apparently Serena cried to her one night because she thought I wouldn't ever remember her. Even if I didn't remember her, the chances are I would've fallen for her again.
It was night time by the time I was discharged and was ready to leave. I was still in pain as I left the hospital but I was so thankful to be going home, 2 nearly 3 weeks in hospital was way too long. I missed the fresh air and the sun, I missed dancing around the living room and I missed our bed.
Serena drove me home, she was very careful not to hurt me. I jumped a few times when a car got close to us, Serena noticed and held my hand the whole way home.
Once we got home all I wanted to do was cuddle in bed, I was exhausted and in a lot of pain. Serena got me painkillers while I attempted to get changed. It was a struggle and hurt like hell so I sat on the bed and cried. "baby what's wrong?" Serena asked as she walked through the door and noticed me crying. "I'm just sore," I sobbed. She gave me the painkillers and slowly helped me get changed.
As she was taking my shirt off she noticed a scar that I didn't even know I had. She lent down and kissed around it sending shivers down my spine. "Apparently you got this in the accident, the doctor was talking about all the places that were cut and this was the deepest one," Serena said grabbing a shirt from the draw. It was one of my favourite shirts to wear because it was hers and it was oversized on me. She took my bra off and saw the bruises that were left from the seatbelt that still hadn't fully healed. I swear I saw her wipe a tear from her face.
As she was putting the shirt on she got really close, my breath caught in my throat. Damn this girl, even in the state I was in I still wanted her so badly. She looked like she was going to kiss me but instead she pulled the shirt over my head very carefully and pulled me in for a hug. Her arms felt so safe and I melted into them.
I look over at my wife who has fallen asleep on the way home and just think how gorgeous she is. I'm honestly the luckiest girl in the world.
I pulled up and stopped waiting for the traffic lights the go green, and when they did I kept driving but that's when I saw the headlights and then everything went black.
I woke up screaming, well I thought I was screaming but nothing was coming out.
I tried to move but pain shot through my body like a grassfire.
I couldn't move even if I wanted to, I was strapped down to the bed. I looked around the best I could I was in an ambulance, "ma'am can you tell me your name?" The paramedic sitting next to me asked, I tried to reply but no words were coming out. "It's okay you don't have to talk," I relaxed but apparently to much because that's when I heard the paramedic start yelling at me before I blacked out again.
I woke up drenched in sweat and shaking so much. The shaking must of woken Serena up because she sat up and looked worried, "Baby what happened?"
"accident," that's all I could get out as my voice croaked, I tried to hold the tears in but it didn't work. Serena pulled me in and hugged me, stroking my head as I cried into her.
"Come on my darling let's get you into the bath you're drenched," all I could do was nod. She let go of me and went to start the bath. Once she came back she took my clothes off and carried me to the bathroom. I didn't need carrying but it was nice and I appreciated it.
Serena didn't want to leave my alone but I reassured her that I was okay and that I would call her if I needed her. She nodded and kissed me before leaving. I missed her as soon as she was gone but I knew somewhere in my mind that I needed to do this on my own. I was just taking a bath after all.
Soon enough though it all got to much and I felt suffocated and started panicking, "Baby," I tried to yell but it came out as more of a squeak, freaking out thinking she didn't hear me I prepared myself to yell again. She came running in straight away panic written on her face.
One touch from her hand stopped the suffocating feeling, strange how one person can do that.
She helped me out of the bath and wrapped a towel around me, that's when I pretty much collapsed into her arms. I was so tired my body wasn't used to this much pain.
Once I had gotten dried and changed, Serena tried to calm me down and did enough to get me to fall asleep.
The nightmares carried on every night for the next week and by the end of the week I could tell Serena was exhausted but she didn't complain once.
The next few weeks after that I got better but I don't know how Serena didn't murder me in that time.
Serena had to go back to work a month after our accident and while I wasn't mentally prepared for that I knew I had to be. Work had given me another month off because of how bad my injuries were.
Serena's POV
I was going back to work today. I knew I was going to struggle and while we were lucky enough to still be getting paid while we had time off I knew I needed to go back otherwise I never would.
Toni kissed me goodbye, "baby call me if you need me and I'll be home straight away," I said to her and pulled her in for another kiss. "I will baby I promise," she smiled at me, "now go before you're late," I pulled her in for another hug and kiss before I left.
I wasn't really to go back to work that became apparent when I was two hours into my shift and I started having a panic attack. My coworker Lisa noticed and ran to get me some water and told me to sit down and have a break. I tried calling Toni but she didn't answer, it made me panic more. What if she wasn't okay? What if she needs me? I tried to call her again but nothing.
What felt like an hour later there was a knock at the door, I still hadn't calmed down at this point and couldn't talk. I heard voices but couldn't hear what they were saying.
The door opened and I saw Toni. "Oh baby," was all she said as she rushed over to me and pulled me in for a hug. For the first time I started to calm down, so very grateful for her.
Once I had fully calmed down and could talk again I asked her why she was here, "Lisa called and said you weren't doing okay," she replied with, "it never occurred to me that this would be a struggle for you baby. You've kept it together and haven't complained once, that it I didn't even think to ask if you were ready to come back or to even ask if you're okay,"
"I was fine and I thought maybe it was a good time to go back to work. The first hour I was okay, and then I started panicking thinking maybe you needed me or maybe you weren't okay," I took a breath and kept going, " I tried to stop thinking about it because I knew you were fine on your own and that you'd call if you needed me, but the thoughts wouldn't stop and I freaked out so much that I had a panic attack and I'm guessing that's when Lisa called you," she nodded, "I tried calling you to calm myself down but you didn't answer and it made me worse. I'm sorry baby," I finished looking down.
Toni lifted my chin up and I looked at her, her beautiful blue eyes that I fell in love with nearly 2 years later, my heart melted just looking at her, "my gorgeous girl you have nothing to apologise for. You've been so supportive and have constantly made sure that I'm okay and made my life easier this past month. I'm so very thankful to you. You have no idea how much it means to me that you're in my life," I smiled at this point, "I'm sorry for not making sure you were okay to go back to work and making sure you weren't stressed," I shook my head, "don't apologise baby, I'm okay now. You are my life and I will do anything to keep you happy and safe," I pecked her lips, but she pulled me closer and deepened the kiss, I moaned a little before I remembered we were at my work.
"Baby, I know it was so hard for you when I forgot who you were," she started. I nodded, it was a very painful memory which still hurts. "I wish I didn't forget about you, there just felt like there was something missing that whole time but I couldn't work our what was wrong and what was missing and it was so frustrating. I'm very grateful that you never left me my love. You're my whole world and I'm going to spend the next 2 weeks making up for that time that we lost together,"
"Darling, you really don't have too," I replied but I blushed and I couldn't help but smile too.
"Oh but I do,"
"I love you so much baby," I said leaning into her and kissing her, "I love you more my baby,"
We cuddled for a bit longer before I heard a knock at the door, "come in," I said. The door opened and Lisa popped her head around, "how are you feeling Serena?" She asked smiling maybe a little too friendly because I felt Tonis hand tighten around mine just a little, "I'm good now, Toni made me feel better," I said and turned to her and kissed her cheek which made her blush.
"Do you feel up for finishing your shift?" Lisa asked, "Yes I need to do this otherwise I probably won't come back," I laughed, "alright I'll go tell our manager," she replied then left.
"Are you definitely going to be okay?" Toni asked turning towards me, "yes baby girl, are you?"
"Yes, and I promise to call if I need you," I smiled at her, "okay baby," a thought crossed my mind as I replied to her, "wait did you drive over here?"
"Yes baby and I wasn't even scared like I thought I was going to be," she said proudly, "I'm so happy for you baby," I replied before standing up and helping her up.
"I shall see you at home," Toni said to me and pulled me for a kiss, "I love you so much my darling girl,"
"I love you too angel, please text me when you get home," I replied.
"I will baby," she kissed me again and then left. I got up and left the room ready to finish my shift.